When I Was Young

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I really don't know what 'I love you' means.

I think it means, 'Don't leave me here alone.'

~ Neil Gaiman

Some has small. Some has none. Check out the ones you don't know about. You are welcome.

All of these.

Cosmere books as bad news headlines

• "Young woman of questionable parentage kills god after eating copious amounts of metal"

• "Apple voice assistant marries mute rainbow god after sister defeats army of undead alongside hobo and talking sword"

• "City of zombies saved by angry man in armor and friendly chef's niece"

• "Depressed people snort lightning, use it to fight lobsters the size of battleships." (idea credit to @Elisabeth_Wheatley on YouTube)

• "Cowboy makes deal with the new god"

• "Girl and mouse boyfriend undo curse on cabin boy"

• "Man cheats death by stabbing his own eye, forms intergalactic gang"

• "Young woman stacks rocks to destroy computer"

• "Dehydrated young man unites senators against himself"

• "Man with PTSD breaks All the Rules, upsets mentor while running from sunrise"

• "Man(??) avoids eternal punishment from several sources while roasting everyone in existence"

And so I will stay.

sometimes I wonder how we all survive and then I look at my best friends and I go “oh, I survive because I don’t want to leave you yet” and it makes sense. life is so hard a lot of the time, but I want one more bowl of pasta with you.

Everyday, and counting.

“Sometimes I feel dead, and I hate everybody”

Ottessa Moshfegh “My Year of Rest and Relaxation”

nbc hannibal lecter is soooo. he’s an apex predator, he’s babygirl. he’s a loser, he can do it all. he’s cold and calculating, he’s sensitive and emotional. he’s a male wife, he’s a sugar daddy. he’s perfectly happy alone, he wants to be seen. he’s got no major weakness (he has one major weakness) he has trauma, nothing happened to him, he happened. he maimed and killed for his freedom, he gave it all up willingly on the off chance Will came back to him. he’s a control freak, he’s adaptable

Relatable post that I dont want to relate to.

me giving affection: oh man i really hope im not like overstepping my boundaries here. what if i make them uncomfortable? do they feel obligated to say thank you? am i going too far and scaring them? what if i’m annoying?

me receiving affection: AAAAAAAAA!!!!! AAAAAAA!A!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAA

Oh the conflict between wanting to tell you everything I want to say and wanting to sit with you in silence forever. Watching clouds.

We all have things we hate about ourselves.   Mine is the desire for your love.

Grief changes. Power reveals.

“Grief does not change you. It reveals you.”

— John Green