I Just Need To Get Through This Week

a child with an undiagnosed mental illness: I think I need help. I struggle with things nobody else seems to be struggling with.

a parent who never got diagnosed for the exact same mental illness: Oh sweetie. EVERYONE struggles with that :)

I don't want to hurt you

or anybody,

so please forget about me.

Just try.

Find yourself a better friend.

i’d like lwj to be friends with more women but his options are fairly limited. i can’t imagine him being actually close with jyl because they’re too polite to each other. even when lwj is used to wwx being wwx i think he would see wwx tease jyl and be Shocked Scandalised, wei ying how could you torment your sister who has never done anything wrong in her life ever. good siblings-in-law but idk about close friends. there’s wen qing, and they have mutual respect and also of course gay lesbian solidarity, but also top requirement for lwj having a friend like this, surely, is that he can potentially get a second opinion on Feelings instead of just doing internal suffering. which you cannot discuss with the mildly terrifying best friend of the subject of said feelings. mianmian is a great option but really she can’t be expected to befriend every sect heir who is bad at expressing themselves socially, surely one is enough

(insp)

august is for realizing your spotify wrapped is irreversibly fucked

When Lan Wangji has had enough, and the armor breaks.

he’s an irredeemable villain to you. he’s my special little princess though

i’ve never needed a wangji more in my life

I just find it beautiful (and heartbreaking) how Wangji immediately takes responsibility for Wuxian as soon as he comes back from the underworld.

He knows by now Wuxian is not that good at taking care of himself and he’s not going to let the same mistake repeat over and over again, so he just decides he’s going to be the one who will take care of Wuxian, whether he likes it or not.

And he does take care of him. Perfectly, in fact. Not only does he take care of Wuxian, he anticipates his needs (like when he fixed his flute) and you can see that Wuxian is confused at times, but also extremely comforted by how protective Wangji is of him. 

Because let’s face it, Wuxian is used to being the protective one, the one who has the weight of the world on his shoulders, even when the people he loves don’t know what he’s done for them (like Jiang Cheng).

This is the first time someone is taking care of him without him asking for help and without expecting something in return. 

Wuxian has known little kindness in his life and certainly none in the years leading up to his death. By that point, he had no family, no clan and everyone would rather see him dead than try to understand him.

The Wen Clan was a found family, but he was the one taking care of them, not the contrary. So no, Wuxian probably doesn’t remember what it feels like to depend on someone else because he never had the luxury to do so. 

And yet Wangji has no hesitation and will not negotiate. He immediately makes himself dependable for Wuxian. He’s not going to lose him again. He lost his chance to protect him once and he’s not going to repeat that same mistake. 

He knows that very well and immediately acts on it without second thoughts, losing all the hesitation and maybe even a little of the discretion he had 16 years before. If Wuxian is wounded he will touch him or undress him, if Wuxian can’t walk he will carry him even if it’s “embarrassing”. Whatever Wuxian needs, he shall have.

And Wuxian’s reactions honestly have me in tears most of the time, because he doesn’t think he deserves any of that. But that’s exactly the point: Wangji knows Wuxian doesn’t love himself. So he decides he will love him enough for the both of them until he does.

i don't trust anyone in my life not one person no one