Another unexpected (but very positive) consequence of being trans: I kinda "gentle parent" myself now, so to speak? For a long time, I've had a problem of being incredibly hard on myself in kind of every way, which is definitely not a good thing. Part of why this has changed is definitely due to mental health improvements, but I think my journey of improving my mental health and understanding my gender/transitioning are incredibly intertwined. The former kickstarted the latter and the latter drove the former forward. Had one not been present, the other would not have progressed to where it is today. I still am a bit hard on myself at times, especially when I'm frustrated, but I've gotten so much better at just being nice to myself, at just telling myself I'm doing a good job or that I did enough or that it's ok if I can only do part of this task because it's better than nothing, and I'm better at reframing my dysphoria into less of a "I hate this about me" and more of a "look how this has the potential to change." I'm just so much better at treating myself with the same kind of uplifting compassion that I try to show others. Like just. The impact transitioning has had on my mental health is absurd. I genuinely love and care about myself in a way I don't think I ever did before and it's pretty incredible. So. Some credit definitely goes to therapy and various internet people, but boy howdy is my transition already doing so much.
The weirdest thing I never really anticipated about transition is that the things I saw attractive in other people would happen to me on testosterone
Top 10 posts that make me ask if “I never said I wanted to be a girl, just that it would’ve been easier to enjoy some of the things I enjoyed if I was a girl” was just copium
Ralsapril Day 7 - Robe
Ralsei in a Yukata counts as a robe right?
fun gang (+noelle) as kids having a snowball fight?
There were supposed to be teams but then they all ended up ganging up on Ralsei
I want to pick a new name but I'm torn between a few, can the people in the notes please help me decide?? Or at least please like call me them, to help me figure out which one I like? (Im boyflux ftm)
I hope this isn't weird/rude to ask, also this is kinda long sorry, thank you if you post this op :)
(Please don't be offended if I say something rude about your name to anyone reading this, the names I'm gonna talk about are: Lewis, Luca, Luke, Alec, Alex, Niyx and Peter)
Lewis
the one im basically settled on
I really like it
Feels like mine i guess
I feel like transphobic people might call me louis tho :/ or even accepting people might not realise im a guy and think they've misheard and call me louis
I think it would go well with my last name
Luca
Stolen from miraculous ladybugs Luca and the sea monster kid (this is a good thing)
I think I'd rather the name Luke because this is like Luke but not quite and if you're gonna make it like 1/2 Luke why not make it fully Luke
Luke
Stolen from Luke Patterson (jatp) because I headcannon him as ftm
I know a guy named Luke who kinda sucks and who my friends and I kinda don't like
I like this name but is it mine
Alec
I like this name
sounds cool with the "ck" sound at the end
Same thing as the luca thing, why not just go with Alex??
But I kinda like it
Alex
I know a guy named Alex and I'd feel kinda weird stealing his name
Stolen from jatp's Alex
I dont really like the name for me i guess but at the same time i do
Niyx
Such. A. Cool. Name.
It doesn't really feel like mine
Also stolen from a fictional charichter
Peter
Peter Parkers name
Its just kinda. A name.
Doesn't really fit me right
i kinda like it tho
It's a cool name
From the Bible which is kinda cool because I'm a Christian
i love the names peter and lewis, they’re both so cool. i love the nickname lou, too. ultimately it’s up to you, but those are my two cents!
happy pride month to lgbt people who are really boring. we deserve love too
Gender thoughts with no satisfying conclusion :l
First entry in a while, huh?
I hit a local barbershop on Monday and got my beard shaved off. Looking in the mirror for the next day or 2 kept making 🎶the person in the mirror isn’t me🎶 pop into my head, but since that’s passed, I think it was a reaction to not having that level of protection from weight shit (since that aspect is still here) and not a bad reaction to taking the next step in social transition.
Still dreading the inevitable coming out convo w/ my parents, and still stressing over writing the transname letter to my profs, but nothing so far is dissuading me from transition: I felt (and still actively feel) happier than (almost certainly) I felt all summer. I think this is the right choice, I just need to get over non-trans-related appearance fears to be really happy.
I must ask: what do you think of Sunburst MLP?
i havent actually gotten to the dude but they manufactured this guy in the trans horse factory
(also i fucking love his design so much its like top 5 for me. i love whenever the show uses more realistic horse patterns it makes my brain go wild for some reason)
me, 12 years ago when i realized i was trans: ugh woe is me boohoo i don't want to be a tranny that's the worst thing ever me, now: peace and love on planet earth yeah baby woohoo!!!! i love being a tranny this is the best thing ever