When people see programming from the outside, it looks like a very sedentary occupation. In many ways it is. But when you are doing it, when you are the person in that chair, it is anything but sedentary.
Coding is a rush. The only thing preventing you from moving faster is the speed of your fingers and the processing power of your brain. Everything is happening all at once. Even with a plan, knowing exactly what you need to build, how you need to build it, and exactly why it needs the modules it needs, even then you are following the road where it goes, through all the twists and turns. It’s like that first moment of falling when you cycle over the top of a hill at speed, when you realise how fast you are going and you are both filled with adrenaline and a reckless sort of fear.
I’ve been addicted to that rush since I wrote my very first program at nineteen. There is nothing quite like it. I used to run, back when I still could, and even at my top speed, downhill, feeling almost like I could fly, it never quite measured up to the swoop and dive of the black hole that is coding. You want it to go on forever. It’s almost an out of body experience. Full brain immersion. I can code all day and barely even realise that time has passed. I am almost never the one to stop myself programming. Either the program has reached a natural break point, or someone else has noticed the time and managed to pull me back into the physical realm.
After I got sick I was terrified that coding would be different. My physical limitations would prevent me from reaching that level of pure cerebral energy that was my adrenaline fix. Would my fingers move fast enough? Would I get tired too quickly? Would my sideways brain be able to solve problems on the fly like it used to?
Luckily, like reading, it seems that my brain has been able to reach those levels necessary to dive into my code. I need an ergonomic keyboard and mouse, else my fingers tire and cramp easily. I get tired more easily, meaning that after the adrenaline rush I find myself unwell and exhausted. But even then, waking up like I did today, feeling ill from over exertion of yesterday’s coding spree, I wouldn’t trade my coding for a thing. Some people jump out of planes. Programmers dive into code. And after all, I’m no good with heights.
blood and love blood from my chest, both things red in nature, yet one aims to kill and one to heal, yet which one is it? the red courses through my veins, sating me, making me weak, making me painful, making me sharp. which red is this, the one of hearts anatomical or hearts drawn poorly? which heart aches in my chest, the one i’ve drawn into my flesh, or the one under it, pumping away?
Charizard mega Y
now for the ultimate test. go to this website. set it to randomly generate ONE pokemon. all generations. all types. whatever it generates? thats you as a pokemon forever. what you get is what you get. NO RE ROLLING. now. who are you? i got goomy :^)
i have a question for polyams, as an aromantic: what does romance mean to you? the most common kinds of romances we see are from a monogamous lens (ie. the “one true love”), so i’m curious to know how y’all’s view on romance differs (or is the same!).
this is directed at alloro polyams, however if you are polyam and aro/arospec and you have something to add, feel free to weigh in!
I guess you could say you’re…. Polyamorace
i have a question for polyams, as an aromantic: what does romance mean to you? the most common kinds of romances we see are from a monogamous lens (ie. the “one true love”), so i’m curious to know how y’all’s view on romance differs (or is the same!).
this is directed at alloro polyams, however if you are polyam and aro/arospec and you have something to add, feel free to weigh in!
I have not seen enough people talking about how the 20th anniversary of Fellowship of the Ring is in like a month
thinking once more about when i sold patches on etsy and someone sent me a pic of their cat in a little denim vest wearing one of them.
We spend a lot of our time considering other perspectives. We read stories, listen to tales from friends, and imagine ourselves in other worlds, in the heads of other people.
But at the end of the day, we are limited to ourselves. Regardless of how much we can see someone else’s stories, opinions, and even thinking patterns, we are locked in our own heads. At the very end, We are alone.
✨♿Wheelchair Drawing Tutorial♿✨
aaand it's finished! An artist's guide to custom rigid frame wheelchairs! This is completely free to use, reference, and save. Reblogs are welcome but please do not repost without permission and credit. Have fun, lovelies!