“I didn’t watch it [ the Oscars ceremony] on tape for a long time and having seen it one time I will never watch it again, it bummed me out. I looked so fucking fragile and I’m not fragile like that. What the fuck… I don’t even understand what I’m putting across to people. I don’t even know what it is, and when I see it, I’m just kind of appalled.”
Elliott Smith
Elliott Smith invented coquette core 🎀✨
I don't think my personality is compatible with males
She had like 5 minutes of screentime and ate everybody up
sometimes he wakes so far from himself that he can’t even remember who he is. “where am i?” he asks, desperate, and then, “who am I? who am I?”
and then he hears, so close to his ear that it is as if the voice is originating inside his own head, willem’s whispered incantation. “you’re jude st. francis. you are my oldest, dearest friend. you’re the son of harold stein and julia altman. you’re the friend of malcolm irvine, of jean-baptiste marion, of richard goldfarb, of andy contractor, of lucien voigt, of citizen van straaten, of rhodes arrowsmith, of elijah kozma, of phaedra de los santos, of the henry youngs. you’re a new yorker. you live in soho. you volunteer for an arts organization; you volunteer for a food kitchen. you’re a swimmer. you’re a baker. you’re a cook. you’re a reader. you have a beautiful voice, though you never sing anymore. you’re an excellent pianist. you’re an art collector. you write me lovely messages when i’m away. you’re patient. you’re generous. you’re the best listener i know. you’re the smartest person i know, in every way. you’re the bravest person i know, in every way. you’re a lawyer. you’re the chair of the litigation department at rosen pritchard and klein. you love your job; you work hard at it. you’re a mathematician. you’re a logician. you’ve tried to teach me, again and again. you were treated horribly. you came out on the other end. you were always you.”
“and who are you?”
“i’m willem ragnarsson. and i will never let you go.”
there's a difference between father and dad. one is a title, the other is a bond.
listening to music in public is so hard because i feel it in my entire body and i’m supposed to pretend i’m just chilling