Guy I Keep Randomly Remembering A Fanfic I Started Writing A Few Years Back That I’m Nowhere Near Finishing..

Love nonbinary people forever, regardless of how they look, how they present, what pronouns do they look or whether they want to pursue medical transition or not. An AMAB nb person has a beard and looks like a bear? Good for them. An AFAB agender person is breasting boobily down the stairs? Good for them! A genderflux person decides to pursue medical transition and still be genderflux? Fantastic stuff imo. A nonbinary person does not want to disclose their ASAB? Also great! Again, love nonbinary people forever, unconditionally so.

trans rights are human rights dammit!!!!!

alr, so my moms been bugging me for awhile about the fact that i should do more things like writing and whatnot (especially if i can get money from it to save up for college), which i get. i need to start actually doing stuff with my life that isn’t just sitting around and consuming

but lately she’s been pushing me to use ai and praising it cuz it saves her a bunch of time with her self-made business, which ig i can understand. but at the same time like wtf no. i wanna be an author one day and i don’t wanna have to rely on ai to do the work that i should be doing

and what hurts me more is that she’s been using it to design things for her newsletters and whatnot, but that’s actively taking away from people who have dedicated so much time and energy into honing their craft, into becoming amazing

i know that ai can be really helpful in various ways, but i don’t think that means we need to use it, especially since it’s harming so many creative folk. i’m genuinely scared that one day, when i graduate into this world after spending years working hard to be a wonderful author, i’m scared i’ll be a failed artist the second i step out into this fucked up world. i’m scared i’m already a failed artist simply for being an artist

i’ve wanted to be an author my whole life, and it hurts to see a machine learn and develop quicker than i ever could and to receive more praise than my work ever has

and honestly, yeah i’ll admit i’ve tried using chatgpt before. i had no ideas and i desperately wanted to write, so i tried to see if ai had any good ideas. yet i didn’t care for a single one. they all felt so bland and over-used. it didn’t feel like me. sure, maybe i’m not using it right, but i still have my opinion and it’s not going to be changed

seeing humans hard work replaced with quick, white-washed crap hurts, and i don’t want to stand with the side of a machine

dude i want me a little ace twink boyfriend who’ll build me a whole corpse just to show how much he loves me

during spring break i got to visit a wonderful place that was a train station turned bookstore. it felt very cozy and welcoming and you could just get lost in there for hours. i highly recommend it if you’re ever in the area- alnwick, england. plus, it seems most of the books are second hand and quite cheep (i got four books for £23)!

it’s called barter books :)

I know being visible is hard right now, and you’re no less valid for having to hide. Deep down, know that this is your day too. I love you x

okay. so i’m polyamorous, right, i’m open to having multiple partners and whatnot

but!

so far everyone i’ve told has been.. kinda a jerk about it. AND I DONT UNDERSTAND IT

why? what’s wrong with being poly???

it’s not cheating. like, if i had a partner then i started crushing on someone else and that other person liked me as well, id go to my partner and talk about it and if they’re chill with it- and if the other person is chill with it- then i’ll date the other person while continuing to date my partner

i had a bf once who, when i explained that i’m poly to him, told me that he doesn’t want me dating other ppl cuz that’s cheating. but it’s not. AND!!! dude fucking cheated on me

and i just genuinely don’t understand what’s so wrong with having a crush while you have a partner. it happened to me years ago, where i had a lovely partner but i developed a small crush on another guy. i wasn’t going to do anything about that crush of mine, but my partner found out and he was upset and i felt bad cuz of that but i also didn’t understand. and i still don’t

i’ve just been ridiculed every time i mention that i’m polyamorous and i don’t get it. why can’t i love multiple people? everyone does it all the time- i have a plethora of friends who i love, and when i last had a partner i loved him too. so why is it wrong for me to love multiple people in a romantic way?

i’m not going to cheat. i’m not going to say that i’m poly as an excuse to be a jerk

i’ve found that oftentimes i love so deeply that it aches. i can’t help the fact that sometimes i get flustered due to various people, i can’t help that sometimes i have a longing to be with someone; but that doesn’t mean i wouldn’t want my partner anymore

sorry for my little ramble, it’s just gotten annoying to be shamed for this :/

was talking to my gf about my fear of dying young for being trans and my mom putting my deadname on my gravestone, and she said "i hope that never happens, but if it does, i will carve your name into your grave myself if i have to." and i think theres something extremely raw about that sentiment and trans community in general. you can kill only our bodies, but you cant kill transsexuality

my little oc james :)