“But Just Because You’re Strong And Resilient Doesn’t Mean You Never Need Someone To Be There For

“I am not perfect. I am sometimes selfish, occasionally self destructive, and prone to very brief, yet severe, spells of sadness. But I would fight until every bone in my body was broken to protect you. That’s a promise.”

— Beau Taplin • T h e  B l o o d  P a c t  (via afadthatlastsforever)

Omegas With Depression Headcanons

-An Omega with depression constantly having a nest built somewhere in their home because the bouts of depression occur randomly and they never know when they will immediately need that comfort

-An Alpha slowly getting to the point where they can instantly notice the slight shift in their Omega’s scent and behaviour and know to be extra loving and attentive

-An Omega with depression being unable to sleep at night so their Alpha stays up with them, cuddling and crooning softly for hours until the Omega finally drifts off

-An Alpha learning about their Omega’s depression for the first time and becoming very protective and clingy due to their instinct to comfort an unhappy Omega

-An Omega with depression having days where they don’t even feel like getting out of their nest, and instead of being annoyed or forcing the Omega out to do something, their Alpha cuddles up with them and feeds them snacks and talks about unimportant things all day

-Young children being able to pick up on their Omega parent’s unhappiness and being extra clingy and snuggly until the Omega seems normal again

-An Omega having a lot of ‘good’ days and feeling very discouraged when they have a bad one, their Alpha tries to make them feel better by assuring them that it’s okay to have a bad day every now and then, continuously throwing out little praises and “I love you’s” to the Omega in hopes of them perking up a bit

-An Omega with depression being set off by little random things like making a mistake in a recipe, a song on the radio, being slightly ignored or talked over, a change in the weather, and their Alpha trying so hard to pay attention and figure out what exactly could upset them in the future

-On really bad days the Alpha takes it upon themselves to make sure their Omega showers and eats, their instincts reacting strongly to their mate’s unhappiness and making them desperate to provide comfort and contentment of some kind

-An Omega with depression knowing that their Alpha loves them but also constantly doubting it and feeling horrible for doing so, the Alpha catching on and going out of their way to reassure the Omega that they are loved and appreciated and wonderful, even if they are sometimes a little ball of pure angst and sadness

I have a orange cat plushie that's named Kitty Soft Paws(after Kitty from the old Puss in Boots movie ofc) tho i just call her Kitty.

I've had her for years, and at first she was all brand new but now, her legs have no stuffing, the beanie toe pads have fallen out, her fur is completely matted, her scent pack is on its final stretch of smell after all these years, but shes still Kitty👍 (despite the fact shes literally falling apart, shes still the stuffed animal i love and will continue to cuddle with :DD)

The Corpse Bride will forever be one of my comfort movies, not even mentioning how AMAZING YOUR ART IS!!

Historically accurate Corpse Bride

Drawing inspirations from the 1870s-1880s . So perhaps the film might be set in the 1890s-1900s, if this dress was her mothers dress.....its a stretch, but that time period with fashion has the perfect silhouette for the hip hugging bodice she wears in the film - as you can see in my brainstorming sketches at the bottom. And instead of the bones of her ribs visible under the hole on her bodice, you can see the bones of her....corset 😅.

I think there’s a consensus that most of the adults in the CAA failed Gon and Killua miserably (mainly by treating them like adults and not traumatized children). But if a responsible adult HAD shown up, and told them Kite’s death wasn’t their fault and they shouldn’t be involved in the operation, would they have even listened? Neither takes kindly to being “treated like a kid”.

Anon, I love you! 

Yes, I completely agree this is the issue in CAA.  Here’s some panels for the folks following along at home: 

SO, I’ve been saying for a while that one thing Kite does, that Gon and Killua’s previous mentors did *not* do, is treat both Gon and Killua as professional - adult - hunters. 

I believe Kite does this because - unlike Wing and Bisky - he isn’t used to working with kids.... Wing is also training Zushi, who’s even younger than Killua and Gon, when they meet.  And this isn’t Bisky’s first go-round training child protegies in nen, either.

On the other hand, Kite works with a crew of adults, he treats Gon and Killua the same way he treats anyone else on the crew:  

Look at Gon and Killua’s faces in the last panel... they freaking LOVE Kite telling his crew, of adults, that they have a lot to learn from them haha.

Also, there’s actually a bit of time between when Gon and Killua reconnect with Kite, and when they go to NGL to investigate the Chimera Ants....if you only watched the anime you might not realize this, but in the manga, Gon and Killua work with Kite’s crew for a month before the Chimera Ant Queen washes up on shore in NGL. 

