JOSH SINGING!!!!!!!!!!

Being alone is enjoyable until you become painfully aware of just how alone you truly are.

Life has lost meaning. Life has lost purpose. I'm so lost and numb without you. I can't do this anymore.

I feel like I need them more than they need me. Even if I am that one that ruined everything, I still need them. I crave them. It feels like they could care less. It's what I deserve.

How am I supposed to live after I've hurt the person I love the most?

All I do is rot in bed, have breakdowns, ugly cry, fuck shit up, get drunk and cut myself. what a life (and it's all my fault, isn't it)

"Sleep isn't really sleep anymore, it's just an escape from reality "

Why do people pretend to be your friend? Why talk shit about how I look? Why not just fucking tell me or keep your opinions to yourself? My appearance does not define who I am as a person. It doesn't define my professionalism or anything. Why pretend?

I'm back to the point where I cry myself to sleep at night because of how alone and worthless I feel.

some of the original lyrics from clancy in tyler's handwriting!

'I'd rather you hurt me than do nothing at all' are heartbreaking lyrics :')