Emma’s Shifting Diary ˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀ - Blog Posts

shifting diary entry #14

4/27/25

࿔ this morning i woke up about and hour or two before my alarm was supposed to go off and when i went back to sleep at some point my dream began to be about shifting.

࿔ i was talking to my sister and she confessed to me that she was going to start shifting again ( she knows about shifting and after she shifted once a couple years ago she decided to not do it again )

࿔ i thought that i should probably give her some advice and thought to tell her things like you don’t need a method, you can use one of course but it’s not necessary. shifting isn’t physical, it’s mental. i talked to her about letting go, and that all shifting is is becoming aware of different circumstances, a different reality.

࿔ she confided in me on her views on shifting, which were probably just mine anyways.

࿔ then she just told me comforting and motivational words. told me she believed in me and that she knows i can do it too. ( which isn’t the first time someone in my dream told me this )

࿔ i’m not entirely sure what to make of this, but i wish i didn’t wake up in the middle of it probably was gonna be a another dream where i subconsciously tried to shift

04/21/25

shifting diary entry #13

if someone has any advice please share. i could really use it.

yes, this is my billionth post about this topic, but it keeps happening so what is a girl to do……..

i am always dreaming of shifting. dreams of me thinking i’ve shifted, dreams about my reality’s, dreams of my s/o….. and it’s honestly just getting to a point of frustration and pain. like i physically feel this just absolute gut wrenching pain bc of my longing to be somewhere else. i feel sick. no matter what i do it feels like some sick and twisted game my mind is playing.

even last night i had a dream about shifting and my s/o. from what i remember i was standing in a school gymnasium with a group of people. for reasons i don’t know/can’t remember, a panther of sorts was now there and someone was just having their villain monologue moment and i’m not really sure what they were on about. what i do know is i started to panic, i was told or just somehow knew that this creature would harm vampires….. so i went searching the room for my s/o to get him out of there. i remember feeling so scared, even more so when i found him in the crowd. i told him that we needed to go, now. i basically started dragging him out of there. at a certain point he just picked me up and started saying to me “ it’s okay, it’s okay my love, it’s nice to be chosen. ” ( crying and throwing up btw ) and it was just such a vivid dream, his voice in my ear and him brushing the tears off my face….. then a thought popped into my mind as he carried me out of there, what if i shifted rn, in this moment ? i remember feeling a bit frightened but it just washed away bc he was just comforting me….. and my hands were in his hair and he was whispering and the next thing i knew i was just in another dream sequence and i just thought to myself that i almost shifted and i told my sister this in the dream???? SICK AND TWISTED EVERYBODY………..

and pretty soon after that i woke up and tbh i just started crying and it was so strange honestly and i couldn’t stop thinking that despite the fact the he was the one in danger he was consoling me :/

i just don’t know anymore, i don’t know what this means, i just don’t want to feel like this anymore. so if anyone has advice please share bc i don’t really talk to anyone about shifting other than my sister and she’s not a shifter…………… so she just kinda sits and stares at me while i talk.

i had at least three dreams i shifted last night

shifting diary entry #12

as per usual i’m asking things like “ why do i keep dreaming about shifting ” or “ why do reality checks fail me sometimes ” feel free to analyze this for me because i have no idea…

the first that i can remember… i don’t know if i unconsciously tried to shift in a dream and then believed that i shifted or what, but i do remember waking up in a bed with purple sheets and thinking that i shifted because of them ( i don’t have purple sheets here ) and i remember thinking to myself that even though this one thing changed im sure i shifted, but i was in a completely different room yet under the impression this was my room here just with purple sheets.

and here’s the craziest part, i did reality checks and they failed… i looked at my hand and counted my fingers and all ten were normally there. this isn’t the first time it had happened either, reality checks have failed me multiple times before. now, some people might think that it’s possible that i actually shifted but i know for certain it was just a dream.

after counting my fingers i started freaking out and thinking to myself that i actually did it and pinched myself just to be sure and i “ felt ” it. but i also remember thinking to myself that things didn’t feel as real as i thought they would. i mean it’s just another reality right ? i remember thinking that maybe people were lying or something because this doesn’t feel as real as life here. i thought maybe i just needed to be grounded more but as time passed the weird hazy sensations of dreams stayed.

for some context my sister was sleeping in my bed with me and when i woke up in my dream she was there too and im pretty sure i told her that i shifted. but eventually she just kinda disappeared from the dream and i started thinking to myself that i can’t stay long bc i need to tell her that i shifted… which also has happened to me before.

the dream ended up turning into one where i was around people in my intended reality and this is where it gets really fuzzy and i’m having a hard time recalling what went down, but im not sure it’s important anyways. but i do remember that this dream was long as hell.

the next one i really can’t remember at all but i do know it happened bc i vaguely recall trying to shift in a dream and then it “ worked ”. but i think the dream was really short and i woke up really confused with what i just dreamt about and why, why do i keep dreaming about shifting ?

the last one is also confusing. i remember there was a person in the dream i was talking to about shifting and trying to figure out why i haven’t shifted yet, but she gave me awful advice lol. things that would just make things more complicated than they needed to be. i also wasn’t even telling her things that were true, things that weren’t correct about where i was shifting to and where i was gonna wake up? the dream turned really weird and had like 1578 sub plots going on but this girl seemed determined to help me, im not sure if she did though.

