Why Do I Have To Be Myself???

I‘m a burden for everyone. I’m even a burden to myself.

The feeling of emptiness it's back. It's worse than usual, it's terrifying, it has never been this strong before.

It feels like no matter who I mirror, no matter how hard I try to please people, no matter how nice I try to be— no one fucking likes me enough to stay or just return my energy equally. It’s so exhausting but I keep trying and trying to get this love and attention but it’s not sticking.

I can’t help but feel like everyone sees that I’m damaged goods and that’s why they never want me.

I don't want to feel anything anymore. It's just too much. Please make it stop.

I should have died a teenager, but now it's too late.

Life has lost meaning. Life has lost purpose. I'm so lost and numb without you. I can't do this anymore.

"Sleep isn't really sleep anymore, it's just an escape from reality "