I Want To Draw So Badly!!!! But No!!!! Forcing My Self Into This Break.

WORKING TO CRACK ON THOSE ARMS…!!!!!

Doing some observing since im just sitting around… and I realised it was hard to do observing in like and thought I might as well do screenshots and draw over even on phone but problem is that while I think it might be helping me…? With trying to figure stuff… it’s not really penetrating my mind… so maybe I really need to draw smth even on pencil n paper but I don’t really want to. So I think I should do more deep mental drawing. Like taking a moment to construct the stuff in my mind like im actually drawing there… with each stroke and see how it goes… 6.39

—6.40 one thing I just realised as I was doing this is heh… wait… the torso/pec muscle are literally connected to top part of the hand… wow… it really puts a lot of this into perspective. like when I was drawing hands and trying to understand how it freaking is when drawing it just like. next to torso. it’s hard to guage how close anyways. I feel like I knew (well yeah I knew cuz lmao I wouldn’t have came to this if I didn’t) this but it’s not knowledge I keep in mind and forgot to… so that’s important… to realise. It makes the arms feel less floaty and more connected. same with remembering how arms are slanted and not perfectly in align…. 6.42

I THINK IVE GOTTEN???? ARMS????? AHHHHHH (was watching el or whatever name’s video and I was repeating it for another reason I wanted to see what brush he was using and then I think how he does part of arm got inbrained in my skull… kinda funny how I never watched it all for what I wanted (the BR muscle) )

MAN DO I WANT TO REALLY DRAW ARMS SHIT NOW… BUT I CANT BE BOTEHRED TO GO UPSTRAIS TO GET PAPER/PEN OR IPAD…. this is why I should have paper n pen downstairs to be able to draw in… I will keep this in mind for later. AHHHHHHHH ID BE SO FREAKING HAPPY IF I ACTUALLY GET IT :’ also lmao the slighting bending over ref was supposed to be for ⏳ bday art… I really want to draw him… every time I lmaooooo see that red drawing I did I want to so badly draw him…… and considering his bday is tmmr…!!!!! I WILL GET TO DRAWING HIM!!!!!!! 7.23

surprise….! I actually went and did it lollll and I was only planning to just prep it for future me to do… but since I was already there… I thought I might as well and hmmm. there’s a lot im dissatisfied with.

—I did enlarge the redraw fix (also while looking through the Timelapse I noticed my initial first drawing wasn’t bad at all…?! it was only when I was drawing in legs that somehow I skeweed it up)

—but I realised that the redraw fix was good but it wasn’t what the pose I wanted… I wanted the focus to be the large tshirt… and even if I had made the drawing bigger so her leg was cut off it still didn’t feel right…

—and so I realised it was properly the angle or smth…. so I decided to just go ahead and do a redraw over and man…. the arms were difficult to get… when I remember before with the redraw fix it didn’t at all take me long to scribble in the arms sigh….i need to prac my arms some more. I think it’s cuz lol I kinda forgot to add in the arms when I was doing the body.,. so I did it like last…. a bad habit I need to fix… it did help having the ref my prev drawing…

—also I def do think that I did the pelvis too high this time so I need to fix that when I go back. anyways I drew in the shirt, looked a bit of ref of how over shirts are like and hmmm it does still feel a lil dissatisfying but I at least fixed the angle problem I had before….

—also oh yeah I had problem with the legs.,.. so I need to practice that more. the shape of legs also I think that it would have been helpful if I drew the overall pose and then cropped it to how I liked it… also I do think I might have also had trouble with the legs cuz I did the pelvis higher than its supposed to be lol.

—also lol it’s def noticeable that I drew this at an angle cuz she looks so off so that’s something to work on too but overall happy that I drew it down… I do need to practice faces man though… the faces I drew aren’t as nice looking as I want them to be…. also I do really do practice her hair some more…. but yeah. overall im satisfied with the progress I did. <3

DAY STARTING OFF STRONG….!

—okay I saw some super cute comic from diff fandom and it really got me fired up. I wanted to draw comics of MY otp. 🥺🥺🥺 and I thought going for a more simplistic style would help with my high expectations of likensss that I can’t meet right now 😭😭😭 and so I got to sketching!!!!