And that whole time, they aren’t just two well-respected members of the team, but like... two of the BEST two members of the team???  Kite’s assessment of their abilities is not based on nothing, it’s based on his observation of them and their abilities. 

Here’s what Kite’s crew think about Gon and Killua’s abilities:

Here’s what Kite thinks:

SO, when Gon and Killua choose to follow Kite into the NGL battefield, it’s actually against this background of working as professional hunters for the first time, and being respected for it!

Gon is earning the respect of Kite, the hunter he respects the MOST because of his connection to Ging, and because he saved Gon’s life as a kid.  We all know how much Gon hates feeling weak, right?  When Kite rescued him as a kid he was weak, but he got stronger, passed the Hunter exam, did a bunch of stuff and now he’s on equal footing with Kite, in the sense that they are both Pro Hunters. 

And Killua is also earning respect as a Pro Hunter, not an assassin... it’s only because Gon and Bisky encouraged him that he left Greed Island to take the Hunter exam, but it seems at this point in the story that he’s fully resolved to stop working as an assassin, and work as a Pro Hunter with Gon instead. 

So getting back to the question of whether Gon and Killua would have gone home, if the adults in charge had told them to... I mean, that’s what Kite, Netero, Morel and Knov ALL told them to do.

It’s in chapter 196, if you’re curious. 

Kite was wrong, he underestimated the enemy. He admits as much to Gon, when Gon comes to apologize to him (chapter 338 “repentance”).  He could have been a lot more firm about excluding Gon and Killua. 

Netero, Knov and Morel were also wrong, they also underestimated the enemy (and Killua).   For example, when they heard that Killua had knocked Gon out and retreated from Pitou, they told him it was a cowardly thing to do, and a real Hunter would believe in his ability to win even against a stronger foe (something Bisky also says to Kilua). 

And that assessment is something Killua takes to heart, because it’s something he’s struggled with since the beginning of the manga, when Netero told him Gon had more potential as a Hunter.  (Also when he failed the exam on purpose and went home, and also when he struggled in Yorknew with his desire to prove Illumi was wrong about him by sacrificing himself for Gon.)

(And also, you know... when he pulled the needle out!)

I think we’re supposed to believe it to an extent, BTW, that this kind of blindly optimistic attitude - Gon’s shounen protagonist(TM) attitude that everything will work out if you just give it your all - is somewhat correct.  That there’s some truth to the idea that being willing to risk your life to win is how you win.  Bisuke says as much to Killua, and Bisuke is usually right... Like they say, nothing ventured, nothing gained.  It’s the highest-risk situations that also have the highest rewards.

But we’re also supposed to see the limits to this kind of blind optimism.  Gon is optimistic that he can defeat Pitou and save Kite (or he’s in denial that he can’t), and look what happened with that, right?  Sometimes the enemy really is too strong.

SO I see I number of things going on here: One, the fact that the adults are treating Gon and Killua like professionals (or at least not being discouraging enough); and Two, that the adults are failable, in the end.  They don’t realize the true extent of the threat, they overestimate themselves and underestimate the enemy.  

That’s Kilua’s assessment, by the way.

As for Knov, Morel and Netero:

(Netero asks, was it such a powerful adversary?  And Killua explains about Pitou’s aura.  At which point:) 

Only Netero takes Killua assessment of Pitou’s strength - “You guys are powerful, too... and still I don’t think you could defeat him” - even a little bit seriously.   But then, Netero is also the only one, of the three of them, who knows exactly who Killua is and what he is capable of. 

Knov, and Morel and Netero in the end get their comeuppance, when they experience firsthand exactly how strong the enemy is (Knov especially).  All three characters come up against the limits of their abilities, where they’re just outmatched in terms of strength, even as powerful pro hunters.   Netero and Morel fight through it, Knov retreats to a support role.  But definitely they are all humbled. 

People can be wrong,  you know?   All of these characters were wrong about how strong the Chimera Ants would be...    

If you want my opinion, HxH Chimera Ant Arc is a Deconstruction, it shows the limits to the Weekly Shonen Jump core values of Friendship, Hard Work, Victory. Sometimes the enemy is just too strong. 

And it’s also a Tragedy.  The thing that defines tragedy, as a genre, is that it is the inevitable result of a specific character flaw of the protagonist... which in this case is Gon’s willingness to sacrifice his own life, because he doesn’t value his life enough compared to others’ lives.  And it’s also Killua’s flaw of following what Gon wants to do, and not voicing his objections because he fears they would damage the relationship.  Because both of them are protagonists, it’s a double tragedy...

