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It bother me so much that people misunderstand sayaka miki's descent into madness in madoka magica. She doesnt become a witch "just because of a boy." Sayaka is a character who ties all her self worth into being in service of others. We can see this right from the start with her idolization of mami and everything that she was. She saw mami as this "perfect hero" even though mami i would say is mentally the weakest of the holy quintet. In the timelines where mami finds out about the incubator's true goals she always immediately breaks and goes crazy, trying to kill the other girls in her own twisted way of trying to "save them". Instead of seeing the fragile person that mami was, sayaka instead sort of treats her as a martyr, a goal to achieve. We continue on to sayaka's magical girl wish. Instead of wishing for something for herself, she instead sells her soul for the sake of kyousuke. Then when he starts dating hitomi she spirals not because she's sad about the rejection but because she feels replaced in his life, that he doesn't need or want her around anymore. Then she throws herself into her magical girl work not seeing that she's harming herself because she justifies it with "well im saving people that means what im doing is a good thing." She doesn't see that she's becoming more sloppy, more ruthless until its too late. It's only in the end when she turns into a witch that her story gets resolved.

Sayaka Miki is an incredibly sad character to me. While her actions have the illusion of being selfless and "for the greater good" she is actually incredibly selfishly motivated. Everything she does is in service of wanting praise and admiration from the people she cares about. If she helps kyousuke he'll appreciate her and love her, if she becomes a hero she'll receive praise and admiration for being a good person. This is why it is important that of all people it was kyoko that fought sayaka in the end. To homura, sayaka is someone to be saved. To mami, sayaka is her sweet apprentice/younger sister figure. To madoka, sayaka is her energetic and happy go lucky friend. Kyoko is the only one who from the start called sayaka out on her bullshit, seeing straight through her. And at the end, kyoko is the one who truly accepts sayaka. Sayaka as the witch Oktavia von Seckendorff is stated multiple times in official material to be "looking for love." In the end it it kyoko who gives her that love. Even when sayaka has lost her humanity it is kyoko who accepts her for the entirety of who sayaka is with all of her selfishness and desires. She is the one who sees what sayaka has become and stays together with her till both of their ends. Kyoko choosing to die with sayaka is her saying "I'm here for you, i know all of you, and I will love you regardless."

Thinkin' about things.

How Sarah probably kept Ray's note as a trophy of sorts just like the embroidery from the second light novel/chapter 181.2 (coincidentally, both given to her by Krone in an act of betrayal).

How somehow amidst everything that was going on in the turnover of power when Isabella became Grandma, she stumbled across the note (defaulting to her being tasked with cleaning out any of Sarah's personal effects since by the time you reach such a position the demons assume you've fully bought into the system and have nothing worrisome to hide).

How potentially one of the Sisters held onto the note and one day in the human world remembered she still had it.

How that Sister might have approached Ray to return the note that he never imagined he'd see again and explain why she had it.

Part 4!

I know absolutely no sign language. Don't think of this comic as a tutorial :l

Donnie only has three fingers on his hand, so he must have changed it. And then taught it to Casey.

And now Casey can sign, too, but he does it by folding his fingers so that he has “turtle 🖖 hands”

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Breaking news, you have to be bad at something before you can be good at it. I personally am horrified.

“Please, live on. You and I cannot be the same anymore, so, build a new future you will be proud of. Find a new family, find new goals but please… Don’t recall those memories tainted with selfishness.” Lulled the other in the girl’s mind. 

But even if she said that, this body they used to share was still belonging to “the other”. Those scars, those changes… it weren’t hers. Even if she tried to live a new life, she would end up only being the shadow of that old self, not just for herself but to others too.

No matter how hard she would try, in the end, the person called Emma would still haunt her. 

Have y'all read @somerandomdudelmao comics? Cause hoooo boy, I LOVED this scene and had to try my hand at it.

anyways.

Something something being desperate for validation but terrified of being perceived