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I don't have tears on my eyes. No. Nope. Not a single one.

Writer @Katiegangel Artist Me  / Castielsgal 

thank you for writing this for me Spn 13x17 Sam sat down across from the man, eyes drinking in every detail he could see. Even now, he remembered that night in the hotel. The light Gabriel had had in his eyes, even has he told Dean and him to grab Kali and run. He couldn’t see it now. All he could see was fear. He picked up the small scalpel, seeing the smaller man flinch at the sight of it. “No,” he said softly. “I…” He reached a hand forward to touch Gabriel’s shoulder, but the man winced again. For a moment, Sam wondered when the last time Gabriel had felt a hand on him that had been in kindness. “I…” He softened his tone. Sam was a big guy. He knew it. Hell, the world knew it. Big and intimidating. Maybe not as much as Dean, but Sam figured anyone would be intimidating to Gabriel now. “I don’t want to cut you,” he said softly. “I need leverage.” Gabriel’s eyes darted over to the table. Sam understood. He set one hand on the table and brought the scalpel forward. “Please, if you can, don’t move.” Gabriel nodded very slightly. For as large as Sam’s hands were, he’d naturally had a delicate touch. Even as a kid, he’d been able to help his Dad and Dean with their wounds. Hell, learning to use a thread and needle was an essential part of being a hunter. As he cut away the first thread, he stared at it. Half of him wanted to ask, but he knew it wasn’t his place. He couldn’t begin to imagine the pain. Well, he’d been to hell himself, but “hell” was an experience. And from the looks of the once so bright and proud archangel… he’d seen hell. “I’ll… I’ll get you some fresh clothes and I’ll help you clean up, okay?” He tried to smile, tried to make a good show, but the look on Gabriel’s face spoke volumes. Not disbelief, not miss-trust, but fear, even now. He lowered the knife. “I don’t know what you endured,” he said. “And I can’t make it go away… but I can fight like hell to make sure he suffers for what he did. You know I will.” Gabriel regarded him for a minute. Slowly, he lifted a trembling hand, reaching out to touch Sam’s hair. Still long, still soft. Even now. He lowered his hand and placed it on Sam’s shoulder, gripping it tightly. Sam nodded. “You can keep it there. I won’t touch you.” Carefully, with Gabriel sturdy, he cut away the rest of the thread. He watched as Gabriel’s lips parted slightly, taking in what must have been his first breath in a long time. He looked up at Sam, his other hand still petting Sam’s hair. “Never cut it… eh, Sasquatch?”

She saw her moment and got glossed up for it

Alright thanks! Wow I have a lot more questions but I’m just gonna wait for the actual fic because it sounds like it’s gonna be amazing! Though about the clones, palps would probably still want to make an army but he wouldn’t have the funds from Dooku so maybe he just did a “test run” and send some people to steal some dna from Jango to see if making this army would be worth bribing the banking clan? So we would still have the early batches like the nulls, alpha and maybe even cc with Cody in it? I dunno

@1elysium​ the dha kar’ta post was super heckin long, so i thought i’d answer you over here!

i can’t speak for fiori, but i’m so glad you’re enjoying it!! this au already means a lot to me, and the support for it so quickly has been amazing, both on here and ao3. I’m thinking between two and three years between Illum and Jango meeting them! i need time for Obi to build a relationship with Dooku and Anakin, and Dha lol. 

i haven’t given much thought to Obi taking a padawan, because i haven’t solidified my wants for the clones just yet. you’re right, they started them right about the time of the invasion of Naboo, but since Dooku was the one to orchestrate getting Jango involved, i don’t see that happening in this ‘verse. which breaks my feckin heart cause i LOVE the clones and Boba and i definitely implied in the force visions that Boba was a possibility, but i can’t figure out how to make it work 😭if Obi were to take a padawan, ahsoka is definitely a possibility, but savage has also crossed my mind. but yes he would absolutely raise them as Mando’ade Jedi. 

