Dis Is The End Of Me - Blog Posts

Thank you, Lu, I'll punch myself now for making me cry. WTF I WAS THINKING ASKING THAT QUESTION.

The angst- the pain- IT'S SO SCRUMPTIOUS, WONDERFUL, AMAZING. I'm a mess

C-can we have an angsty time? 😿 What if MC is soon to be ceased and in their last moment they confess their love, barely able to touch RO, as their form just sizzling away in, well, nothing. MC kisses RO for the first and last time and disappears right before the eyes without interrupting eye contact

A: As if losing you once wasn't painful enough, now they had to experience that pain again. And this time, it would be forever, with no return. They tried to reach out to you, feel your touch for the last time...but it felt unreal. You were disappearing into millions of nothing and when they tried to say something, anything, you interrupted them. "I love you" the words are bittersweet, they wanted you to return that feeling, but now it just felt like another fuel for the pain. And when you kissed them, for the first and last time, they welcomed the pain as a gift.

S: They can't survive this again. They've seen you leave more times than bearable...but there was always a way, this time however, things were different. You would never return to them. And if you weren't coming back, they didn't have to stay here. They try to get as close to you as possible, feeling your aura, your energy...."I love you." You say as they make their own confession, that's not a real surprise but they can't help but be amazed at how comforting it is. Their kiss tastes like tears, but they don't care, these aren't just tears of sadness.

Bo: She should be the one to be comforting you. But instead, she's the one being comforted, feeling what's left of you hugging her as you say everything will be okay. "Please, please don't go." She begs you, she has never begged for anything before, not even for life itself. But there's nothing you can do and she knows it..."I love you." You say as she tries to hold on to you even more, futilely, you lean over and kiss her briefly before fading away. And even later when you can no longer hear, she keeps begging for you. 

Kyle: He knew you would be the end of him. But he never imagined it would hurt so much to care about you. Seeing you disappear in front of his eyes was always his worst nightmare and it became real. So real. "Kyle" you call out to him, feeling his hands squeeze you tightly, as if they could keep you from disappearing. "I do not want to know". He cuts off roughly. "But you already know, you know I love you." He holds you tighter but you can't feel his touch anymore and he feels it, letting out an agonized sound. "I will never forgive you for making me love you." He whispers before you interrupt him with a kiss. The first and last kiss in a story that will never happen. 

🔐They don't say anything. All they do is hug you and keep from letting out any emotion. They care about you and you are dying, again and forever. There's nothing they can do to stop it, for the first time in their long existence, they're not enough. "I love you." You say suddenly, and they feel you start to fade faster and faster. "You love me too?" You ask already knowing the answer, of course. "I wish I didn't love you." They respond by looking at you with frustration and barely concealed sadness. You smile, to their dismay, and kiss them and it's what they expected it to be: Soft, sweet and loving. As you disappear, an absolute certainty grows within them. That was the first and the last time they allowed themselves to love.