Here’s what Hegel says about Tragedy, as a genre, btw:

His later lectures formulate such a theory of tragedy as a conflict of ethical forces, represented by characters...

The heroes of ancient classical tragedy encounter situations in which, if they firmly decide in favor of the one ethical pathos that alone suits their finished character, they must necessarily come into conflict with the equally justified ethical power that confronts them.

Modern characters, on the other hand, stand in a wealth of more accidental circumstances, within which one could act this way or that, so that the conflict is, though occasioned by external preconditions, still essentially grounded in the character. The new individuals, in their passions, obey their own nature... simply because they are what they are.

Hegel's comments on a particular play may better elucidate his theory: "Viewed externally, Hamlet's death may be seen to have been brought about accidentally... but in Hamlet's soul, we understand that death has lurked from the beginning: the sandbank of finitude cannot suffice his sorrow and tenderness, such grief and nausea at all conditions of life... we feel he is a man whom inner disgust has almost consumed well before death comes upon him from outside."[71]  

Anyway.  The Chimera Ant Arc is a Tragedy.  Possibly it could have happened differently, but at the same time, exactly because the characters are the people they are, and “individual personality... must manifest self-destructive passions because only such passions are strong enough to defend the individual from a hostile and capricious external world” (Hegal again), there was no other outcome that could have occurred.

killua in sketches by niuya ✧･ﾟ:*

been waiting for this kind of question since i started this blog but now that someone has asked idk what to do so

This is a hard question. I’ve read tons of KilluGon fanfics and they’re all amazing, but I usually bookmark those that gave me so much feels so here are some:

OneShots:

Limits

Seven Minutes

Accidents x On x Purpose

Lights Out

On Whale Island

A ‘Need to Know’ Basis

Contact

Stop and Stare

Stupid

Getting to the Point

Smother Me

Report x Card

Date Night

Killua’s Back

Midnight 

Spine

Kiss Me Better

Divide by Zero

ice cold

Unlikely Friendships

Irreversible Darkness

Something Simple

You Do Realize That This Is Pretty Gay Right?

Something More

hundreds of ways to wish a happy birthday

wouldn’t it be nice if we were thinking the same things

Another Day (Another Door)

Four Fifths 

Shot x Glass 

Bring Me Java, Bring Me Joy

then there’s you

Touch x and x Breath

Prodigal and The Prince

one hour

Be my Valentine? 

Better Mornings

Against the Storm

may we meet again

Bindings Unbinding

sunshine eyes x and x starlight soul

Starry x Night

Heart x Beat

To Be x With x You 

If x We x Got x Married

Exploration

In x Experience

The Birds and the Bees

Focused x on x Me

Sugar Rush

Celestial x Cartography

The Bells Are Ringing

Come to Me

The Soulmate Phenomenon

The Adventures of House Husband Killua

Are x You x Ready?

thus, with a kiss, I die

After x Glow

Motor Scooters and Gelato

29 Missed Calls from Killua Zoldyck

We Ain’t Ever Getting Older

Adrenaline

Of Red Roses and Cheap Chocolates

Sleepover x At x Wing’s

Do x You x Love x Me?

The Time is Out of Joint

Tricks of the Trade

Misdemeanors

Bring Me Java, Bring Me Joy

Clearer x Skies

Dating This Entire Time

Series:

The Language of Loneliness

The Little Things

Skinny Jeans and Khaki

Black Butterfly

Two Sides of the Same Coin

One Hundred

StartedXThere, EndedXUp Here 

You call it Luck, but I call it Fate

Pop Culture Prepared Us for This

Carp(e) Diem

After the fourth time

Finally

Arrival

A Flower Named After You

Fire x And x Water

Eyes x and x Ears

If My Heart Was A House

Touch and Taste

The Predatory Wasp

Wrong Cinderella

Just x To Get x High

The Light in Shadows

Mithridatism

Stray 

Years and Years

Learning x and x Earning

Another breathless moment

The Uncertainty of Breath

Is It Okay To Stay By Your Side?

Awakened 

Learning to Fall

Down the Rabbit Hole

Always landing on their feet

Of Dresses and Boarding Schools

Who Do You Like?

Crossfire

Unraveled

Damage x Control 

gon princess carrying killua

First Times

Love is Strange

My Universe

Times Like These

shimmer in your shine 

the hormonal high schooler’s guide to falling in love

Raining Cats x and x Dogs 

Oblivion x And x Light

The Answer

Crush’d

no sugar no cream

it’s damn slippery out there 

Four Walls

Pictures for me

Of Sungods and Moon Children

Hit Me With Your Best Shot

I finally met you

Telling the family

Blue Valentine

Kissed a Girl

No Longer a Puppet?

