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Lots of CBT therapists claim that reducing the patient to an incoherent sobbing mess every session is how therapy is supposed to work. Lots of them sit there smiling proudly when they torment a patient past coherent thought, and they make no effort to support or stabilize that patient. Same energy as a child burning ants with a magnifying glass. Except that in this case, the child is claiming that the ants are responsible for the fire actually, and that they can stop being on fire if they ~*~*~*jUsT bE MiNdFuL*~*~*~ while doing a bunch of pointless fucking worksheets.
If CBT feels abusive to you, then it IS. It can be very invalidating to people with PTSD/c-PTSD, chronic pain, and other conditions because it refuses to acknowledge the real world, instead framing everything as the patient's silly little delusions. If this feels like your situation, then the bravest thing you can do is end therapy and remove yourself. You deserve compassionate help, not another predator enjoying your pain.