Killing Time At The Cemetery

let me go full buckgirl for a second. but if bobby truly is gone (he’s not) then buck is never gonna be the same like this loss is gonna change him down to the bone. it’s gonna be like pre and post hell dean winchester and it’s kinda breaking my heart

I am eating DRYWALL AAAAAH

Further thoughts on Buddie following episodes 8x11.

I'm speculating here, but I think this episode was about setting up a coherent and satisfying narrative around Buck and Eddie's feelings for each other. Look. Buck's recently figured out he's bisexual. If he's going to end up dating Eddie, Eddie needs to come out too. But how do you get two main characters to come out as queer when they've only ever dated women before? That's a wildly convenient coincidence.

(Audiences hate convenient coincidences.)

Now Buck is insisting he's not interested in Eddie. Why isn't he interested in Eddie? Well, Eddie's straight. Okay, that's not really an answer. But it doesn't matter! Because Eddie's straight! Why does everyone think he's in love with his best friend? His best friend is straight!

Suddenly Eddie's sexuality is a question. Is Eddie straight? Why is that important to Buck? What would happen if he wasn't? Fandom has been asking these questions since day one and we've already got more than a few answers of our own. But now Eddie's sexuality is being made salient by the narrative. And we're being told, Buck is not in love with his straight best friend.

So, hypothetically: Eddie comes out as Not Straight. This is no longer a wildly convenient coincidence. It's a complication. (Audiences love complications). Because now Buck has to answer the question that we've just established he does not want to answer. Are you in love with your best friend?

They can also reverse the order. Have Buck answer that question and move on to What Now? In this case, Eddie coming out is now a resolution. (Audiences also love resolutions). I think this is the less interesting path but it's also possible.

Usually when I dissect narratives like this I think in terms of "what I would have done." This is not what I would have done. This is better than what I would have done, because I've never had to convince my audience that People Can Be Queer, Actually, Yes Even Him. I would not have thought to structure it this way. I didn't think to structure it this way, and I've given a lot of thought to how I would hypothetically structure a getting together arc that would be convincing to a mainstream audience. I've been thinking that the only options for Eddie coming out are either Buck is supportive and excited for him as a friend, or Buck is painfully hopeful because he's been pining. Way, way better: Eddie comes out and Buck, who's been insisting for months that just because he's queer doesn't mean he's in love with his best friend, immediately realises he's in love with his best friend. And spirals.

finally got a hozier needle drop BUT AT WHAT COST

Matt: *does stupid shit*

Foggy:

redrew a mattfoggy scene bc of the daredevil brainrot wdym born again's day after tomorrow (my friend said this looked like a meme so. made it one)

The love I have for this Thurvishar guy is too much to handle.

NO.

Ok I need everyone to understand that Buck and Eddie are both products of their upbringing. Buck was a child of neglect, which led to him having abandonment issues. While Eddie was a child forced to grow up too fast, which led to him having hyper-independence. Two different kind of traumas. Two different kinds of trauma response. Which would require two different kinds of help.

Buck and Eddie help each other overcome these things and because they are two different kinds of problems, the way they help will ALSO be different. Ever since they met, Eddie has always been there for Buck (don't even fight me on this) and Buck has always given Eddie what he needs. It will look imbalanced, but it's really not. They both need SOMEONE in their lives, just in different ways.

Buck doesn't need someone to take over his lease, or to take care of his son, or to help him figure out childcare, he needs someone to Not Leave Him Alone. Eddie doesn't need someone to tell him he's not expendable, or to be reassured he's trustworthy, or to be promised he's not going to be abandoned, he needs someone to Give Him a Helping Hand. And the moment they became friends they have been those SOMEONES to each other.

They are each other's persons. Equally.

Prompt:

Two neighbours who live in front of one another's house (and who have never spoken to each other beforehand) suddenly find themselves practicing their musical instruments, window open, at the exact same time, days after day, until they start making music together.

I am definitely not inspired by my brother's piano talent and my front neighbour's trumpet talent. They don't know each other, I don't even know her name, but I ship it.

Love wilson with my whole ass heart but when he walked out on House after the elektroshock it was just wrong. It was plain, simple wrong.

SPOILERS for S4 House finale!

What hurts the most about House crying on the table during “Wilson’s Heart” is not merely the fact that he’s crying for the first time on screen (from what I can recall, besides maybe the infarction), but the fact that Wilson has to bear witness to the shit show he MOSTLY CAUSED HIM.

Not only that, but he finally sees House releasing the shoved-deep-within-the-crevice-of-the-back-of-his-mind emotions while on the verge of death thanks (in part) to him; Wilson’s always wanted to help house become emotionally healthier, yet Wilson instead pressures his emotions under an anchor of unbearable stress that he has to cry, in the O.R., in front of his only friend, his employees, and everyone else who might know.

Let alone what House is crying about: unbearable stress is about the best way to put it, as he’s got “killing my best friend’s gf” guilt (even if he says he has none, then that only leaves room for the stress of what Wilson’s reaction might be, which… a gay point for another day), or the fact that he may lose his life in the next few seconds, or the fact that Wilson may watch him lose his life, the literal pain of both his leg and the surgery- God knows all the things he’s stressed about enough to make him shed a single tear. Maybe I’m getting overzealous about this. BUT!

I’m overdosing on my love and appreciation for Wilson but I have to say he’s such a bitch sometimes (respectfully).

episode where ravi has those big beautiful brown eyes on display and feels worthless and then tries to commit a biohazardous terrorist attack to save his friends life and you want me to be worried about “pacing” baby what the fuck is that all i can see rn are the saddest eyes in the world im busy