unbearable
something about looking at your hands to understand if you are dreaming or not + also looking at them to understand if an image is ai generated or not
no rain, no clouds, no pain, no shrouds
no final breaths, no senseless deaths
me? nothing. just browsing through an old and quite dead fandom, lookin posts that sent in 2015 and making myself sad out of nowhere.
cant wait for when i become a real person
Found an old sketch
…OK I love absolutely everything about the new visual
experiencing a sorrow that is so personal is incredibly ugly. pain felt selfless is kind of poetic in a way but when you take it deep- when it becomes too personal, too painful only on your own behalf it becomes so ugly that it erases everything. you turn into an old pile of grief. they way you look- the thoughts. they will flood your brain and you'll scrunch your face in disgust, now you became entirely what you have been feeling. that is who you are right now; broken glass shards shoved under your bed, a sink full of dishes with flies flying on it, the never happening possibility of becoming someone- something. all the figs on that tree is rotten. this is incredibly ugly.
inspired by that one scene where dazai takes akutagawa
Pandemonium by Kim Jakobsson.