Diary Entry #9

ed? Not me.

#iwillcryifihavetoeatagain

The day he left me was the day that I died.

And I was reborn... as a witch.

making a list of my disreactions / things to do to get my mind off food because i really need some new ones tbh

+ get ahead of schoolwork

+ clean my room and my house

+ spend time with my cats

+ watch weight loss tiktoks

+ scroll on tumblr

+ play sims

+ do skincare

+ take a hot bath

+ listen to music and dance in my room

+ go for a walk

+ watch shows/movies like skins and mtv downtown, anything triggering or with people i want to be living the life i want to live

+ journal , draw , scrapbook

+ online window-shopping for things i can wear when im skinny

+ just thinking about how good i’ll make my life once im skinny tbh

+ find someone to crush on

I have two sides

Me

Hello, I go by Ruby. I am going to try to lose as much w8 as possible in 75 days (75 hard 4n4 version) if anyone want to join or anything I’d love to be friends!

HW: 186 lb

LW 143 lb

CW 149

            1 gw 160 ✨

            2 gw 150

            3 gw 140 

            4 gw 130

            5 gw 120

            Ugw 110

I want people to turn their heads when they see me. I want people to me jealous. Envy me how i did all these years. I've had 4nna for years now, but I have never been "scary thin" I'm tired of waiting. it's embarrassing and pathetic. i hate myself I am done being such a fatass

Whether it be a fae of the waters, fae of land, or one of the skies,

A truly beautiful fae is small.

"Oh my gosh I just Can't I might as well qyuit, I ate so much today I binged im such a p1g, I'm going to eat everything I cn find, I'll just lock in tommorow."

what..? Stop whining and shut your mouth. Stop stuffing your face. "Oh but i can't controll it."

yes u can bro your the one shoveling that food into your mouth?? hello????

gym bros undereat and call it a cut and nobody bats an eye, i undereat and society.. society says i have an ed