Love, On Its Way Out.

andrew garfield saying, “i hope this grief stays with me because it’s all the unexpressed love that i didn’t get to tell her” about his mothers passing is so gut wrenchingly beautiful because we rarely talk about the love we want to express but can’t, not because you’re not brave enough to say it out loud but because they’re not here to listen to it anymore. calling grief the love you never had the chance to share makes it less of a burden and more of something you want to keep and not something terrible you want to move on from. i love love how everything about grief always comes down to “what is grief if not love persevering?”

When I was alive, I aimed to be a student not of longing but of light. ― Maggie Nelson

1. Vincent van Gogh / 2. Alexander Harding / 3. Egon Schiele / 4. open house 1998 / 5. Ocean Vuong / 6. open house 1998 / 7. Leonard Cohen / 8. Alexander Harding / 9. Ocean Vuong / 10. Richard Siken / 11. Alexander Harding / 12. Richard Siken / 13. Jungho Lee / 14. Bram Stoker / 15. Alexander Harding / 16. Richard Siken / 17. Alexander Harding / 18. Don DeLillo

i've been having a fever of 39°C for two days and imagining my nonexistent lover, who just received a letter about my illness, running through the wind and snow to leave the last kiss on my dry lips is the only thing that keeps me alive

the secret history by donna tartt (1992)

* rereading the secret history and kinda thinking about calling my cat francis *

“You want to protect her, I know. So do I. And I will. After you were killed.” Elisabeth and Noah | Dark

francis abernathy

there’s a wound running through you and you keep clawing at it

“ask polly: help! i’m the loneliest person in the world!” heather havrilesky // daughter // juansen dizon // valzhyna mort “a song for a raised voice and a screwdriver” // sue zhao @blossomfully // @malewifegirlboss on tiktok // margaret atwood // also amparán “glossary for what you left unsaid” // georges bataille “ecstasy” // sophocles

watching 2x05 of dead to me and their relationship is literally This and tbh i’m living for it