as for Dooku being involved with Palps, i’ve actually been thinking about that! i think he’s suspicious yes, but that’s the thing about a sith lord, he can warp people’s perceptions of him and his actions, and he has a lot of power that the council is beholden to, and Dooku IS a little busy trying to keep his other dumbass grandson alive. so while he’s still with the order, he’s off planet a LOT even before Jango searches them out.

now, that being said, Anakin is an eldritch force vessel in this, which he was not in the canon timeline. the force is semi-sentient and endless and exists on multiple layers of spice-time and is basically fucking canon in an attempt to keep Obi-Wan alive. which means it can’t allow Anakin to fall. which means Palps has less icky fingers in Anakin’s brain and while Anakin might not be totally aware of his status as a vessel, he knows to trust the force because on Tatooine, that’s all he had. i’ll save my other thoughts for the actual fic, but while Palps does manipulate Anakin to an extent, he doesn’t have nearly as strong a foothold.

and @theclonewarsbrokeme​ because this story is your baby too

"I am Ironman"

Fuck yes you are and I love you. You Brocken my heart and the last thing that pepper said: "You can rest now" 😭

I am so glad I got to watch these movies and see the Tony Stark character ark and it was SO GREAT. He did not deserve all this and, oh god I'm crying again.

Have a good rest Tony, you did it. You saved them all

there was an opportunity

the (almost) complete Bungou Stray Dogs reading list

as a dostoyevsky fan i first discovered bsd by being very confused whenever i saw pretty anime boys in the crime and punishment tag, so now i’m using bsd to discover more classic literature, and you can too!

this is my personal list straight from my phone notes app, of the most significant works mentioned in the series. italized titles are those that i really couldn’t find an english translation of but they’re there for completeness (if you’ve found one please comment!)

i’ve also got links to the french text of all works that are originally in french, because i read french and as said this list is just adapted from my personal notes hahaha

special shoutout goes to @bsd-bibliophile and their website from where i got many of the links, especially the works of the japanese authors, as well as the bsd recommended reading list ❤️

links are pdfs unless otherwise specified

the armed detective agency:

no longer human by dazai osamu

the moon over the mountain by nakajima atsushi (beast beneath the moonlight)

an encouragement of learning by fukuzawa yukichi (all men are equal)

o brother, you must not die by yosano akiko (thou shalt not die)

kunikida doppo’s works

the makioka sisters by tanizaki junichirou (light snow) [epub]

naomi by tanizaki junichirou

be not defeated by the rain by miyazawa kenji [online]

demon pond by izumi kyouka (demon snow)

edogawa ranpo’s works

i am a cat by natsume souseki

futon by tayama katai

the port mafia:

rashoumon by akutagawa ryuunosuke (link includes o-gin that akutagawa gin is based on)

this soiled sorrow by nakahara chuuya (upon the tainted sorrow) [online]

golden demon by ozaki kouyou

falling camellia by hirotsu ryuurou

the dancing girl by mori ougai (elise)

vita sexualis by mori ougai [epub]

higuchi ichiyou’s works (no ability specified yet, but see for example encounters on a dark night)

midwinter memento by tachihara michizou

lemon by kajii motojirou

dogra magra by yumeno kyuusaku [website, incomplete translation] 

madness of george III by alan bennett (madness of the jewel king) pretty sure this one’s still copyrighted, hence why they couldn’t use alan bennett’s name for ace, and why i can’t find any pdf copies

the guild:

the great gatsby by f. scott fitzgerald (the great fitzgerald)

little women by louisa m. alcott

the grapes of wrath by john steinbeck [online/pdf/epub]

the scarlet letter by nathaniel hawthorne

gone with the wind by margaret mitchell [online/pdf/epub]

anne of green gables by l. m. montgomery (anne of the abyssal red)

moby dick by herman melville

the adventures of tom sawyer by mark twain (huck finn and tom sawyer)

the adventures of huckleberry finn by mark twain (huck finn and tom sawyer)

the black cat by edgar allan poe (the black cat in the rue morgue) [online]

the murders in the rue morgue by edgar allan poe (the black cat in the rue morgue) [online]

the call of cthulhu by h. p. lovecraft (the great old ones) [online]

the rats in the house of the dead:

the house of the dead by fyodor dostoevsky [online/epub]

