Literally Me With Sirius In My Fic… Mans Been THROUGH It

James: What's wrong, Pads? You've been mopey all day

Sirius, in a broken voice: Moony said he doesn't love me anymore

James: WHAT!??

Remus: I just said it's too hot to cuddle!

Sirius: All by myself

Remus: It's 40 bloody degrees!

Sirius: Don't wanna be all by myself

Sirius: *has been talking for over two hours*

James, quietly: Moony... you know I love him, but...

Remus: Sirius, if you close your mouth I’ll kiss it.

Sirius: *stops talking*

regulus wanted to be james. to have sirius' undivided attention like that, to have such a codependent relationship which he could trust to hold. to be carefree and laugh with an abundance of friends like james potter the popular, attractive quidditch king did.

james wanted to be sirius. obviously, not literally - he appreciated his family being as loving as they were and wouldn't want for a second to be in an abusive household like him but... he wanted a little brother. he wanted someone who could actually care about him and take away some of his loneliness. but more than anything he wanted to be loved unconditionally in the way remus and sirius did.

but, arguably the saddest, sirius wanted to be regulus. to have their mother actually love him, or care about him to some extent. to be in slytherin and maybe have people tolerate him more as a black. to just generally have kept to himself more, as regulus did, would have meant so many of sirius' mistakes and regrets never even happened.

so yeah.

regulus wanted to be james. james wanted to be sirius. and sirius wanted to be regulus. of course, each boy loved the other, whom he envied. deeply. but maybe it was tainted with a strong sense of jealousy.

Reading fanfiction isn't enough I need to make out with Lily Evans

james potter and sirius black are so in-sync that I imagine sirius coming out to james went something like this.

*sirius enters the dorm*

sirius: prongs, we need to talk.

james: *sits up* what's up.

sirius: I'm gay.

james: ...

sirius: ...

james: can I—

sirius: yes.

james: *gets up and hugs him* are you—

sirius: I'm fine.

james: does your mother—

sirius: no, but when she—

james: you know you're welcome—

sirius: I know.

james: ok, good ... wait, was it—

sirius: yes.

james: does he—

sirius: no.

james: you haven't—

sirius: not yet.

james: but you do plan—

sirius: yes.

james: well, go get him, tiger!

sirius: *leaves*

james: *smiles fondly to himself*

peter: ... what the fuck just happened?

“You’ve already left kudos here,”

I DONT CARE LET ME LEAVE MORE. THE AUTHORS NEED TO KNOW MY LOVE FOR THEIR FIC

Incorrect quotes based on my friend group.

Regulus: I really like this guy, but I don’t think he feels the same way.

Remus, staring at Regulus dressed head to toe in James’ wardrobe: Yeah… no, he’s definitely not interested.

Sirius: You know James would die for you right?

Regulus: James would die to save a fucking pigeon.