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hey check this out. *puts him in the fucking microwave*

wait you understand that kinks are ok because they're fantasies that make you happy right? you all get that you don't need to have trauma for your kinks to be okay? right? like none of you think i witnessed a tragic accident on the pool toy assembly line right?

art of ppl using canes makes me so happy i'm like ":O 🫵 I DO THAT"

i always, always, ALWAYS immediately go "what do you mean?"

because then they have to explain what they mean and what they're asking for and usually

the explanation makes them embarrassed or confused enough to stop asking :)

Some funny/less paltable things you can say when people invasively ask why you have a mobility aid!

"It's a weapon."

Ignore them

Something dramatic like "Oh I was attacked by a shark" or "I got caught in a zombie apocalypse"

"It's to spice up my outfit"

"I tried to build an army of insert favorite animal and they turned on me :("

"What insert mobility aid?"

"Why do you have an insert mobility aid?"

"Why do you not have an insert mobility aid"

"Do I know you?"

"Yeah I guess I just couldn't wait for my 60s"

RB/comment your go-to when somebody asks about your mobility aid!

shout out to fictives who:

do keep their source name

dont keep their source name

feel disconnected from their source

have intentionally distanced themselves from their source

have an "embarrassing" or "cringy" source

really love their source

feel like they're too different from their source

really miss their source world, family, and friends

theres no right or wrong way to be a fictive, just be yourself and you're doing more than enough. ♡

This is a reminder that you can still serve cunt while using a mobility aid, hope that helps

sometimes i start to slide back into the mindset of "what if I'm not really disabled and I'm just faking it" or "what if everything could be cured by just doing x, y, z" etc.

and then i remember that during lockdown in 2020 i spent 6 months — like every single minute of that six months — focused on taking care of my health and doing everything right

i slept 8+ hours, i drank lots of water, i got a decent amount of (non-straining) exercise, i went for walks and got fresh air, i ate balanced meals, etc. etc.

and my health got worse.

i did everything right, continuously, for months, and was still disabled. there is literally nothing i could have done to "fix it". i'm not faking it, i was alone (mostly) and trying to convince myself that everything was fine, and i was still in debilitating pain.

everything has been so much better with disability aids. having my cane has been life-changing. using sensory aids, life-changing! a non-disabled person wouldn't benefit this much from disability aids!!!

i think this is coming up again for me because I've become a relatively well-known person on campus for disability (and queer!) issues, and despite having all of my lived experience and the drive to deal with things, i still feel underqualified.

there are other people who are "more disabled", or have "been disabled" longer than me (since things were really only dealt with during lockdown after my experiment, it's only been like 3-4 years with a diagnosis). sometimes i feel like i'm taking away an opportunity from someone that would be more qualified to do things.

logically though, i'm not. most of these things i have either started myself, or other people have convinced me to get involved with because i seem "qualified" to talk about it. I've had four meetings this week about campus accessibility, people actively seek me out to ask questions, i do regularly deal with ableism and inaccessibility even if it's to a lesser extent than some other people — but the stuff i'm doing is to help everyone, not for personal gain. i'm not pretending to be disabled for selfish reasons. there are clear access barriers that directly affect me as well and i am doing everything in my power to take them down.

anyways you can't really fake being disabled, especially not to yourself. ;)

The way to avoid being a celebrity dick rider is to understand that no one rich AND famous AND influential makes it in those industries without at the very least knowing where some bodies are buried, keeping quiet about some exploitation or abuse, or making friendships and connections with the kind of people who are doing the lion's share of destroying the planet. And that at a certain point, they have more in common with elites than the ordinary people who support them. And also, they're going to be an unavoidable part of your media landscape unless you disengage completely from popular culture and alienate yourself from anyone who touches it. And also, your response to a celebrity's fuckshit is never as important to your response to the same fuckshit in your own community that you have direct influence over and the ability to organize around.

Having a dissociative disorder feels so weird BC you just kinda go from being super smart and self aware to atfdvbvdf brain melt gfcvhugfc only one brain cell left in seconds

reblog if the best idea that you could come up with was falling over and lying on the ground like a lump