Vickyhantari - 26/27

Akhirnya aku mengerti cicilan menjadi alasan kenapa orang-orang bekerja keras.

Heading to 30 #1

Semoga aku bisa jalan2 ke luar negeri

Bisa ngasih duit lebih banyak ke Bapak Mama

Punya sumber penghasilan lebih dari 1

70 kg

Punya badan sexy sampe memuja diri sendiri

Punya keluarga sendiri :) Suami aja cukup

Rambut tebel!

What is my advice for today?

Halo, Mama

Mama, aku berusaha mengerti situasi dan kondisimu dulu.

Seandainya ada mesin waktu, aku akan membelamu dari siapapun yang jahat. Aku akan membelamu habis-habisan bila memang mama melakukan kebenaran.

Jika aku sudah ada di saat itu, aku akan mendorong mama untuk lebih berani berpendapat. Mama itu pintar tapi ketidakpercayaan diri mama yang membuat mama ragu.

Mama, who hurt you? 

Ma, aku akan membantumu untuk menyembuhkan lukamu 

im your emotional sponge

i met a girl from Bandung, named Tami. We had a good convo (i think good here bc she could absorb my feelings)

"you are a very emphatic person. Be cautious it can be your own weakness".

Somehow it's true.

And also I expect a person can respond to me as much as I do to them effortlessly. Her name is Kharis, I owe her an apology. I used her to be my emotional sponge bc she fell in love with me. it never be wise to take her for granted. I was toxic to her. She's a pure soul and deserves love (hopefully she finds someone who treats her right). If we ever meet again in another life, i won't mind being her soulmate.

let's go back to the main topic. being an emotional sponge to others means you have the skill to acknowledge their feelings. im unlearning that everyone's feelings matter since in this cruel world, boundaries should exist. you should be able to distinguish whether things are tolerable.

i am completely done with accepting that being compassionate is not a sin. i have to put in "right" amount, dont I? wont blame my placements (yes, my sun - moon - risings are all water signs), this is something i can manage to.

Here a good tip for an emotional sponge like me:

"Visualize A Glass Wall

There are a number of techniques that you can use to keep other people’s energy separate. One technique includes visualizing a glass wall between yourself and the other person. The glass wall allows you to see the other person’s emotions. However, the emotions are not able to penetrate the wall. When they hit the wall, they bounce back to the other person, not to you. You can see and acknowledge the feelings, but you do not absorb them. This technique can work in large crowds as well. You can picture yourself surrounded by a glass wall as you move through the crowd. Although you may notice their energy, you do not have to take it on as it cannot get through the wall."

Please check here if you need guidance: https://keirbradycounseling.com/empath-and-absorbing-other-peoples-emotions/

I was praying my period would come faster, therefore I should not be fasting.

Today God has granted my wish. Not the period, but I'm not fasting due to my health issue. I suppose I am catching cold right now. A bit upset because this is not my prior intention.

Semoga kita mencintai dengan berani

I am that old to realize that it's okay to cry in public

I only need time to stop.

I have zero courage to face tomorrow.

Vicky, you’re a responsible person, right?

Let’s set things straight: finish what you’ve started and plan out what needs to be accomplished before the holiday.

Your fear is tied to the things you’ve delayed—unfinished tasks. Have courage.

Trust the process; Allah will guide you

ARIES SEASON 2023

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