First entry in a while, huh?
I hit a local barbershop on Monday and got my beard shaved off. Looking in the mirror for the next day or 2 kept making 🎶the person in the mirror isn’t me🎶 pop into my head, but since that’s passed, I think it was a reaction to not having that level of protection from weight shit (since that aspect is still here) and not a bad reaction to taking the next step in social transition.
Still dreading the inevitable coming out convo w/ my parents, and still stressing over writing the transname letter to my profs, but nothing so far is dissuading me from transition: I felt (and still actively feel) happier than (almost certainly) I felt all summer. I think this is the right choice, I just need to get over non-trans-related appearance fears to be really happy.
A comic I made last holiday season! Oldie but goodie
you gotta be as gay as possible on the computer otherwise alan turing died for nothing
Thing is is, as much m/f that is produced in the world, as a bi woman, sometimes I want to see a man fall in love with an obviously queer woman. I want to see a man realizing that the woman he is interested in is gnc and that isn't going to change.
hey. to the fat person reading this who wants to transition or is transitioning. make your transition goals fat like you. please. the things you aim to gain from transition can be gained while fat. you can be/express your gender and be fat. there is nothing wrong with that, no matter what anyone says. i promise.
let yourself exist. let yourself be happy. you have just as much of a right as every other person in this world to do that, especially as you transition. it's okay. you're going to be alright, and you're also going to look fucking awesome. you already look fucking awesome. it's your body. own it.
GOD I wish someone had told me I was trans so much earlier. Like. I actually take care of myself now. It's amazing. This isn't even sarcastic at all like I have just never had the energy or motivation to fucking take care of myself. But ever since I realized I was trans and figured out who I wanted to be, I've got that motivation now. I can actually get myself to put more than the absolute barebones minimum into caring for my body. It's actually incredible.
To me, "having made it" as a trans woman isn't passing.
It's about not needing to shave your legs anymore to feel feminine.
It's about not needing to wear makeup anymore to feel feminine.
It's about not worrying about every step or sound you make to make sure you seem feminine.
It's about trying to get your hair to look just right, and instead of thinking "RAAAH NOO!! I'll never pass like this everyone will think I'm a man!", you think "Bleh, bad hair day... Oh well"
It's about feeling feminine no matter what you do, no matter what others think. Especially that last part.
It's about knowing, accepting, deep down, that you are a woman, and nothing you do or don't do will change that fact.
That's when I know I made it.
29 Jul. 2023 edit: it was well worth it.
Hey if you’re a trans person who’s in the closet and wants to tell some trusted people who you know for sure will be supportive but you feel really intimated/nervous nonetheless, take this as some inspiration and confidence and a sign to give ripping off that bandaid another try (assuming it is safe and comfortable enough for you to do so; you wouldn’t rip off a real bandaid before the wound was safe from infection, don’t take off this one prematurely either).
I’ve also had a really hard time coming out to people. Not because any of them are unsafe, I’ve gotten incredibly lucky with my friend circle, but because it’s just intimidating and difficult. But this past week, I’ve been pushing myself to do it and it is so rewarding. Having people who know and support you is so special and the way some of them have reacted has just meant the world to me.
So. Don’t put yourself in an unsafe situation and don’t push yourself to do something before you’re truly ready, but if the only thing holding you back is just the intimidation of coming out itself, I say go for it. It’ll be well worth it.
you ever take a uquiz and realize halfway through that you don’t respect the author and their opinion is useless to you