To Everyone Struggling Here, Read This -

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DESCRIPTION: It wasn’t long after you started your new job that your boss caught your attention. Young, platinum blonde, a fan of basketball and hip hop, he was quite the outlier for someone with his title. It was hard to deny your attraction and when he suggested a casual sexual agreement, it was clear the feeling was mutual. What wasn’t apparent at the start was the dark reality he lived in and how he would pull you into that abyss.

PAIRING: Yoongi x Reader x Jungkook

GENRE: Angst and Smut

WORD COUNT: 170k

STATUS: Ongoing 10/11 parts completed

WARNINGS: abusive themes, violence, mentions of blood, dom/sub themes, blackmail, derogatory names, breath play, high levels of assholery

INDEX:

Prologue

Chapter 01

Chapter 02

Chapter 03

Chapter 04

Chapter 05

Chapter 06

Chapter 07

Chapter 08

Chapter 09

Chapter 10

EXTRAS:

Long Trailer

Drabbles

Playlist

Answered Asks

Fan Art

we’ll dream of a longer summer: a collection of summer poems

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this high summer we love by adrianne rich

the summer day by mary oliver

one summer by idea vilariño

when we with sappho by kenneth rexroth

summer by louise glück

onto a vast plain by rilke

spanish nights by royla asghar

summer morning by mary oliver 

baked goods by  aimee nezhukumatathil

summer was forever by chen chen

summer of the ladybirds by vivian smith

because it’s summer by ocean vuong 

summer (a love poem) by frank lima

the best time of the day by raymond carver

blue funk by julio cortázar

love letter by julio cortázar

the waves by juana de ibarbourou 

fragment 31 “jealousy,” by sappho

late summer by jennifer grotz 

wide space by mahmoud darwish

you can read these poems while listening to my summer playlist on spotify. a collection of quiet and dreamy songs that reminded me of summer’s spirit. hope you like it!! listen here !

exactly what i was going through

Undermining Inner Movement Due To Lack Of Physical Movement

The only movement that matters is the movement within.

I’ve been thinking lately about why sometimes I would never see my Full manifestations materialized even thought I would ((seriously)) change so much within.

Like seriously.. I’m a person who goes through multiple deaths and rebirths internally. The things I thought last week probably aren’t what I think this week and it’s surely not what I thought last month. I’m always expanding upon my life philosophies and dogmas to try to learn more about the world. Since the beginning of the year I really have completely changed inside. Blossomed into something completely different to the point where the me from pre late March just feels so disconnected from the me of now.

I say all this to say that I Do do the hard inner work and have the hard inner conversations with myself to shed old parts of myself to make room for the new. But then i ask myself, why does my external world not reflect that change?

Honestly this is something that would have me tripped up for a long time because before anyone comes in here saying “it’s clearly because you haven’t changed”, i’m going to stop you right there since I think I know myself better than a stranger on the internet. If anything, I think it’s because I championed external movement more than internal movement.

I was watching some Edward the other day, his video on internal movement. He spoke about how the movement inside should be the only movement we should seek, the outside is merely a bonus. It made me think about how I would undermine my Very Real internal transformations just because there wasn’t tangible evidence on the outside to substantiate that change which, in turn, would lead me back to square 1.

At times I would literally feel trapped by my outside world but as I’m typing this now I realize that it’s because I was too invested in the outer world. This feeling of encagement rlly would be because I would be someone completely different inside, but outside there was nothing to back this up. I felt (sometimes feel) like the world would never change… Like I’m trapped…

But again, the only movement that we’re after is the movement inside since reality is within not without. Me getting to a point where I completely felt like a different person inside should’ve been where I stopped and congratulated myself because that’s where the mission was accomplished… because.. again.. reality exists within.. not without.

Essentially feeling like a new person inside means I associated myself with this new state so much that I felt disconnected from the outside world but my need to see that reflected outside would have me back at square 1 because it was putting me back in a state of lack.

I honestly don’t remember where I was going to go with this but I want to just share this to remind everyone that if you’re like me and find yourself trapped at times, you’re too into the 3D. Remember that the hard part (internal metamorphosis) is already done and go back to your imagination to fulfill urself and experience what you’ve given yourself. Even if it feels like nothing is changing, know that you’ve changed in the only place where it matters and the rest will unfold beautifully … at least that’s what I tell myself

If you know that you’re a different person inside, if you know you’ve done the work, and if you feel disconnected to your 3D that is because you’ve shifted states. You’re more connected to a new version of yourself than you are to the current one in the 3D. Don’t let 3D validation keep you bogged down to the old story by changing your state from (being) to (wanting/waiting).

