I’ve Been Suicidal For So Long That I’ve Just Been Assuming I Wouldn’t Live Even As Long As I Have

“The world doesn’t seem like such a bad place when I’m with you.”

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D.S

(via thelovenotebook)

I begged you to stay. I apologized so that you’d stay. I forgave everything you did to hurt me for you to stay. I swallowed my pride for you to stay. I was so caught up in getting you to stay in any way possible, I didn’t realize that if you wanted to stay I wouldn’t have to do any of the above.

Nikki Giovanni, from “Poem (for EMA)”

Forgive yourself for catching feelings for the wrong person. Forgive yourself for chasing people who did nothing but make you feel like you weren’t enough, people who hurt you over and over till you accepted it as a way of your life. Don’t beat yourself up for wanting to love or be loved. There are worse things in life to be harsh on yourself about. Loving someone isn’t one of them.

Things I wish someone had told me.

The way I loved you wasn’t normal and the way you broke me wasn’t either.

Fuck. Everything hurts and, oh god I wish I was dead.

The worst feeling is having to hide your true feelings for someone because you know it’s better off that way