Anything

What X Love X Is

A Little Wish Can Go A Long Way

Hooked

Held x At x Gunpoint  

Happily Ever Never

A King With No Crown

I’m Not Done With You Yet

To Catch A Shooting Star

Beauty and the Beast 

Falling For You

One Thing At A Time

6 Times Killua Had Cried

Vampire x Hunter

Coloring Between The Lines

Whimsicality

Hooked On You

Zombies, Among Other Things 

The Home We Made

First Times

Freshman And Milkshakes

Last Update: 12/08/16

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Masterlist

Published: Jan 29th, 2021 Most Recent Edit: October 22nd, 2021

Omegas

Different Types of Heats

Omega Stereotypes: Which are True?

Collars and Neck Coverings

Can Omegas have the biological urge to dominate?

Punk Omega Headcanon

Can omegas ignore an alpha voice?

Omega Headcanon 1, 2, 3

Spooky Szn

Gift from Omega to Alpha

Alphas

Different Types of Ruts

Alpha Stereotypes: Which are True?

Alpha Headcanon 1, 2, 3

Alphas around Omegas in heat

Alpha Female Reproduction Anatomy

Ruts Impacted by Alpha’s (In)security

Alpha Voice 1, 2, 3

Alpha finds injured Omega

Betas

What it actually means to be a Beta

How can Betas with weaker instincts help and understand the pack?

Beta Headcanon 1, 2, 3

Pack

Pack Size

Pack Living Accommodations

Omegaverse: Parental Names

Pack Roles

What happens to packless people?

Sister Packs

All Female Pack

Pups/Teens

Presentation at Different Times

Adoption in Omegaverse

Scruffing

Pup Headcanon 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Pup Sounds

Presentation

Teens Courting

Young Unplanned Pregnancy

My Recommendations and Opinions

My Omegaverse Symbol 

Things I will never support in Omegaverse

A/B/O Tag Recommendations

Traditionals vs. Non-Traditional a/b/o

A/B/O Guide Recommendations

My Opinion of Deltas 1, 2

My Opinion on True Mates

What is my favorite niche/trope in Omegaverse?

Omegaverse Blogs List

Starting an Omegaverse Blog

Random

Different Nests Aesthetics

Omegaverse Mermaid AU

Omegaverse Worldbuilding Starter Kit

10+ Pack Content Tag

Revolutions/Rebellions in Omegaverse

Alpha Female x Omega Male whose Omega Daughter Plays Contact Sports

Alpha Female x Omega Male whose Omega Daughter has Depression

City Specific Headcanons

Mates in a No Pack AU

Night Terrors

Modern Day Courting

Parental Names

Sex Ed Classes

Bonds 1, 2

Biology and Anatomy

Scent Glands 1, 2, 3

Omegaverse Sounds

Periods in Omegaverse?, 2

Omegas with Reproductive Organ Medical Conditions

Can Male Alphas get Pregnant?

Heats and Ruts after Giving Birth

Female Alpha Anatomy

Male Alpha vs Female Alpha Fertility Rate

What Causes Knots?, 2

Male Omegas Breasts

Pregnancy Stats

Dynamics Without a Sense of Smell

Mental Health and Sexuality

ADHD

Gender Dysphoria

Asexuality and Aromanticism 

Omega with BPD

Transdynamics

Omega with Tics/Tourette’s

Adynamics

Bronwyn Pack

Sawyer and Jude

Dorian and El

Whole Bronwyn Pack

Jude, Dorian, and El Pic- My OT3

Valentines Day Pic

Relationships

Female Alpha x Male Omega

True Mates Headcanons, 2

Male Alpha x Male Omega x Female Omega

Female Omega x Male Beta x Female Alpha

True Mates Red String Headcanons

Person from Our World True Mate in Omegaverse, Part 2

Female Omega x Male Beta x Female Alpha 2

Restaurant Owners Beta Female x Beta Male

Upper Class x Lower Class True Mates

Late Presenting Omega Headcanon

Omega x Alpha x Alpha (x Beta)

Omega X Beta Whump Headcanon

Female Alpha x Female Omega

Male Alpha x Female Beta

Male Alpha x Male Beta x Male Omega

Memes

Alpha Meme 1

Omega Meme 1, 2

Beta Meme 1

Random Meme 1, 2, 3, 4