—had some kind of idea and it was a very simple one and I just went….to do it. it did seem very ambitious too (with lol a big panel of holding…..hands…….)with the FOCUS but ehhhh just yesterday I was practicing hands I would be fine. they thought<3 lolllll

—I had thoughts of changing the comic to be different but I was like nahhh this is simple let’s stick with it! just go for it! I didn’t want to over complicate stuff or anything

—and so I got to overlarging the sketch and making it big so it can be the size I want it to be… and so I got to drawing over it and that’s when I immediately hit a block….

—the thing was the first rough sketch I did was so much cuter and better…. I feel like when I tried to draw over it….i tried to more capture likeness and then it just didn’t turn out as cute or as good as the rough sketch… so obviously I had to redo that. I did try to fix it at first (seeing the diff:larger eyes extra but ehhhhh it didn’t work) so I just went to redoing it. And ah!!! this attempt was def better!!!!

—also ha………drawing bust shots are Hard……….so I tried to (during first redraw over rough sketch) to also include in bits of torso etc to see how things would look like. I remembered this video I watched that said it’s best to draw things that aren’t in the shot so you can know where things are or smth. my quoting isn’t the best. anyways! it def helped…. also initially wasn’t even gonna include the bit I drew to help imagine the rest so I can draw bust shot… but I ended up including… I think it was good to hand in bits of the arm… also I remembered that they’re were supposed to be holding hands so I had made sure to make the hand their moving to hold hands looked like that

—I don’t even wanna talk about ssk’s hair it was so fcking annoying. clothes…….im so glad that ssk’s clothes is very simple in this era… lol… just a cape…. and I tried to remember to add in wrinkle since hand was moving…. sskkr clothes were simple too…. I’ve gotten used to it while drawing a lot of Srda who wears similar to her mom 💗

—I went straight to lining it… I didn’t even redraw over the hands… was impatient lol and just wanted to get to lining the characters…. and so I went! and did! and lol it’s obvs I started to loose the patience lmaoo. I didn’t take that much care when it came to skkr hair and roughly lined it like I was sketching. I didn’t mind. it looked okay.

—also crazy that I just went into lining the hands like that. my rough sketch of the hands was super rough sketch too lmaooo but somehow…?! it turned out well….?! this is the one im almost surprised at. I thought it’d turn out way worse. I mean yeahhhhh skk’s fingers over hers make no sense but skkr’s turned out better than I’d hope for…..im really proud of them…. so djjdjdjd I just didn’t want to cover up with ugly skk fingers so I made his fingers still continue to not make sense 💗

—finished the line art and honestly at this point…..I wasn’t feeling great about the art………….. which made me feel sad…. anyways I thought to add colour??

—and my GOSH do I need so much practice with color like wtf….picking the right color can be so hard wtf………it was turning out worse and I didn’t likeeee ittt. one bitttt. but I decided to just continue and go to ssk and do his hair and THIS WHERR THINGS CHANGED!!!!!

—like okay I was thinking what color for his hair…..since I did the line art dark purple….black made no sense. I usually just scribble in lines for darkness so I just decided to do the purple line art color for the hair and WHEN I LOWERED THE OPACITY A LITTLE… SO I CAN BETTER SEE THE LINEART SO I CAN COLOUR IN MORE ACCURATELY… TAHTS WHN THE MAGIC BEGANZZZZ

—-I realized I can do this in MONOCOLOUR!!!!!!!!! omg I forgot that so much and by gosh, was I so happy by this discovery!!!!!!!!!’ ahhhhhh I love monocolor so muchhhhh. my fav shit. it turned this into super fun drawing. I had much fun in trying to decide the diff opacities/values of diff stuff and really —when I was doing his cape for the hand…..that’s where the magic really flourished…. ah it made this drawing a very happy one for me… <3333

—it did still a lil empty so here I was just adjusting and trying to figure what to add and how to not make it too much and now looking back this version is totally fine……ahhhhh…..I kinda wish I kept the hearts. I did like how I scribbled it in…..they looked fun….oh well.

—also seriously lol I gotta stop posting stuff as soon as I finish it…. There should be something about looking at stuff with fresh eyes but also man…. I’m just pretty lazy abt that lol.

