I am but drained, even without doing much, downright exhausted, struggling to find reasons, motivation or such, to survive.
- DG
The Changed Tables
The tables stood there,
Watching new faces every year.
The words unsaid,
Were written on them everywhere.
Tired minds laid,
The tables wiped the shed tears.
Handling the burden of books,
It was their duty,
That I couldn't share.
Years after, I visited them,
Venting out my fears.
The tables stood there,
Watching new faces every year.
But today they had changed,
Maybe I could've changed earlier.
~ark
Diminishing Hope
I let myself suffer,
With intentions that were never pure.
Standing at the piedmont of growth,
I felt my feet frozen, unable to move anywhere.
My eyes scanned both the ways,
Walking onto which, my survival would be declared.
Afraid of the extremes,
I chose to never try, I turned away with shun ears.
Lacking the courage to fight for my life,
I stood freezing gradually, I faced my fears.
Melting by the newly found energy,
I became essential, drops of water to be shared.
Known to the fact of being fatal,
I returned from my illusions unreal.
In the diminishing hope of reality,
My pain defined me,
The master of my endless prayers.
~ark
Choice
I waited when I wasn't spoken to
I waited for my turn
I was just an option after all waiting to be chosen
To be the answer the correct one
Wasn't it important to change for the question?
Patience is the key they say
But why was I expecting to be the one?
Life is a reflection of our choices
When did I choose to become an option?
~ark
The Ugly Desire
I wondered why they would stab me,
When I have already died.
But who knew, in the alleys of the town,
My cowardness made me imitate them, a guide.
To hear their crumbling sound, my blind desire,
I stepped on the dried leaves,
who lived my life.
~ark
The Dictum
I chose to stay silent,
I chose to avoid violence.
I chose to be alone,
I chose to remain unknown.
I chose to accept them,
The people who hid behind the mask of a friend.
I let myself suffer,
Welcoming the troubles
I cried considering my unfaithful life,
A dictum.
But in all of this,
How was I the victim?
~ark
Maybe they were better without my helping hand, Sucking on my feelings, I became a barren land, Maybe for them, I was never more than a friendship band.
~ark
The Frame
In the frame, lies the memories, The memories of my life, Still unsure, whether the frame, Would be hidden in the dust of shame, Or decorated in the honor of the same. It would definitely remind me of my life, Left behind, the one that gave me a new life. Still unsure, whether the frame broken, Would be repaired or thrown, It'll remind me of their last words, Their nature or true colors shown, Their happiness or fake smiles, I'll remember the old days, While standing in the old aisles. I'll still long on the memories, The frame will behold. With my eyes through which tears, Of relief or regret would flow.
~ark
I expected the whole world, But now, I have accepted my own world.
~ark