Caloric Deficit - Blog Posts

I made the same lunch as yesterday but added bell peppers and used sesame sauce instead of bbq to give it a different flavor. It was definitely more filling with the added veg but I preferred the taste of the bbq.

We are loving a simple life so I always cook the meat and prep the veg in a batch ahead of time so it takes less time to cook

I had no intention of tracking my weight loss stuff here but this is how I need to journal it. I just want to keep track of meals as an easy resource so I’m not constantly calculating calories. I just want to be simple and cozy and curl up in a warm hobbit hole and eat bread. So this is a really kind of perfect breakfast - once I get a different sausage. Note that Jimmy Dean Turkey sausage Pattie’s are mushy garbage, but will do for now. It checks all my cozy boxes and is pretty filling

Heyyy, i'm back!!!

Today, i ate about 597 calories.

I know that's a bit much, but i was like 2 weeks ill and just didn't felt like ⭐ving today. Well, for me it's okay, 'cause in my opinion, being sick and having to take antibiotics isn't the right time to st4rve and also, i ate under my calorie limit of 600.

Diet culture is so fucking disgusting. I'm googling recommended calories intakes trying to figure out how short I'm falling and every fucking website I'd want to use to calculate how many calories I really need is all fucking "CALORIE DEFFICIANT!!! LOOSE WEIGHT FAST" "RECOMMENDED CALORIES TO LOSE WEIGHT" "CALORIE WEIGHT LOSS CALCULATOR"

If I lose any more, I'm gonna be having fainting spells and shit. I'm literally eating an 8th of what I should be. I love being a chef, but it doesn't leave much room to really enjoy any food.

My face is way too skinny, I'm all sunken and shit. I'm cold all the time, I'm bitchy and I'm constantly exhausted. And I'm so anxious about how little I eat it's stopping me from eating. My house is full of food, but there's no dishes, and im too tired to clean anything. And being that this is America all my food is fuckin garbage anyway, none of it has real nutrients or shit.

I'm literally crying cause ive lost so much weight and I don't know how to replace it. I'm gonna have to overhaul my entire lifestyle to accommodate more meals and build habits and it just sounds like so much fuckin work.

Everyone wants what they don't have, I guess.