As I typed the last part I had a new epiphany lol. All the other times in the past I would only get my things half way is because I wasn’t fully committed to the fact that imagination is the only truth. Only half of my toes were dipped into the pool not the full thing. But I’ve decided to really let the mirror go and take a chance on faith and see where that gets us.

That’s all for now. Hope that helped!

"$50k would be nice"

*know* that its already there - thoughts might echo, theyre fake tho

Know that it's there like you know you have a hand or a toe - even if you have an intrusive thought that your toe is missing, you KNOW its still there

Even if you have an intrusive thought that your $50k is missing, you KNOW it's still there

What is this KNOW? ITS *THAT* - once you have an idea for an experience just KNOW SO. ALL THOUGHTS are an illusion, all reality is an illusion. You can still KNOW of these things to experience a specific illusion.

Ignore the intrusive thoughts, fall in the KNOW, into *THAT* which is "yourself" JUST *THAT*

This is all you are, *THAT* is all you need. The rest is a (creative) illusion.

You know the illusion of the body

You know the illusion of your family

You know the illusion of this reality concept

You know you have eyeballs

You know you have skin

You know you have ears

These are all KNOWN givens in your current illusory experience.

KNOWING is ALL you need. *THAT* is who you are. You don't even have to fight intrusive thoughts/ego, fake. You don't even have to observe them, not real. YOU KNOW they are occurring. YOU KNOW youre calm 😍🥰😘

🤍👁️🤍👁️🤍

effortless knowing.

How do "I" know "I" exist right now?

LOOK AT HIS SMILE😫

but imagine being in your favorite foreign city, living in a cute, cozy apartment with a lovely view, working at a small bookstore, spending your time at beautiful cofffee shops and libraries, taking long walks, meeting new people that make you feel good, being yourself, finding true love and actually feeling good & fullfilled with your life

Points to remember

1. Self must be expressed in the outer world. That's why there is nothing to change but self.

2. It's actually the inner man desiring not your body. So it must be fulfilled in your inner world.

3. Acceptance of your desires means to accept the desire in imagination.

4. Have faith that you are already what u want to be, once you accepted it.

5. Creation is finished, means, you have to do nothing but be in the state of already having it.

6. Whenever you thought negatively about your desires remind yourself that States manifest, thoughts don't.

7. A state can be maintained by the methods like affirming, visualising etc,.

8. You can change your state by intention, like, u can say " I'm already what i want to be" with knowing that it is true. This is how u change a state

9. It's not for how long you stay in a state, it's actually how often u be in the state of wish fulfilled. " It is the frequency". If you think about your desire 10 times a day then out of 10 how many times do you feel the wish fulfilled.

10. As long as you fulfill your desires in imagination, you shall not be worried about anything.

11. Feeling ≠ emotions, feeling is knowing that u have your desires.

12. 4d>3d, just like 3d>2d.

i kind of feel invincible rn. i can get whatever i want with literally no effort and the 3d will reflect easily because the 3d is just a reflection of me. i think greatly of myself and ik i have millions and ik i have my dream life and ik im the most beautiful girl out there and that everything works out for me <3 because i can trust myself, i can trust the law to always reflect

Hi, I don't really know what to do anymore. I've come to a point where I'm just tired of this whole thing. For the past month now I've been persisting in the state of the wish fulfilled and making it natural. And I've already reached that point even to the fact that yesterday till today I've been spiralling so hard about my desires and have gotten very depressed. I feel so tired physically and mentally, but even so I still have the assumption that all is done and that my desire is a promise that will reflect into the 3d.

But I don't know why this state hasn't reflected itself into the 3d. I know it's not something we should worry about, but I can't help but pay attention to it when I'm literally living it. Like yes i can tell myself that it's ok that all this is happening because it's going to change soon. But when it's been a month and I'm still dealing with these situations despite knowing that I already have what I want in imagination, it just makes me wonder why my subconscious mind isn't reflecting it yet.

I don't know what else to do because I feel I've done everything on my part. I have the assumption that once I embody a state my subconscious mind will reflect it immediately and that doesn't to be happening. And even then I just didn't care because I have my desire and regardless my subconscious mind will reflect it. But it's been a month now and I don't know what's going on.