—RIDING THIS HIGH!!!! I WANTED TO DO ANOTHER SS PIECE!!!! THIS TIME MORE LOOKING LIKE THEN!!!!! I had this pose/idea in mind and just went straight to sketching the idea and very happy with it…. it feels so nice too to just have an idea for pose and get to sketching it and be able to doing it ahhhhhh. also felt very nice when I roughly sketched it in and cleaned it up a lil like the face and stuff… properly adding in some features n stuff. also hmmmm i probs should do something with ssk’s other arm….

—also lmao I really have neglected the feet too much. I need to do something about learning them but also ahhhh I really don’t want to. also did have some struggle with trying to find out if they were sitting or what they were lying on… or kneeling or whatever. floor or actual sofa/chair…. I need to better visualize stuff like that… also I think for me, ss in side view I think im the best in… also man I really need to work on her hair a lot.

—anyways as I was doing this I had started to get a better image of like a story so I kinda wanted to turn this into a comic and while I was drawing the hair that kinda turned into a redraw of face too… I ended up trying to draw the comic bit that I wanted to include and ha………..this where things started to fall apart….. 😭😭😭😭 my problem of deawing ss faces came back to me 😔😔😔

—and ahhh seriously I don’t know what it is. I thought maybe the nose…? So I tried different way but nope. it’s not that. it got me so frustrated n sad I just stopped the wip there. I was already planning to pause anyways since I was getting tired… and plus trying to think of clothes was also too exhausting but sad to have to pause the wip in that moment…

(now looking back at this as I am uploading the images on to here… I think it might be the mouth of her face that’s the problem…..? also lol noticed problems with her side profile face too it looks a bit off but eh well I can always fix that later)

—-ahhhb seriously I need to do ss face sketches…. I looked at the manga to see what it is that im just getting so wrong that feels so frustrated…. and I think maybe the eyes…? is a big one…? and maybe nose???? anyways I just really need to practice!!!! but forgetting that part. today start was very good!!!! im pleasantly surprised!!!!

—I want to go back to the comic sketch that I drafted yesterday…. and also I want to do lots of figure pracs so I don’t go out of practice…. yeah….! and more hand studies… feet I can’t be asked to do. BDJFJKFKD. im just not interested into doing it and don’t care to right now even though I probs should be….. 5.56

6.00 I kinda just wanna do the ss face prac right now but also I really am too tired for more art stuff… Rn…. I just wanna take break….

COLOURRR TIMEEEE

like lol I did genuinely have a diff plan today which was to DRAW DRAW DRAWW character stuff!!! plus have some figure prac dibble in. since this morning n afternoon, I’ve been watching some videos. faces n clothes. and honestly didn’t help that much but the clothes one I think I got more better understanding…? And what I need to study I guess.

but ahahah while I did want to draw I didn’t feel urge to get pen and draw until… I came across this beautiful colour sky thingy on yt background for a song and wow it suddenly got me wanting to do colour studying!!!! so I got my pen and cracked to it.

— one thing I wanted to focus on is the ability to just pick colour and feel for the right one which I think…(?) I’m getting. still very weak on that especially that yellow one down there. not satisfied since I wasn’t able to get the overall genera colour scheme awww.

—like initially just wanted to see how diff colour picks would be easier or not against diff value backgrounds….

—for the person colour drawing I wanted to capture their overall skin colour and I think I went too overright with the Oliver. since they had more lighter skin. but at least my second attempt is better than the first which I think turned out overalll muddy because I used a green undertone but wasn’tttt entirely sure of how to use it.

— I do like how the blockage for the darker skin sphere turned out. I remembered these videos I watched a whileee ago and the more saturated colour picks and it def helped…!

— I stopped for a bit since I felt like this was starting to become aimless and I think would be better if I did a full colour for a character and then figure out my weakpoints to study on… also this was god since I was able to get in some figure study ^^ and something I realised/well more like reinforced is the drawing the legs….. and just understanding how it more less connects from the body. also ahahah I feel like it’s better if I start to work on studying the feet at one point….

