BUT WAIT!

"Make a height comparison chart for your dr people" they said…

"It'll be fun" they said…

Sometimes I forget that this bitch is so tall-

Also bonus Kurogiri because I love my big brother!!

Note: Kurogiri's height is based on the top of his physical head, not the highest his mist gets when not manipulating it- because yes, I thought about how he looks like without the mist in my dr!!

(also the heights probably aren't 100% accurate, but it's a more or less-)

To-do lists:

I feel like making to-do lists of the things we need to do in our dr(s) could be super cool and motivating, like "oh damn! I almost forgot I have to do that! Gotta do that as soon as possible! :D"

My to-do list for my waiting room would include things like: finish that one script, spawn that one character and that other character and watch them argue over the stupidest things, relax, finish that one game, etc.

While my to-do list for my main bnha dr would include things like: annoy the living shit out of Kurogiri (like the little annoying brother that I am), finish that one game (something in common with my wr :D), get your hands on that other game (piracy: the most innocent crime I commit in my dr), training (all I have is speed, stamina and my not-so-working quirk- I have no muscles and I can't really do anything about that- please let me train that damn quirk before canon events start-), etc.

...

Yeah, I'll probably make a proper post about this because why not- I'm bored and still sick😭

yearning for freedom

yuriko ✰ 19 ✰ she/he ✰ reality shifter

<𝟑 hello and welcome to my blog!! I'm Yuriko and this is my reality shifting blog!!

<𝟑 as the name of my blog may suggest, I use this blog kind of like a journal. So I'll be making posts about my drs and I'll update you guys on whatever happens in my shifting journey!!

<𝟑 I don't post often because I'm busy with school most of the time, so...yeah- I don't post often.

<𝟑 my main reality is a bnha reality!! That's the main one I'll be talking about in my blog, but obviously I can post about others as well.

<𝟑 down here you'll find some of my other realities!! Feel free to ask me anything about them, I love yapping!! But keep in mind that, since I'm focusing on my main reality, I don't have a lot scripted and/or figured out about a lot of the realities listed down here.

<𝟑 I usually give (cringy) names to my scripts just to recognise them better, so that's how I've listed them down here. Some of them don't have names yet, but I'll probably find something soon (hopefully). I've had some of these drs for years (more like I've had the ideas, I haven't scripted much) and I can't bring myself to abandon them...so yeah, strange drs-

ᥫ᭡ symbol of fear: main bnha reality .ᐟ.ᐟ #1, #2, #3

ᥫ᭡ home: main waiting room .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ cozy lov: a bnha reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ a stage for two: a bnha reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ friendship is magic: a mlp reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ ???: a mlp reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ the journey begins: a pokémon reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ ???: a pokémon reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ hero of twilight: a twilight princess reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ hopes and dreams: an undertale reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ hidden world: an httyd reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ welcome to berk: an httyd reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ zampacity: a catz petz 2 reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ inkwell isles: a cuphead reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ one hell of a time: a cuphead reality .ᐟ.ᐟ

ᥫ᭡ ...

𝐃𝐍𝐈 anti shifters, haters in general, cringe/cancel culture, close minded people, homophobes, transphobes, pedophiles, zoophiles, racists, sexists, etc.

𝐀𝐒𝐊𝐒 feel free to leave asks!! Whether they're questions or just little messages and comments, they're all welcome. Also I'd be really happy to answer questions about my drs!!

𝐃𝐌𝐒 it'd be nice to make some shifter friends, so don't be shy and come say hi!! But if I don't answer please don't spam, I'm probably busy and/or I haven't noticed your dm yet, so please have a little patience. If I don't want to talk to you for whatever reason I'll make sure to tell you, I'd rather not ghost anyone!!

જ⁀➴ 𝟒𝟒𝟒 𝟓𝟓𝟓 𝟖𝟖𝟖

Am I the only one that doesn't really use affirmations on the regular?

One thing about me is that I don't want to do things unless I have fun with them. Luckily this doesn't apply to studying lmao (at least most of the time-), but it does to shifting.

Saying the same things over and over and over again is too repetitive and boring for me, so I just...don't really do it-

There are times in which I do use affirmations, but most of the time I try to focus on other things for the sake of not getting bored and dropping whatever I'm doing to shift.

If there's anything I've learned about shifting is that we shift constantly. I don't need to affirm to get up and go to the kitchen to get a snack, I just do it. So why would I need to do it to shift?

There's also the fact that when I keep repeating something in my head for a long time I kinda forget what I'm saying- or even how to say it unless I stop for a minute (you know that feeling when you say a word multiple times and suddenly it doesn't sound like a real word? Yeah, that). And most of the time my mind just ends up thinking about something completely unrelated and I completely abandon my method.

Instead of affirming that I'm in my dr I try to 'feel it'. Basically I think about being in my dr without using words- if that makes sense. I'm not sure how to explain it to be honest.