crime and punishment by fyodor dostoevsky

a feast in time of plague by alexander pushkin [online/pdf/epub]

the precipice by ivan goncharov (this is an abridged translation please buy the new 2020 unabridged translation titled malinovka heights please it’s one of my all-time favourite books please thank you for your attention)

the perfect crime by oguri mushitarou

the decay of angels:

the decay of the angel by mishima yukio [online]

the overcoat by nikolai gogol

dracula by bram stoker [online/pdf/epub] (bram’s ability isn’t named yet but come on who are we kidding)

sigma has been speculated to be a reference to russian writer and journalist sergey nikolayevich syromyatnikov, or possibly sigmund freud

the hunting dogs:

mirror lion by fukuchi ouchi (online summary)

gasp of the soul by ookura teruko (see bewitching shadow which is the only work of anyone from the hunting dogs with full english translation!)

priceless tears by jouno saigiku

plum blossoms in snow by suehiro tetchou (wikipedia)

special division for unusual powers:

discourse on decadence by sakaguchi ango

hail in the begging bowl [online/pdf] (an essay by james abrams on the life and poetry of taneda santoka, from which the ability name is derived)

order of the clock tower:

and then there were none by agatha christie

dark era:

strait is the gate by andré gide (french original, online)

flawless by oda sakunosuke (see his other works from the stories of osaka life collection that has been translated into english, which can be found on the @bsd-bibliophile website)

the long goodbye by raymond chandler [online]

55 minutes:

the time machine by h. g. wells

the mysterious island by jules verne (french original, online/epub)

matasaburou of the wind by miyazawa kenji [online] (atsushi’s alias)

johann wolfgang von goethe (mentioned)

william shakespeare (mentioned)

victor hugo (mentioned) les misérables french original 

fifteen + storm bringer:

illuminations by arthur rimbaud [online] (french original, online/epub)

paul verlaine’s poetry [online/epub] (french original, online/epub)

frankenstein by mary shelley (adam frankenstein)

gaiden:

another by ayatsuji yukito (volume 1, volume 2, volume 3)

the summer in the ubume by kyougoku natsuhiko (an inherent drop)

yesterday’s shadow tag by tsujimura mizuki

dead apple:

shibusawa tatsuhiko’s works (referred to collectively as draconia, see fish scales which has been translated into english)

chapter titles and other references:

franz kafka’s works (our man asagiri) metamorphosis [online/epub] the trial [online/epub]

the setting sun by osamu dazai (have you seen all those dazai sunset scenes in the anime)

the black lizard by hirotsu ryuurou

the case of murder on D hill by edogawa ranpo (murder on D street, ch 6)

poems of days past by nakahara chuuya (back in the day, ch 11) see poem collection

light, wind and dreams by nakajima atsushi (even if my head be mistaken, ch 29)

if you’re gonna read the above you should probably be acquainted with robert louis stevenson’s works, like the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde [online/epub]

tower of silence by mori ougai (the silent tower and the raven’s feast, ch 30)

husband and wife by nakajima atsushi (cherrirs, ch 43)

dreaming of butterflies by hagiwara sakutarou (ch 65-66)

the sheep song by nakahara chuuya (the chant to activate chuuya’s corruption)

les sœurs de charité by arthur rimbaud (the chant to activate verlaine’s corruption) french original

this is all the main works i could find, but naturally bsd is chock-full of literature references so please feel free to add to this list if you have anything! again i have to direct you to bsd-bibliophile’s online library for more complete resources and relevant authors that are not directly mentioned in bsd + a bunch of other useful content, i swear that page is one of my most-visited websites hahaha

other great resources for free books that have entered the public domain, where i got most of the links to the western books on this list:

project gutenberg

free editorial

planet ebook

planet publish

happy reading!

I think in this regard especially, Cassian achieves what Luthen really wants to be. At least on a moral standpoint because Cassian does all this and still so very deeply cares about everyone, while Luthen has had to stop caring and instead make horrible horrible choices.

I love that yet again we see Cassian take a back seat so someone else can rally the troops, someone else takes center stage and the credit.

