Deer Freak Me Out So Im Always Going To Draw Them A Bit Fucked

day 167 | excerpt from ‘the worm king’s lullaby’ by richard siken [id in alt]

Electra drives me insane she's really like. This family tree is rotten and so I am rotten but the rot will end with me. And yes the father that lives in my memory is a fantasy and a stranger to the man that really lived but he's dead and every memory of the dead is a fantasy. And yes my father did horrible things but he did those things because he had to, I have to believe he did them because he had to. And maybe if he had lived, he would have loved me and I am so starved of love that I will beg for it from the graves of dead men. Yes this woman gave birth to me and shaped me into the wretched form I am today. No she is not my mother. Yes I hate her. No I can't remember a time when she didn't hate me. Yes I am desperate for her to love me. No I would rather die than do something to earn her love. No I am nothing like her. Yes I look into the mirror and see my mother, and I hate her, so I hate me. Yes I believe my brother remembers and loves me and will come and save me. No I don't know what he looks like or if he's still alive. Yes I love my brother unconditionally. No I don't really know my brother. Yes I know my brother intrinsically because he is the other half of my soul. No I don't believe he's coming. Yes I love him anyway because I am destined to love men who leave me behind in this house. This house that has been built on the bones of my murdered family, killed by my family, and their blood has poisoned the roots. Yes this house is my home. Yes this house hates me, and what does it mean when your home is also your prison? Yes I want to leave this house. No I will never leave this house. Yes this house has always been haunted. I am the thing that is haunting this house.

ok so you're stealing my bio now.

rori that was 4 months ago I literally sent you ask about it SJSKSKSKSKSK

god complex by violent vira btw

GOD I COULD TRY TO BE THE ONE TO BE THE ONE ILL TEAR DOWN THE SKY!!!!!

god i love doomed romances because it’s like. “what is grief if not love persevering” but the grief and love are happening at the same time. how do you grieve something that’s still alive? how do you love something that has always been dead? and the answer is just. intensely.

Dustin Pearson, The World at Its Beginning

GET OUT OF THE ITAFUSHI TAG

SHUT UP LEAVE ME ALONE

jcs is so good to me bc like. it isnt about the religion actually. its purely the events leading to crucifixion and the crucifixion itself. jesus hasnt been shown doing any miracles, he doesnt hear the voice of god, he dies all the same at the end and we dont see him resurrected. the story isnt about jesus as a martyr its about stardom and placing people on a pedestal so far away that it topples over and nobody knows how you got here or how to stop it and it doesnt matter if youre a normal man or the son of god you will get eaten up all the same.

finally got around to finishing this mag101 comic i sketched out a few months ago!!transcript: