the peaceful wind of nature - Collab with @anasabdin - thank you so much for animation and for turning this art into life - it was a great experience to work together with you! ✨
government wants trans people to detransition so here’s them chasing me to hot glue my bazoinkers back on
the reason so many characters who "use humor to mask the pain" or "are assholes with hearts that care DEEP down" are mischaracterized in fan content is because fans would like to explore the more vulnerable side implied but not shown all the time in the source, but in doing so forget the outer layer the character actually acts like most of the time, which then echoes as fans begin to immerse themselves in fan content exclusively without going back to the source for a long time. that is to say that you cant separate the outside self a character presents to others from their inner self and insecurities they are and have inside - they may have issues, but theyre still funny and/or an asshole
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Vent under the cut
God I feel like such a shit person I can't even do one simple thing I know she's hurting I know I need to help her but part of me wishes she'd never told me isn't that messed up? It's like I care more about myself than her life but I don't I swear I don't I'm surrounded by death all the time I don't want to lose her too but every time I think about her now I'm launched back to last year's late nights on the phone trying to talk my best friend off the edge while deep down I wanted to end it too god we're all so young why the hell can't I just be a kid? Why can't I help her? Why can't I help everyone? For fucks sake I can't even help myself I'm so pathetic and I'm failing as a sister all I want to do is make everything better but every damn time I run away and she's probably gonna kill herself and there'll be no one to blame but me cause I was too worried about myself to help her
edit: our parents know now but they don't know everything and they're really shit at this I'm scared they're gonna push her over the edge or make her feel worse and now every time they talk about it I can't even stand to be in the room I fucking hate my life but I shouldn't because I'm not the one suffering right now so why the hell am I making this all about me? I just want her to get the help she deserves this is all so messed up
one of these days I'm gonna accidentally dox myself
I should be dead
My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit
Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before