Tried My Hardest 2 Be On Model Hope This Isn't Too Bad

Genshin alcoholics

what if your best friend got stuck in the haze, so you self isolated for years until you remembered the time loop you’re stuck in … 😳[Kagepro x YTTD AU]

(click for better quality)

it runs in the family

like father, like son

Button goes BOOM BOOM

“I am new to the Moomins. What is it? Where do I start?”

Recently I received a lot of asks. I tried to do a mini moomin guide and I hope it will be usefull.  :) If you want others informations, feel free to send me a private message!

tsukasa tenma

aw what a funny silly goofy guy :)

:)

...😐 um. i need to talk about this kid?

he's so bright and passionate and lively and he cares so, so, SO much about the people around him. literally his biggest dream in life is to become a world famous "star" solely to make people everywhere smile. but there's all these little things about him that are easy enough to brush off due to the chaotic nature of the wxs stories - there's always something else to catch your attention. but i'm deeply concerned.

he's so... forgetful? it's played off as a quirky character trait and i think it's pretty clever that it's being approached that way - because if you sit and think about it, the things he forgets are odd. at the beginning of the wxs story, he can't remember why he decided to pursue acting. he can't remember the play he saw when he and saki were small. he can't remember her smile as she watched the actors on stage - the smile that spurred him forward into the person he's become today.

he doesn't recognize the plushies in SEKAI as being the very same plushies he used to put on mini-plays for saki while she was in the hospital. childhood memories get blurry with time, sure, but these sorts of... foundational, deeply important memories are not forgotten that way. they don't get erased, even if you are a silly forgetter-forgetful-forgetterson like tsukasa is treated as. unless your brain is repressing something.

the wonderland SEKAI is tsukasa's alone. and the only other person we've seen who's had emotions strong enough to create their own SEKAI is. mafuyu. the fact that tsukasa manages to parallel her of all the characters is so... disturbing. and hear me out:

on a certain level, i think wonderland and the empty SEKAI are similar places.

like, empty is... empty. yeah. it's easy to lose yourself there. to let go of your concerns and "disappear." all of the n25 members have commented that it's calming and that they enjoy spending time there.

wonderland is full of things to do. insane magical rollercoasters, singing flowers, talking stuffed animals - it's impossible to worry about anything there. only fun, fun, fun, fun! smiles and happy faces everywhere you look! to be blunt: it's the epitome of a distraction.

mafuyu loses herself in calm and quiet (her SEKAI, her empty aquarium) - so she can forget she exists and be nothing and rest for a while. tsukasa loses himself in constant upbeat, flashy distractions - so he can forget he exists and just play his role as the Star who makes everyone in the world smile. both of their SEKAIs are an escape in every sense of the word.

the mafuyu-tsukasa parallels go further, too. they both have emotionally neglectful parents that have pushed them into thinking they have to be perfect and successful to, like... justify their existence.

i don't remember which of the gazillion card stories it gets shown in and i don't want to dig through them to figure it out, but we See that when saki's illness started getting worse, the tenma parents stopped coming home on a regular basis. tsukasa was left alone FAR too much for how old he was. in the doll festival event, we see him running to the hospital all by himself to bring saki her dolls, pretty late in the evening, and... not a word from their parents? were they not home again, or did they just not notice?

or did they decide that tsukasa is a strong big brother who can take care of himself And saki? despite being, like... 10 at the oldest? (that's how old he seems there to me anyway)

and i want to talk about the world hasn't even started yet. because as kaito said, it's JUST tsukasa's song. this is his SEKAI. like. a brief compilation of all the lyrics that stand out to me, for bad reasons:

With a cast who can use magic and monsters who are burdened with trauma,

Even I know that everyone's destined to disappear someday...

With a ticket that's long past expired and a heartbeat fading over time,

"Let's come again next year," is said without any promises being made

...

There's too much noise, so much noise and it keeps getting worse

I want to be inspired straightforwardly, just as I always have

In a deteriorating, abandoned room I simply dream on

...

Hey! In the depths of Hell, a happy ending plays out

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

With a thick-skinned king and an alchemist full of desires,

We'll all someday return to the earth, leaving our attachments behind

...

There's too much conflict, too much conflict and it keeps growing

It's like when our arms are all tangled together, I couldn't help but worry

So I'll brush off the dust and reboot it all

...

Hey! The best of the worst of crappy plays

Hey! A flag that'll paint over a bad ending

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

Hey! Let's cross the end of all of this, partying forever

Hey! Spinning on a never-ending merry-go-round

Hey! This world hasn't even started yet

Hey! Let's break the plans for a harmonious future

Ring the bell that marks a new life

this is not a happy song?

it's not even like. hopeful in a bittersweet sense. it says right there in the lyrics that tsukasa doesn't... expect much out of his life, in terms of being happy and permanently surrounded by people who love him.

it's a reflection of inner turmoil, self-worth issues, fears of abandonment, fears of not mattering enough and being forgotten - fears of not being the perfect success everyone has always expected him to be. you just don't see it, thanks to the flashy lights and dazzling grins and confetti cannons going off in your face and loud drums.

idk. tsukasa's interesting this way. he seems to have repressed all of his memories of a lonely, frightened childhood. nights he had to sleep all alone in a great big house, confronting the idea of mortality from a Very young age, because no one knew if saki would survive. these are feelings unfitting for a future star - so he must discard them. reboot and start anew, so to speak.

and yknow like... he clearly understands that he does have value. in a way? he knows he matters to saki, and then to toya, and then to the rest of wxs. but judging by the lyrics of this song, he sees these attachments as very temporary (might have something to do with him being forced to confront the mortality of his baby sister without the proper support a young child Needs to work through and understand something so frightening, and his brain just didn't develop its emotional permanence skills very well) and expects to fade into the background of their lives. and i don't think seeing saki thriving now that she's out of the hospital (reconnecting with her childhood friends and starting a band) and then seeing toya thrive as well (finding His People and learning to rebel against his father all on his own) - is helping that mindset. it probably confirms to him that like, he's served his purpose in their lives? maybe they'll always love him, but they don't need him anymore. and i think he's very much expecting the same thing to happen with wxs and he is Terrified

(it's. obviously not true like he'll always mean the world to saki and toya. and even if wxs has to disband so nene can pursue her specific dreams and whatnot, he'll always mean the world to them, too. but it's true To Him. so.)

anyway i don't have a real conclusion here. so tsukasa tenma

⌇⎍⌿

⌇⎍⏚⌇☊⍀⟟⏚⟒ ⏁⍜ ⏁⟒☊⊑⋏⍜⏚⌰⏃⎅⟒

⊑⟒⍀⟒

when you get this, please reply five things that make you happy and send this to the last ten people in your notifications 🌱

listen to music, making artworks, reading, watching anything, hang out with some friends

I don't know how to explain how lowkey satisfying it is for Wilbur to be an unreliable narrator to his father.

He was mentally so down the rabbit hole of delusions, and pain that he just didn't want to come to terms with his own father about what happened.

It just feels so relatable ya know? Not telling family about stuff you did wrong because you're so upset about the outcomes can be so personal. Maybe its from somewhat personal experience? I have no idea. But what I do know, is that:

Wilbur did NOT lie to Philza about what happened out of malice, he did it because he didn't want to disappoint his father.

wdym this isn’t how it goes

I draw him