In this case, it's Maarva. Last time they spoke, he said he didn't understand why she was staying, why she wanted to fight a revolution against an impossible force.

But this time, he gets it. He lets her word be the rallying call for her home, he makes sure EVERYBODY gets to hear it, that the entire town gets called out to listen to her final speech as he goes in to rescue Bix in the shadows.

He runs from hiding place to hiding place as Brasso stands at the front of a crowd, walks them towards a wall of Imperial soldiers, and leads them in the fight for freedom.

Cassian isn't a Big Damn Hero. He's not someone whose name is known or remembered. He's not a leader who makes the big speech to a crowd.

He's a spy. He observes, he notices things, he figures out the plan that has to happen in order to succeed at the goal. He's the one who puts it all together and then steps away from the spotlight so he can do it all over again.

The dragon king's death

We are told the dragon king was killed by using really powerful and really dark magic. So Viren must have played a huge role in it right? But I don't picture him as the one killing the dragon king and not mentioning it. So, who did it? I know there were probably many soldiers who could do it but when it comes to actually killing the dragon king there is only one person that I can picture doing it.

Amaya

Yes, not Viren or Harrow but Amaya.

I mean she is so badass she must have been there. And she probably wanted revenge for her sister and friend Sarai (just as much as Harrow who also could have done it because of that) so yeah she is the only one I can imagine doing it and to be honest? I wouldn't even be mad at her.

Jup, dramatic as always

The Empty: I have survived one of you angels trying to annoy me before

Gabriel: oh that?? My baby bro ain’t got shit on me because I’m

Gabriel: *dramatically puts on sunglasses*

Gabriel: the meme lord

Gabriel: *plays all star on his kazoo very badly*

—–

*a while later*

The empty: you have to sleep.

Gabriel: but why?

The empty: because you have to.

Gabriel: why?

The empty: BECAUSE I NEED SLEEP AND I CAN’T SLEEP IF YOU DON’T!!

Gabriel: *deep breath in*

Gabriel: …but why?

The empty: *loud inhuman screeching*

—–

The Empty, in tears: I just want sleep…

Gabriel: *plays mmh watcha say on his kazoo*

—–

Gabriel: and this is a reenactment of every single porn fantasy I have had about the youngest Winchester. I’m very kinky so just hold on.

The empty: *rocking back and forth*

The empty: he has to get tired, eventually

The empty: I’ll be fine. We’ll be fine.

Gabriel: *loud wanton moaning*

The empty: *sobbing*

—–

The empty: just sleep!

Gabriel: *in ridiculous mocking accent* just sleep!

The empty: OH MY- YOU ARE RIDICULOUS

Gabriel: OH MY- YOU ARE RIDICULOUS

The empty: *more sobbing*

Gabriel: *mocking sobbing*

—–

Gabriel: y'know, I never really considered myself to be a fighter. More of a lover. Did you know, I once fucked-

The empty: *picks him up and throws him at the earth*

This. Is. Perfect.

Aaravos Headcanons

Because I couldn’t resist  :,)

Snarkiest bitch in the sky

Like you wouldn’t expect him to be cracking jokes at all right? But he does and they’re at everyone’s expense

needs to know everything. Doesn’t necessarily gossip but he just Needs To Know

Holds grudges

Keeps track of who owes him favors

Refuses to be indebted to anyone, will find a way to pay back immediately and extra so now you owe HIM

Writes poetry

Has a dramatic autobiography in progress, probably titled something pretentious

Witty, very dry humor

Not fucking around when I say he’s surprisingly funny

Journals

“Dear diary, today I walked into the library, looked at the books, and left”

Maladaptive daydreaming

Says cryptic nonsense

Loves fucking with people and is very good at it

Plays many instruments because he’s got a lot of time on his hands

Wears eyeliner when he’s feelin fancy(er)

Doesn’t sleep

Trusts no one

Would never ever ever ever ever admit it but he’s lonely

Touch starved

Likes hearing people speak because it’s been forever since he has

Smirky in all situations

Happy? soft smirk. Angry? scary smirk. Sad? rueful smirk

Chuckles more than he laughs

I could literally go on forever