One of my new friends (which I'm not going to give a relevant nickname yet because it makes me feel a bit insecure about whether he will continue to be my friend)
Has a crush on a guy for over a year, and even though he has already confessed and the other guy told him that he still doesn't feel safe enough to be in a relationship, my friend is still deeply in love with him.
I can't help but feel jealous, not about my friend perse, but about the relationship itself.
Imagine having someone's unconditional love and devotion even if you don't reciprocate that love... I would feel very cruel if I were aware of that but at the same time I can't help but crave it.
I didn't just spent more than the last hour crying just for today, I spent that time crying for what awaits me in the next months, the next years. I'm tired of repeating to myself "just one more day", isn't every day just one more day?. I just really want to end it all
I accidentally stapled my finger this morning pipipi TT
Aaaaahhh I seriously doubt I'll be able to practice singing today because I have a lot of things to do waaa
Added to that I am also constantly jealous of my friend and his other friend, how desperate RAAAH
I WANT TO SINGI WANT TO SIIIIIIIIIIING, I WANT TO SING PRETTY, I WANT SOMEONE TO WANT TO LISTEN TO ME, I WANT TO MAKE MUSIC I WANTIWANTANQHWJS
I should keep practicing the guitar too
Today I sang until my voice was hoarse, at least I'm learning how to do growls :3
Forgor to say it, but mooties have full permission to ask for my discord.
I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty
I feel like I have the need to throw up something displeasing and nauseous that is inside me
"Nooo! Obsession is not love! That's toxic!"
Me on my way of expressing love through obsession:
how i look texting them