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A incredible time to ask this, anon, I say in a not-mad-at-you-albeit-I-am-being-sarcastic-here
I was texting my mother and something she said cut a little too deep than it should have done (about my tone when replying to something she had said). I apologise, explain I have had a shit day
The shit day in question:
- I lost my nana on my birthday last Sunday and got told the day after
- Since then I have been a downright wreck and had to have the week off from volunteering. Today was also no exception. I felt awful the entirety of today, my sertraline is likely running overtime due to this
- My family at home do know that I have struggled with this news, but I don't think they realise how much more it can hurt when you are alone in this situation, isolated from everyone else. There is no community around me to help
- I contemplated calling my mother when I knew she would be awake for support and now that is no longer an option. I just cannot interact with her for a while, I need some space and so I lose a desperately-needed voice of support during all this (she is the only family member I really only speak to)
I have been so close to tears the entire day and this frankly tips it over the edge. I love her so much, I just wish I could speak to her right now