I Want To Squeeze Them Because I Love Them So Much

Maybe I like dressing like a pokemon trainer. It's cute

29 Jul. 2023 edit: it was well worth it.

Hey if you’re a trans person who’s in the closet and wants to tell some trusted people who you know for sure will be supportive but you feel really intimated/nervous nonetheless, take this as some inspiration and confidence and a sign to give ripping off that bandaid another try (assuming it is safe and comfortable enough for you to do so; you wouldn’t rip off a real bandaid before the wound was safe from infection, don’t take off this one prematurely either).

I’ve also had a really hard time coming out to people. Not because any of them are unsafe, I’ve gotten incredibly lucky with my friend circle, but because it’s just intimidating and difficult. But this past week, I’ve been pushing myself to do it and it is so rewarding. Having people who know and support you is so special and the way some of them have reacted has just meant the world to me.

So. Don’t put yourself in an unsafe situation and don’t push yourself to do something before you’re truly ready, but if the only thing holding you back is just the intimidation of coming out itself, I say go for it. It’ll be well worth it.

✨ noelle holiday

Woe, gender euphoria be upon ye!

*I am engulfed in rainbow light and emerge looking like this*

I wake up with a start and stumble out of bed

Making my way to the bathroom, I hit my hip on the side of the doorway

My heart pounds, pushing the estrogen through my veins

I look in the mirror and see a tired girl with messy curls past her shoulders

Everything is as it should be

I forget what I dreamt about, and brush my teeth

HEY!

TRANS BODIES ARE BEAUTIFUL! ALL OF THEM!! YES, EVEN YOURS!! ESPECIALLY YOURS!!!

My dear lgbt+ kids, 

If you want to educate yourself on something your parents, teachers etc. don’t talk about (lgbt+ topics or anything else), here are a few general things to keep in mind: 

- “I want to learn everything about (broad topic)” can be intimidating. You may feel like you don’t even know where to start. If that happens, here’s an idea: Take one thing you know (no matter how “basic” it may seem) about that topic and ask yourself “Why?” or “How?”. If you hit the point where you can’t answer that question or are not sure if your answer is true, you found your place to start! 

- It’s okay to stay in your comfort zone in the beginning. Not a big reader? Watch a documentary instead. Struggle to understand big words? Look for articles aimed at teenagers or even kids. When you got the basics down, you can step outside of your bubble. 

- Make sure your sources are independent and credible: they don’t try to sell you something, don’t use fear, guilt tripping, misleading graphics/headlines or outdated info to change your mind.  

- Feeling a bit frustrated is okay, feeling completely overwhelmed is a sign you need a break. This is especially important when the topic is emotional or personal for you. When we learn about injustices that happen(ed), we can get angry… at the world for allowing cruel things to happen, at ourselves for not being able to magically fix that problem, at our peers who don’t seem to care etc. It’s okay to feel that way. But there’s no use in burning yourself out or drowning in guilt. Taking a break doesn’t mean you turn a blind eye. It’s necessary for your mental health to not think about horrible things 24/7. 

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Dad 

MARIO DOOBLES!!!

I was making up a sequel in my head about Luigi being the hero, but it ended up being all about Daisy instead. And I'm okay with that!

Another unexpected (but very positive) consequence of being trans: I kinda "gentle parent" myself now, so to speak? For a long time, I've had a problem of being incredibly hard on myself in kind of every way, which is definitely not a good thing. Part of why this has changed is definitely due to mental health improvements, but I think my journey of improving my mental health and understanding my gender/transitioning are incredibly intertwined. The former kickstarted the latter and the latter drove the former forward. Had one not been present, the other would not have progressed to where it is today. I still am a bit hard on myself at times, especially when I'm frustrated, but I've gotten so much better at just being nice to myself, at just telling myself I'm doing a good job or that I did enough or that it's ok if I can only do part of this task because it's better than nothing, and I'm better at reframing my dysphoria into less of a "I hate this about me" and more of a "look how this has the potential to change." I'm just so much better at treating myself with the same kind of uplifting compassion that I try to show others. Like just. The impact transitioning has had on my mental health is absurd. I genuinely love and care about myself in a way I don't think I ever did before and it's pretty incredible. So. Some credit definitely goes to therapy and various internet people, but boy howdy is my transition already doing so much.

y’all i had this cute idea for making shitty abstract pride flags and i love them