can someone hide all food sources from me pls i beg u
I'm not crying you are 🥺
actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.
If you can't bear the thought of going through the rest of the week, take it a day at a time. Don't count how many days are left until the weekend. Make sure you make through this day. When you get home, make sure you take care of the body who carried you through the day, feed it, clean it, watch something that makes you feel happy and wholesome, then let your muscles slowly relax into your bed. Don't think about the next day - think that you are done with this one and be proud of yourself for doing so. And let go, slowly. Allow yourself to drift off. You've taken a big step today and now it is finally over. The future will come, yes, but your rest should come first so you can face it.
Holy god I was gone for a long time lmao. just cycling through addictions and ig obsession with insta and twitter is over for now xD
i cant stop making these
“I hope that one day someone will make flowers grow in even the saddest parts of you.”
— vacants
I need to get my shit back together. I got so fat and I look even more disgusting than before
i think my body is too stupid to lose weight
repeat after me:
even if i don’t like my body today i will take care of it
even if i don’t like myself today i will still be patient and kind with myself
even if i do not love myself i will still take care of and be kind to myself, despite not wanting to
I hate that eating disorders are romantized and glamourized