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equilibrium

"ekwɪˈlɪbriəm/ [uncountable, singular] ​a state of balance, especially between different forces or influences.

have we reached that? or.. did we really head there?

I've invested my priceless assets: heart and mind. Something that you mocked me for being unrealistic. but im proudly say my talent is falling in love deeply, I could even win some prizes due to my holy mastery.

probably, our love languages are different, we just have another view on stability, or the most important one: how we prioritize and we merely leave it under the rug

That Smlehoy Ass

Sayang,

40 jam per 5 hari. Kalau cukup beruntung, bisa lebih. Setidaknya aku merasa sedikit dihargai saat mencapai 50 jam.

Katanya jadi karyawan saja tidak bisa membuat kaya. Maka aku harus hemat.

Persetan. Aku sekarang hanya memikirkan kencan nanti malam makan di Daitokyo Sakaba. Perut dan nafsuku harus dijinakkan setelah rapat panjang penuh tekanan.

Sayang, aku hanya ingin menyayangimu secara sederhana. Aku ingin bebas lepas mengungkapkan betapa aku mencintaimu. Tanpa harus takut akan masa depan.

Percayalah sayang aku sedang melawan keraguanku. Aku sedang berusaha untuk lebih percaya diri. Aku yakin pantas mendapatkan ini semua. Tolong tunggu sebentar. Tolong. Aku akan berusaha lebih keras lagi.

Miss you :(

How Not to be Disappointed by Other People

How many times do I have to tell you, Vic? Never expecting someone abundantly!

It’s not literally their fault, unless they promise for nothing. Here here I tell you to do better:

1. Make your points clear to avoid misunderstanding and unnecessary assumption from both parties.

2. Giving trust is not a crime. Some people deserve trust but some of them could ruin it. So, keep checking to assure they’re in a right track, but do not be aggressive. They need a space too.

3. Forgiving is ok, yet if they break more than once, you’d better think do they deserve the second chances.

3. Separate personal and professional matters.

4. The world does not revolve around you, put yourself in their shoes.

5. Any situation could happen in a blink of your eye, so keep calm. Then, anticipate what you can control.

Having my 2nd covid

...is not cool. I assume ive got it since synchro hari kedua or ketiga. 

Di saat aku capek keknya huks.. 

By the way, covid keduaku nggak sesakit yg pertama (alhamdulilllah!) hanya saja batuknya nggak nyantai banget. Kasian my partner :(

I only need time to stop.

I have zero courage to face tomorrow.

Vicky, you’re a responsible person, right?

Let’s set things straight: finish what you’ve started and plan out what needs to be accomplished before the holiday.

Your fear is tied to the things you’ve delayed—unfinished tasks. Have courage.

Trust the process; Allah will guide you