A Drawing I Did In Adobe Illustrator For An Assignment

I LOVE being autistic and trying to communicate because every time it’s

WiP cards

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she's so pretty.... and mean to me...

Receiving and understanding being loved as a person and not used as a thing after going through abusive relationships is way harder than media makes it seem.

Like there's no holy rays of 'oh this is how it feels to be healthy' or 'finally the fog and grinding gears are gone im fixed' its years and years of head clenching as you try and understand why someone is just, doing something for you in return for nothing, just making space and time for you, just telling you to care more about yourself with tears in their eyes, it hurts, its hard, and trying to understand and internalize why and how is not some relaxing, natural movement to the brain, its something you have to work hard to get to feel in your heart.

It really isn’t the worst English I’ve seen. And it kinda sounds like you might have anxiety or that you are just neurodivergent also check out this song I think you’ll like

Weird? Fear?

I have this I think weird fear.

I fear situations that might change or help me and I must have control over this situations because I'm not afraid when I don't have control. So basically I can't help myself and continuation to this fear is that I can't write or say my problems to people I know or even write some thoughts for myself in my native language on paper or even in notepad my body just stops me from that. So now you are probably wondering how I'm writing this? how the fuck should I know but maybe on social media my mind thinks that I'm not popular enough to be seen or something I don't know maybe so yeah I need psychological help. I don't know why I'm using tumblr as some place to write my thoughts but it works and with that I can get around my fears with that so it wil help me? probably? but I'm not psychologist.

I'm fucked up :)

I will paste their music here because I can

and Stelle I know you probably will see this I know my english is not too good

Ice cold takes from a Transgender Woman:

Not all Men are evil

Everyone has the capacity for evil

Transgender Men are men

Transgender Women are women

Excluding Cisgender Men from your spaces requires Transgender Men to out themselves if they want to engage (Same for Women)

Anyone can be Non-Binary, there is no "look" or requirement

Non-binary masculine presenting people should be welcome in queer spaces, many are just treated as men and predators

Non-binary feminine presenting people should be welcome in queer spaces without being seen as "Woman-Lite"

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