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I found you abandoned in a boat house.
I took you with me,
So you weren’t so alone.
You promised you would help me
To stay above the surface.
You would make sure I wouldn’t float off.
You promised.
But when I was thrown in to the deep end,
I realized you were made of cement.
Through my attempt to stay afloat,
I was pulled under the sea.
And all the while,
You clung to me.
You asked me to help you,
Make everything better for you,
Fix everything for you.
You, you, you
And I always felt obligated to do it
Because I was scared of letting go.
I did it all for you,
Even if I couldn’t breathe.
It was there that I drowned,
In your bottomless ocean of lies.
But at least being dragged down meant,
The waves would bother me no more.
I don’t even really know, but everything feels different now and I don’t know if it’s me that’s changing or the world that’s changing and I’m just to slow to catch up. Anyways living and thinking about living makes me anxious so I just keep my eyes open until it’s finally time sleep.