Being Alive Hurts.

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

we diagnose you with a creeping sense of alienation forever. incurable

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Every time it rains I just sit and listen

Joaquín Nin, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in Reunited: The Correspondence of Anais and Joaquin Nin, 1933-1940

not mad just outside your house with a gun

Internal Persecutor

An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]

coined by @destructionsys !! flag by @littlest-bugz [aka us!]

BASIC COLOR MEANINGS

Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor

Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors

Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in

Black ; The targeting of the system

White ; The safety those on the outside have

Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system

Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system

Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.

MAYBE I'M DEFECTIVE

OR MAYBE I'M DUMB

I'M SORRY, SO SORRY

FOR WHAT I'VE DONE

MAYBE I'M BAD NATURED

OR MAYBE I'M YOUNG

I'M SORRY, SO SORRY

FOR WHAT I'VE DONE

"u look tired" dawg i'm going insane