— also I started to think that I want to do more comic focused today as well. it would be really good in realising what stuff I’m missing in gaps and just the prac down. I’m havin some problem in head just finalising vague ideas so I think it’s best to get something down… also do have some urge to just draw on paper today… also I really want to draw this character on motorcycle!!!’ it’s something I’ve never done so I know it won’t turn out amazibgggg and shit but. well. it’s best to try right!!!!! and ahhhh I really just wanna draw characters interacting man….. so many to-do…. piority is really that comic stuff since I can have character interactions and general comic prac which is what I need!!!!!! 15.07

ahahah… yeah I did say all of that. but I didn’t do it<3 :’

— honestly wasn’t feeling it but I felt like doing some figure pracs anyways so I just got to doing it. I wanted to focus on character interactions and lolll immediately came across this hard one… lying pose…. I honestly wasn’t feeling it so lol I put low effort into most of these… but I do think it was good and lil fun now realising doing more varied poses… also ahahah I do like the multi coloured look… I realised I still had the green from the colouring session before on when I went to do the figure prac and wanted to see how it would be like to do in all these diff colours and it looks fun to look at. but as per usual, I do like/prefer more brighter pink dark blues and black to draw in… purple when I’m in mood.

—I included hand studies and oh boy those are hard :’ ahaha…. like wtf is this under me…. Idk what I was trying lmaoooooo.

—also remembered to include some lil twisting bodies pracs since I remember I suckedddd at that yesterday ahahah. and I think I got it(?) a lil bit…. like the way the shoulder one one side is almost not seen and like doing that paper thing helped at first to see the twist…

—and well since I completed to fill the page I wasn’t really feeling doing another page but also didn’t want to stop drawing… and well remember how I said I wanted to do comic? Well I thought… what if I worked on stuff I already have…? And what do you know! That way worked! The roommate one… I didn’t actually start anything for it lmao but drawing some idea I had for poses anyways… so I just got straight into it. And uhhhh not bad. Actually quite proud of that first panel…. I did have some idea of them being outside and I don’t think I like how I filled the background since I wanted them to be more outside so something to change. also I’ve been looking closer at mangas I’ve been reading and they do tend to have panels with characters smaller and I wanted to try that. and I realised that it’s best to have a script since while I had vague idea of what I wanted in this scene it’s. kind of hard to think of the sequence just like that. but honestly cba to write out the script for this comic today LMAO so yeahhhhh

—but I did want to continue drawing and did have some urge to draw some srda and I did have this some kind of idea in my head for her pose but ehhhhhh lol when I put it to paper lmaooo it def felt so….?!?! like what was even the plan for the pose… nothing about it made sense?? why would she be doing that???? also wow I really suck at drawing the face I realise. it bothered me a lot lmaooo . like pls why does she look like that 😭😭😭

— I honestly didn’t think that I’d be doing other drawings and plus the prev one took all the drawing want to draw at all from me lmaooo. but ehhhh i got back to picking up my pen since i was back in my bed anyways… and this time i wanted to focus on faces… but i def did feel like this was super aimless… and just doing whatever and trying to get some faces in diff angles and i think the problem is that my understandings of faces structure is terrible…like i knowww the gist and general of the stuff. but well it’s more the jaw I guess and idk what it is i feel like im not completely understanding it like how im understanding and now the figure better…. so i guess its time to watch some videos and just also general videos of people drawing faces…. I feel like that would help I guess…. Also man it did feel super sad since how terrible my faces is…. I think it’s cuz I always prided myself on doing good faces and well, I know that now my “eye” has gotten better i wasn’t really that good at faces. maybe yeah for straight ones but ahh… still…. It’s kind of sad…..

wow… jan25 end…… can’t believe it. already! but also…. it did feel a bit slow but also feels like wow… already end..

anyways! I really did manage to draw something for all of Jan except for one day 😂😂😂 some days more productive than others. but hmm. towards the end… definitely was on slower end.

😐 man… a lot of recent art is highlighting on my weakness and there are Many. such as legs. mainly legs,.. side view…… profile face angle…. neck..,, arms…. arms again..,. (mainly drawing in arms.)….. for leg it’s really everything :/ man. and the problem is that I can’t be bothereddd to learn legs :/ I did do a more in depth study learning of muscles and shit …. and I think it deepened some level of understanding but not deep enough tbh…..

sometimes art be like. I have an arm. which I can ref. and I have myself. which I can ref. I forget KDKKDKDKD

back to poses…<3

I don't have the prettiest hands but I took some pictures for fun and for reference today

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