I can't seem to give up because I know that regardless I am going to end up with my desire. I just want it to happen now.

okay, i've been really busy and i was going to take a break from tumblr but this ask sounds desperate and reminds me of the old me so I'm going to answer this and take a break. I'll get to other asks when I have some time.

first of all, thank you for trusting me enough to send me this

second, please take care of your mental health. I've also been there where I was so consumed and obsessed with the law to the point where I was mentally and physically exhausted. i know it sounds too cliche but please drink enough water, eat good meals, spend time with people who love and care for you if you have any, meditate to calm your mind, go out for walks, shower, move your body, etc. you get the point.

third, this is really important so i need you to pay attention to this. you say you're in a state of the wish fulfilled. but are you really? i do not say this discredit and invalidate you. i need you to take a step back, detach from your thoughts and feelings and take an honest and critical observation of your state of being. are you really in a state of consciousness of being it or are you still trying and waiting and hoping?

your state dictates your reaction. your state dictates your reaction to your 3d circumstances, thoughts, and environment. IF YOU'RE STILL HAVING THE SAME REACTION TO YOUR 3D CIRCUMSTANCES, THEN YOU HAVE NOT CHANGED, PERIOD.

if you're still looking at your 3d circumstances and think "ugh I hate this I need this to change. i did everything right why has it not changed?", I'm sorry to break it to you, but you have not changed within.

when you're in a state of consciousness of being/having it, your feeling(not emotion) changes and you no longer react to your 3d the same way not because you're forcing yourself to be that way but because it doesn't bother you anymore.

please please re-read your last sentence.

"i just want it to happen now"

WHAT ARE YOU DOING WANTING NOT BEING IT ALREADY???????

seriously. what are you doing desiring not giving it to yourself?

the first step is to stop desiring. NOT by suppressing your desire, but by giving it to yourself to the fullest in imagination/consciousness ONLY. read these quotes by neville carefully and compare what neville says and what you sent me here.

“you cannot persist in wanting what you already have. if you assume you are what you desire to be to the point of ecstasy, you no longer want it”

“so i no longer want to be it, i am it!”

"you cannot continue desiring what has been realized"

“i cannot have and still continue to desire what i have. i may enjoy it, but i cannot continue wanting it”

your reaction to the 3d and old thoughts is a good indicator to see whether or not you have changed within but another good indicator is to see whether you're desiring or feeling fulfilled.

if you felt fulfilled because you already have it, you wouldn't have said what you sent me, would you? you're lacking. you're desiring. please leave the 3d entirely alone because you're not lacking anything in the 3d. you're lacking in consciousness. that's why you want results in the 3d. you want results in the 3d so they can fulfill and satisfy the lack you're having in consciousness/imagination.

you're lacking within so you want something on the outside to fulfill that lack within. it doesn't work that way. you fulfill within first and then it happens on the outside. as within, so without. you always push your self out. life is a simulation of SELF. stop seeking validation from the 3d and seek validation from your SELF.

when you desire something, it's not your physical body desiring in the 3d. your body is simply a garment you're wearing to have human experience here. it's you, the inner self, the invisible you, the real you, that is who's in desire in imagination/consciousness. first, accept you have it so that you no longer desire it in consciousness. until you change your consciousness/imagination, your life remains the same. that's the law.

i can tell you've never read edward art's series. i will forever preach his series until the end of time until the day I die. here is the link. please invest some time and read it. don't just skim through it. understand that desire is within and must be fulfilled within. show true unconditional love to yourself by giving your inner SELF all in imagination/consciousness then 1) you will stop desiring. then 2) your reaction to the 3d will change. then 3) it will happen in the 3d.

go drink a glass of cold water and read my response over and over again until you understand it. please be kind to yourself and fulfill all your desires in imagination/consciousness only!! then you will feel fulfilled and happy. happiness is simply a by-product of fulfilling your desire in imagination only. don't forget to read his series I linked!!❤️

Obsidian (Master List)

Author: kpopfanfictrash

Pairing: You / Taehyung (V)

Rating: 18+ (smut)

Warning: Murder mystery, smut

Status Complete

Summary: The world of magic is divided into dark and light, witches and warlocks, choice and fate. You’re a prodigy of light, a witch who works within the police force. You’ve heard of Taehyung in passing, spoken in whispers as the warlock of dark who has the world holding it’s breath.  All this changes on the night you’re assigned as security for a mysterious singer named V and you come face to face with Taehyung himself. What happens after that might be fate.

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