An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]
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BASIC COLOR MEANINGS
Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor
Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors
Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in
Black ; The targeting of the system
White ; The safety those on the outside have
Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system
Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system
Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.
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i love you so bad but maybe it wasn't meant to be?
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Someone: *Breathes*
Me: If you don’t shut up, I will break every bone in your fucking body.
I keep getting harassed for my abusive past actions even though i'm trying my best to recover and said sorry, it makes me feel sometimes like I'm unfixable and just destined to be a monster forever, and that I deserve to feel in pain, how do I move on from that?
You aren't a monster or incapable of change. All you can really do though is keep your side of the street clean; keep doing better, and give yourself grace. We are allowed to be kind to ourselves, even when no one else is. We can't change the past, and we can't change how it affects other people, nor their response to what happened. I know it's a sucky thing to accept, and accepting that doesn't make any of those permanent, dehumanizing judgements true.
You are who you are today; not who you were before you learned better. Set boundaries as you need to, and remember there will always be people who will support and love you. People are complicated and far from perfect. There is a future for you, and that future can be bright and peaceful. Just stick around and keep going, and you'll find it. ♡
Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “What I couldn’t explain via text”
[Text ID: “I still don’t know how / to love someone / without swallowing them.”]
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