I Want To Pick A New Name But I'm Torn Between A Few, Can The People In The Notes Please Help Me Decide??

ptsd, depression, and anxiety culture is lying 24/7, even about the most random or simple things so no one thinks you have problems

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whats cool about being trans is my parents are totally right. i did kill their beautiful son. im the thing that animates his corpse in an ever more convincing parody of a happy girl. i devoured him from the inside out and now there is nothing left of him and he is dead dead dead and there is only me, with my hollow eyes and dark eyeliner and long hair, and my big smile. my limp, effeminate gestures belie the marionetting of the boy they loved. my fagginess is his death. already his body becomes a fitter home for my parasitism in full; the tits, the hips, the thighs. sorry about your kid. thanks for the biomass <3

Dropping by to say that Magnolia is very Gender. That is all, have a good day.

Ideal. Fuck yeah

tbh i think this shreds

Another unexpected (but very positive) consequence of being trans: I kinda "gentle parent" myself now, so to speak? For a long time, I've had a problem of being incredibly hard on myself in kind of every way, which is definitely not a good thing. Part of why this has changed is definitely due to mental health improvements, but I think my journey of improving my mental health and understanding my gender/transitioning are incredibly intertwined. The former kickstarted the latter and the latter drove the former forward. Had one not been present, the other would not have progressed to where it is today. I still am a bit hard on myself at times, especially when I'm frustrated, but I've gotten so much better at just being nice to myself, at just telling myself I'm doing a good job or that I did enough or that it's ok if I can only do part of this task because it's better than nothing, and I'm better at reframing my dysphoria into less of a "I hate this about me" and more of a "look how this has the potential to change." I'm just so much better at treating myself with the same kind of uplifting compassion that I try to show others. Like just. The impact transitioning has had on my mental health is absurd. I genuinely love and care about myself in a way I don't think I ever did before and it's pretty incredible. So. Some credit definitely goes to therapy and various internet people, but boy howdy is my transition already doing so much.

In my experience so far, She/Her/Hers had it right when they wrote that,

I will probably harbor some doubts, but mostly I feel fine. // Fuck that, I feel fantastic! I am living with enthusiasm, reckless abandon.

Like, there’s some fear and discomfort wrt whether this is the right choice but that’s bc everything I’m questioning is stuff I’ve never tested. Crossdressing? Hair stuff? It’s all stuff my “1.5in hair and cargo shorts for the last decade” ass has never experimented with.

And if the fact that my brain still lights up most times someone calls me Theo despite having had that happen constantly for a month, and the fact that I’m really liking some of the experiments I’m already doing with my hair (bangs), and the recession of longstanding confidence issues timed coincidentally with getting to college and flipping to testing this out almost-completely-publicly is any indication, then crossdressing and real hair experimentation is going to be euphoric.

(Also finding out SHH released another version of that song last year almost made me tear up bc holy shit the contrast w/ the lead having started (finished?) voice feminization)

transness is about shaping yourself in ways that make you fall in love with yourself, it is not defined by dysphoria or discomfort- you don't have to carry misery around with you forever.

Got a terf in my sideblog and the reply is not worth deigning with a response but the pinned post?

This? This is a trap. This is concern baiting. Be very sure that shit like this is not in your best interest and does not care about you. The goal of rhetoric like this is conversion.

You’ll be welcomed and asked to ignore transphobia. You will be asked to side with transphobes at the expense of trans women. Eventually, you’ll be asked to see that, hey, maybe you transitioned to escape how terrible it is to be a woman?

This may seem obviously a trap but I see people every day buy into this. People like this do not care about you! They want to “rescue” you and don’t let them convince you otherwise.