Curate, connect, and discover
Anamia - Blog Posts
I cannot find a GODDAMN SCALE and I'm about to cry about it like the big baby I am.
"YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SUCK IT GREEN BOYYYYYY!"
-To quote Wilbur Soot. It suits my mood right now.
Basically the mental hospital can generally go fUCK itself lmao
GOING TO A MENTAL WARD BESTIESSS
pure excuse to starve myself I swear. they don't check for anything in there. (especially in my state.)
Can someone dm me m3ansp0 so I don't binge? Struggling rn cuz I'm starting to feel sick (fasting stuff). 😓
Ayo 1 like = 2 hours of extra fasting for me
How far do y'all think I can go? Test me.
I FOUND SOMETHING
INCREDIBLE
Ok so for all you other anas out there who want their pelvic bones to stick out, try this. Lay down flat on your back and tuck your legs underneath you for as long as you can. Doing this every night in bed has done SO much good. My pelvic bones stick out even when they normally wouldn't. There's also a little dip in my stomach now even if I maintain or gain a bit of weight.
Not me nearly puking my guts out after chugging a full water bottle at Mach 3.
I hate my internal organs, they ALL suck.
TW, weight
SO excited to get this far. I've gone from 150 lbs to 133.6. I'm so happy with myself! I'm working so hard at it.
Despite this though, the week long fast is still going 'til Wednesday, cuz I am NOT a quitter~! 💕
(Also my grandma [who was visiting] asked if I was eating enough. Could NOT stop grinning.)
me: *tell my mum i am full*
My ed:
My mum: *leaves the room*
Me: ooo emPANADAS *eats 3*
My brain: thank you
My ed:
Based on a true story
(4:36pm)
why why wHY
Quarantine will be longer, we'll have to stay 'til May. That means MORE HOMESCHOOLING:( and that means dead.
I'll go play minecraft just to act like I didn't heard of staying another month in my home.
(2:56pm)
The dumbass is back
Hi, I have a 4.4.4 android so in the middle of 2019 tumblr got an update and i couldn't use the app anymore.
I came back in the quarantine just to see chinese learning things¿¿ I don't know.
I got the app because in my searching of an old version of netflix (i can't use new netflix updates too) i thought that I could use tumblr in an old version too so i'm back for now.
School
I hate school shjshdjdh.
I'm in holy week vacation right now, so i'm not having homework to do. But it was difficult to not stress out with a lot of work to do.
It's like- in the time we were going to school we used to learn something in about 3 days in classes like Social studies, spanish (i'm not supposed to call it like that, but because it is our first language we call it "communication and language"¿¿), etc. And they were sending work to do for THE NEXT DAY. I barely remember what I saw the last week. I do remember math, english and science because two were sending explanations for the homework and science,,, just awful, really, really long if we have in mind that it was for the next day.
Before we got in quarantine, they gave us our grades, and I got 69 in science lol (i'm gonna talk about that in another blog) my grades were pretty meh, english was the higher note, and I got an "i" (for insufficient) in attitude, because I had a mental breakdown in front of the principal. She said it was a "trantum", I couldn't breath, for real, I was choking because I was hiperventilating AND SHE WAS JUST YELLING. My mum came to pick me up but I didn't left the school, and everybody thinks it was my fault.
I'm anxious 'cause if quarantine lasts to a longer time, I'll not be able to know what to do about getting in another school I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT SCHOOL TO GO, i'm going to hang myself.
Sweetheart
I got a "girlfriend" and she's so sweet:(. We're not officially dating, but i've been waiting two years and she finally admitted that she likes me.
She's so sweet, she listens to me when i'm sad, and she wasn't angry when I was answering late her messages because of school. SHE EVEN ASKS ME TO TRY GO TO SLEEP, 'cause I can't sleep.
I love her so much, I can't even express it. But i'm so insecure, I don't want to make her feel insecure because of MY insecurities:(.
I can't sleep and that's why i'm in tumblr again.
It's currently 4:31am when i'm writing this, i can't sleep AGAIN. School fucked up my sleeping schedule (going to sleep at 9pm when I was going to school). This days i've been falling asleep between 1-3am. I don't know what happened this day but i'll be awake at least at 2pm.
Ah shit here we go again??
I spent 6 months eating like a pig and i'm thinking of purging AGAIN and I fucking hate it. I don't like it, but I feel so bad with my fucking fat body I don't know what to do i'm like-
And that's my update for now (day 25 of quarantine: april 8)
FUCK 10 FOR 5am I'M FUCKED
I'm-
THANK YOU, CLASSMATE WHO KNOWS MY TUMBLR, LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO TOLD YOU TO LAUGH OF MY DISTURBING SITUATION *Translation* Me: Man, I'm scared:(, Many porn-dating spam tumblr follow me:(. Some tumblrs are of anas, but aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, I'm scared:( Classmate: *lAUGH ABOUT MY DISTURBING SITUATION* Me: DON'T LAUGH ABOUT MY MISFORTUNE SITUATIONS>:( Classmate: I'm sorry, I love you, but it maked me laugh I LOVE YOU BUT STOPPPP:(((((