Part Of The 'Wandering Echoes' Collection.

Do you ever feel like this reality is just not made for you.

so much left to say

i only ever thought

there was two types of loves

the kind you’d kill for

and the kind you’d die for.

but you, my darling,

you were the kind of love

i would live for.

Always stuck on the other side of the glass. Can never cross paths, except by violence.

Internal Persecutor

An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]

coined by @destructionsys !! flag by @littlest-bugz [aka us!]

BASIC COLOR MEANINGS

Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor

Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors

Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in

Black ; The targeting of the system

White ; The safety those on the outside have

Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system

Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system

Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.

shoutout to recovering abusers, especially those who are abuse/trauma survivors themselves. you and i both know that, unfortunately, once we do something, we can't take it back. i know it hurts to know that, but recognizing it for what it is... that's what allows you to do the only thing left to do - be better. it's not easy, nor pleasant, and likely, a very isolating experience.

so i want you to know, there's at least one person out there who's rooting for you, who's proud of the person you're becoming. you are not doomed to do horrible things forever. you are not beyond leading a happier, healthier life. growth is an option. healthy relationships are an option. they have to be, for all our sakes.

if you want to stop hurting others, and stop hurting yourself, your choice is right here. i believe in you. you can do it. you have to. break the chain.

you’re in her dms, i’m on her dni, we are not the same