Quarantine? The Hoe That Made Pulp Fiction?

As one of my favorite authors, intellectuals, feminists, marxists, and people in general, her autobiography was extremely interesting for me. Some of the stances she holds now-just like her thoughts on lesbianism and how it holds a place in her life-were what she thinks, flawed as a younger woman. I think it shows the similarities she has to most people. Her thoughts and opinions are corruptible, like others, but not entirely correct without complete reflection and observation.

I’m going back to Angela Davis’s homophobic description of the dykes she met in jail that she wrote before coming out and I can’t get over how much I’ve seen the same basic framing before:

[“Since the majority of the prisoners seemed to be at least casually involved in the family structure, there had to be a great number of lesbians throughout the jail. Homosexuality is bound to occur on a relatively large scale in any place of sexually segregated confinement. I knew this before I was arrested. I was not prepared, however, for the shock of seeing it so thoroughly entrenched in jail life. There were the masculine and feminine role-playing women; the former, the butches, were called “he.” During the entire six weeks I spent on the seventh floor, I could not bring myself to refer to any woman with a masculine pronoun, although some of them, if they hadn’t been wearing the mandatory dresses, would never have been taken for women. Many of them—both the butches and the femmes—had obviously decided to take up homosexuality during their jail terms in order to make that time a little more exciting, in order to forget the squalor and degradation around them. When they returned to the streets, they would rejoin their men and quickly forget their jail husbands and wives. An important part of the family system was the marriages. Some of them were extremely elaborate—with invitations, a formal ceremony, and some third person acting as the “minister.” The “bride” would prepare for the occasion as if for a real wedding. With all the marriages, the seeking of trysting places, the scheming that went on by one woman to catch another, the conflicts and jealousies—with all this—homosexuality emerged as one of the centers around which life in the House of Detention revolved. Certainly, it was a way to counteract some of the pain of jail life; but objectively, it served to perpetuate all the bad things about the House of Detention. “The Gay Life” was all-consuming; it prevented many of the women from developing their personal dissatisfaction with the conditions around them into a political dissatisfaction, because the homosexual fantasy life provided an easy and attractive channel for escape for many.”]

so many different things to pull out. That butches and femmes are victims who lean on each other in times of crisis and forget about each other as soon as their circumstances are improved, her real horror at the mismatch of genitals and body arrangements on display around her, how frustrated she is by the people she needs to become self-sacrificing communist heroes sinking into distraction instead, her sympathy for those who use skin contact and social relations and healing sex to cope with the overwhelming violence of jail life warring with her disgust for escapism and wasted time, the posing of gay life as an all consuming false identity that takes the place of a real personality, her awareness of how much she was able to accomplish as far as challenging the administration in her short time there compared with what she thinks the other prisoners SHOULD have been able to push for if they weren’t so distracted by sex and family instead.

she recanted all of it later of course, her foreword is full of disappointment at how little she understood when she was that age, but the fact that she did think and feel that is timeless.

The Devil Wears Prada was supposed to teach me about the dangers of forgetting who you are and putting work over your partner but what it taught me is that sophisticated older women with a lot of power are very, very sexy

AU where ethan comes back a little more fucked up and dissasociates

what’s having a gemini moon like?? ✨✨✨✨

hell! (ahdlisjfldkf im kidding. kind of)

they never stop thinking, ever. their brain doesn’t shut up or shut off

insomnia or just general issues with sleeping seem to be extremely common with gemini moons

usually pretty nervous/jumpy/anxious people

crave social interaction and communication but also need solid alone time to recharge as gemini moons have a very potent “social battery”

very sarcastic

usually extremely funny and tend to be the type to make anyone laugh

they’re great at becoming friends with all different kinds of people bc they can alter their personality when needed

change what they want a LOT, this goes from small things like fashion sense, makeup style to bigger things like career path or romantic interests

very hard on themselves and put a lot of pressure on themselves to do well in whatever their current interest/pursuit is

they act dumb a lot, for humour, but they’re usually the smartest person in the room

generally really love learning and get bored when they aren’t studying/learning new things frequently

they’re often interested in the small details, hobbies, topics, etc that other people don’t care to pay attention to

they often remember small details about their friends, family, significant others, etc

they get crushes easily and frequently, but they often leave as quickly as they came (one day and one week crushes are common)

very indecisive

pretty critical, judgmental people and can be harsh but may be able to completely hide this depending on other placements

on that note, they’re actually often very open to new ideas and opinions, and don’t mind hearing people out even when they disagree

they love!! discussion!!! generally the type to love debating and talking about deeper topics

they struggle a lot with emotions, they analyze their emotions rather than feeling them and often repress things because of this

they get really uncomfortable and awkward around emotional/crying people and literally malfunction bc they don’t know what to do

mood swings. always

i find gemini moons get mood swings frequently bc their mood is affected by even the smallest things (probably due to the constant overanalyzing)

because they bottle and analyze rather than feeling, they often have one big emotional breakdown every couple months, that can be set off by something so tiny

(but then ten minutes later they look in the mirror like “get up bitch you’re fine!” and they’re “over it”)

they get bored of things/people/places very easily and generally welcome change and adventure

so so so talkative, they feel like they’re gonna die when they can’t say what they wanna say (those people writing paragraphs in the tags? probably a gemini moon)

on that note, i’ve noticed most gemini moons were shamed at some point in their life for talking a lot/too much/not seriously enough so i find it common for them to have a bit of anxiety surrounding speaking their mind

they get very upset when they can’t rationalize their emotions and feelings and there’s no way for them to analyze them

gemini moons thrive on discomfort, what i mean by this is they love being in new situations, with new people, studying something they don’t know yet, etc. it’s one of the things that keeps them intellectually stimulated (which they desperately need always)

they always need to be doing 50 things at once to feel satisfied

often feel like they don’t even know themselves bc they change their mind and what they want so much

these moons are often interested in reading/literature and usually love writing as well

can come off as fake because of their ability to see and understand almost any side in an argument

they often avoid taking sides in drama in general, but underdeveloped gemini moons love to stir the drama and add fuel to the fire on both sides

big gossipers and they usually always know about the drama 

You know what, I'm gonna say it: the "I don't wanna die a virgin" trope can suck my big toe. Stop telling kids that sex is an imperative and that their life is meaningless without it.

Sinéad O’Connor / ‘96 Tori Amos tour merch

GOD i want a lover who is first and foremost a friend!! i want a strong and all encompassing connection based on companionship and tenderness!! i don’t want a relationship if it’s just going to be performative and circumstantial and empty and stuck in the context of ownership!! i want my twin flame and i want peace and WHY does that feel like asking for too much

Bats in their natural habitat