“Sherlock Would Totally Deduce Me As An Alcoholic…” - I Think To Myself As I Fumble With My Phone

Why are so many of us with eds queer?? Like is it just me noticing this??? ilysm gay anas 🥺💝

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my may intake rules

this is for my use. I updated my old rules to be more restrictive.

1) 500 calorie limit

2) one meal a day. Eat at 11:30. must fast 24 hours everyday

3) weigh in everyday.

✨Body check: 5/24/20✨

I've only ever had very few ana rules that work for me:

Always eat something for breakfast and dinner, it shouldnt be too big.

Water water water water water 💦

Dont eat anything that you can easily say "no" to. If you crave that cookie, only one bite and youre done.

I usually don't eat if I dont have to during the day, so no social eating for me. (I also stay away from eating anything with my family and make my own meals which is easy)

If you're still hungry after dinner, if all day's calories were low its okay to have a little something more.

Thats about it, I've lost over 45lbs in total doing this.

“But I can’t have an eating disorder!!”

I say shocked as I dissociate and fantasize about my thighs no longer touching and my tummy grumbles from fasting the past 2 days

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Anyone else go rapidly back and forth between denying and recognizing their ed because I do a LOT it’s crazy

no, you won't lose 10 lbs over night

no, you won't notice changes right away

no, you won't go down two sizes in a day

No you won't become thin in just a few days

but you will eventually

one day you'll notice your pants won't stay up anymore

one day you'll shower and look down your body and your tummy will have shrunken

one day you'll see how promintent your collarbone has become

one day you'll put on a bra and notice your ribs are slightly showing on your chest

one day people will comment how slim you've become when they see you or hug you

i promise you it will happen

just don't lose hope, don't lose motivation, don't lose your dream

You. Can. Fucking. Do. This.

Little things…

{{I never want to forget how good it feels to finally be skinny!!!}}

🌺 On Christmas, my cousins asked if I had ever considered modeling. I said no, I’m too short, you have to be like 5'7… They insisted I should at least look into social media modeling!

🌺 A few days later my dad brings it up again, “You know, you really do look like you could be a model!” He’s never said anything like that to me before.

🌺 My mom comments almost every day on how skinny/tiny/little I am now. She used to always talk about how we both needed to lose weight. And now she’s always trying to offer me food, rather than criticizing too many snacks.

🌺 I posted a selfie on instagram and a girl I hardly know commented “omg your bone structure is unreal” … (literally no one has ever said that to me, ever! I didn’t even think I had any bone structure lmao)

🌺 I went for a hike with my brother and I didn’t have any trouble keeping up, didn’t feel tired or out of breath, kept up with the conversation and just really enjoyed the whole thing! I’ve always loved hiking but always used to be the slow one, struggling and holding up the group.

🌺 Skinny legs in leggings! Skinny legs in boots! Skinny legs in leggings and boots and cute layers on top! There’s no words for it but it’s literally my favorite thing.

🌺 Having to wear baggy sweaters with scarves so you don’t look too skinny. (Literally never thought I’d ever have that problem lol.)

🌺 Long blonde hair looks good when it’s messy; I only ever use a tiny bit of makeup; my outfits are cuter and more interesting… It’s easy to get ready to go anywhere and I feel so much more confident about the way I look.

🌺 The best clothes in the clearance section are always XS or S, so you can buy cute things cheaper than everybody else paid for it lol

🌺 Learning to love salads and unsweetened tea!! Tastes so good and feels so healthy!!

🌺 Saying no to junk foods and binges just gets easier and easier tbh. You’re in control and you get in the habit of saying no/making better choices.

🌺 When I try to set my phone on my lap and it falls through my thigh gap… It’s mildly stressful and annoying but in the best way possible! (I usually can’t even manage to clamp my thighs together to catch it, it just ends up hurting my knees.)

🌺 The feeling of walking with a thigh gap… Your legs not even brushing past each other. I feel like dancing all the time!

🌺 You get more drunk off less alcohol. If you get too drunk you know you’re small and cute and your friends won’t have any trouble helping you get home. (I usually don’t drink that much, I like being in control of myself. But a few glasses of wine is enough to get me loose and having a good time!)

🌺 Gaining the confidence to dance in public and be goofy because you know you’re small and cute.

🌺 In general, I’m much less self-conscious about my body and it feels so free. I’m still insecure about my personality and I still struggle with school and there’s all kinds of things in my life that I still need to work on, but it feels really, really good to have at least one less thing to worry about. (At least I know I look okay on the outside even though my life is still a mess lol.)

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🌻You can get all these results with positive and healthy weightloss methods, and it’ll probably feel a lot better! Eat good food, drink water, exercise a normal amount, and you’ll get there!!🌻

Some of my favorite thinspo 🥺❤️