And obviously, since I've never seen anyone in the shifting community not mentioning affirmations, my smooth little brain HAD to start overthinking- but he better shut up, because I'm tired of his shit💀

And actually I just remembered that not everyone has 'a narrator' in their head when they think. And since literally anyone can shift then why wouldn't I be able to do it without affirming the way most people do? Also, there are people who have shifted on accident/without meaning to- AND ALSO, there are people who have shifted without knowing what shifting was- HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO NOT MAKE IT WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SHIFTED WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT SHIFTING WAS??? I don't think they went to bed while affirming of being in their dr SINCE THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHIFTING WAS- AND YET THEY DID IT!!

So yeah, I'm going to shift now, goodnight!!

I've had a DS emulator on my phone for a while and I haven't used it much recently. Today I opened it and remembered I downloaded Nintendogs, I still haven't adopted my first dog.

And you can bet your ass I'm adopting a corgi and calling her Mon-chan.

MON-CHAN MIGHT NOT BE WITH ME IN MY MAIN BNHA REALITY, BUT MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!

(I'm definitely not scripting I also play Nintendogs in my dr and have a corgi named Mon-chan after my childhood pet)

Ok...guys, I know I said I was going to be in my drafts all day, but not only my internet connection fucking sucks today but I also just found out about freeform poetry and you know I'm about to write some corny shit dedicated to my s/o-

Spinner I'm so sorry for whatever monstrosity I'm going to dedicate to you- please don't make fun of me pookie😭🙏🏻 (I know he'd never, he'd actually spontaneously combust positively if I were to write poetry about him, but I'll say it anyway)

I'm trying to continue writing the draft which is basically a remake of the intro to my main bnha dr, but every time I come online and try to write something down I'm just unable to do so. I've been thinking about what happened the last time I tried to shift to that dr, it happened about a week ago I think.

Basically I was lying in bed, visualising my dr bedroom and eventually I fell asleep. When I woke up I was still here, but it was pretty early in the morning (around 3am if I remember correctly), so I began my lazy method again.

While I was visualising I felt something- and it wasn't pleasant at all.

Basically when I do my lazy method I just imagine that I'm my dr self and I'm laying in bed in my dr bedroom. But that can get kinda boring so, since I scripted that eventually Kurogiri will come into my room to wake me up, I prefer to imagine the same thing but Kurogiri is already there. I don't know why, it helps me concentrate more for some reason. Usually when I'm particularly sleepy and cozy I can't help myself but think about him sitting at the edge of my bed and running his hand through my hair (words cannot describe how much I like that- it's an amazing feeling- it makes me feel so cozy and loved😭🙏🏻💕)

So now you might be thinking "did you actually feel his hand on your head while you were trying to shift?"

Unfortunately no- I really wish that was it, but it wasn't.

I was doing my method, like usual, and suddenly I felt a hand touching the left side of my body on top of my blanket. It basically tapped my body from my hip to my shoulder and then once on my mouth which was covered by the blanket. When I tell you I was TERRIFIED it's an understatement- I literally thought someone was in the house. My first reaction was to pretend to be asleep and my heart was RACING. Eventually I said fuck it and did a reality check (pinched my nose and tried to breathe) just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.

The worst part is that it wasn't just a feeling, I literally perceived a hand- specifically a left hand (don't ask me why a left hand, but when that happened I could only picture a left hand for some reason).

Kurogiri would NEVER touch me like that, NEVER!!

So I know for a fact that wasn't him and I wasn't feeling something from my dr. I know I probably was just half asleep and feeling weird shit, but it's not the first time I wake up in the middle of the night and go back to sleep feeling like that AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE- and coincidentally it happened right while I was doing my method.

I don't know, but whenever I think back to it, and I try to connect it to my dr for some reason (the reason being I'm delusional), I can only think of All For One- HAVE I EVER TOLD YOU GUYS ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE THIS MAN? THE SHEER HATRED I FEEL FOR THIS POOR EXCUSE OF A HUMAN BEING IS ONE OF THE MANY THINGS THAT MOTIVATE ME TO SHIFT TO MY MAN BNHA DR- I GENUINELY CANNOT WAIT FOR HIS DEATH, WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I WILL BE ONCE THAT HAPPENS-

So yeah, I'm kinda going insane for what happened and now my hatred for All For One has reached a new level- can't believe my dr self will (temporary, thank fuck-) think of this man as a saviour and some kind of role model and shit-

I don't know why the hate I feel for him motivates me to shift, but it's so funny because whenever something bad yet silly happens in the cr I just pretend that's him trying to sabotage me and I'm like "bitch ass motherfucker that's not gonna work, I'm shifting and kicking your fucking ass💪🏻😼"

All For One I hope you shit your pants and have a horrible day overall!!!😘🥰😍

Me and the League Of Villains reuniting after the war is over like:

Wait for me Iguchi "Spinner" Shūichi, my dr is not too far away

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.