also, two days ago i took a nap and ended up in a lucid dream and then tried to shifting in it like a billion times…

february 10, shifting entry #11

it’s been a bit since i’ve made a shifting diary post on here. truthfully speaking, it’s been a while since i’ve even journaled privately about my journey (or anything). i feel a bit lost, my heart aches so much sometimes it feels as though im actually physically hurting. i’m just not sure what to do any more, and im tired.

this isn’t the first time i’ve made a post talking about what im about to. my shifting journey has been heavily tied with my dreams. constant dreams of shifting, my dr, my s/os etc… and still i can’t make sense of it.

last night i dreamt of trying to shift and it didn’t work. i don’t think i was even lucid. (this has happened before too).

just as say in basically every shifting entry, i’ve tried shifting through lucid dreams countless times and i just don’t understand why it’s never worked. yea, maybe it’s not the way for me and that’s cool, but i’ve genuinely believed (especially in the beginning part of my journey) that lucid dreaming was the way for me. i’ve done it many different ways, i’ve done it with many different mindsets, i mean i’ve tried without even being aware i was dreaming.

i know my journey is mine and mine alone, but i really am frustrated and hurting and honestly just confused. and i just don’t know what to do anymore.

as much as other people say things like “what’s a couple of years for many lifetimes of your dream” and i get that, it doesn’t change the feeling of it sometimes just not working. and hey, i’ve made peace in certain lights of waking up here, but that doesn’t change that i long to be elsewhere and belong in different places. i’ve always known i was bigger than just this. so why am i still here?

୨୧ ・。・。・shifting diary entry #10

why do some people end up not shifting to their DR ? ・。・。・୨୧

{ disclaimer: i understand the kind of question i am proposing. i am fully aware that every one is different and so is their shifting journey. nonetheless, i’d like to share my thoughts and experiences. }

i've always wondered about this. if shifting is so easy, why does it seem that so many struggle? of course i understand that something may be universally simple to do but for some that may not be the case. but my question still stands, even in my own journey.

now for some context. the morning i wrote this i was quite tired when i woke up, i was trying so hard not to go back to sleep but ultimately failed. this experience shares some similarities to my last post where i shared how i thought i almost shifted via lucid dreaming. this morning after i fell asleep, i was constantly slipping in and out of consciousness. the whole thing felt like it was going on for so long, when really it was probably only thirty minutes.

from the get go i began trying to shift to my desired reality. it was hard to even tell if i was awake or asleep most of the time. but on multiple occasions it felt as though i was moving into a different position. it was such a confusing experience, i tried multiple times " i'm in my DR, i'm in my DR, i'm in my DR... " visualizing my room... at certain points it seemed like i was pulling my room together, with my eyes closed a light began to form on my right. other times it seemed no matter what i was in the same place in my mind.

at one point i even began to astral project/dream that i was. (i know little to nothing about AP, but i'm pretty sure i was just dreaming). i felt like i was floating up in my room and looked down to see my body on my bed, but it only lasted maybe five seconds before i snapped out of it.

my point to sharing this, and what happened to me the morning of christmas, is that my experiences like this are more than i can count. experiences where after i'm thinking to myself " hey! how did that not work??? "

so often (especially since september) i have many dreams where i try to shift through them, but to no avail... so many dreams where i am not even lucid and i'm subconsciously just trying to shift (?). dreams where my subconscious is basically pointing and yelling at me that shifting is inevitable for me (i wish i was exaggerating). dreams of my DR, dreams of my s/o, on and on again.

and i'm left heartbroken in the end... " why in an altered state of consciousness where i don't need to have worries of my body, my surroundings, am i not there? " now it just feels like i am haunted by my desire to love and be loved.

some days are easier than others, yes, but this question is still stuck in the back of my mind. perhaps dreams are not the way for me, i've definitely thought of it a time or two. then i let it go... but my dreams have always stayed with me, a constant reminder. if i am aware of my dreams so often... shouldn't i use that to my advantage?

i will persist of course, but i've been lost for some time.

I think I almost shifted

shifting diary entry #9

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒 𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

I woke up around 9 this morning and was kinda irritated that the night prior my cat was being annoying when I went to lay down and meditate but I just shrugged it off, it’s Christmas anyways.

I then saw a post on Reddit regarding a way to have your body asleep and mind awake. I thought it was kind of interesting and made a mental note to try it out and laid down and contemplated just shifting right then and there. Most times when I “try” to shift it’s not in the morning due to everyone being up and what not. But I was, still am, kind of just over my shifting journey at this point.

Instead of referencing the info I saw on Reddit I just began to think of my plans my first day in my DR. Eventually my dad turned the heat on because it was so cold and I just decided to let myself rest more bc I didn’t sleep well.

I continued to think of my first day as I drifted off to sleep and how annoyed I was with my journey.

Eventually I slipped into a dream, a very strange one at that, an experience I’ve never had before really.

It began with me trying cake for my wedding (?) and for a bit it was somewhat normal. I’m not sure when exactly my dream changed but I remember being in the car with my sister and dad, he was driving us home. At this point I was constantly teetering on being awake and in a dream, and it’s clear to me now that in this dream I thought I was awake and living out today.

My dad mentioned how he picked up Chinese food for my mom, and I thought that was weird because he was supposed to make wings tonight. I remember joking with my sister that it sucks he did that because we were planning to get Chinese food later.

This dream was so vivid… I remember looking out of the car on the way home and it was so beautiful, the way the light was going through the trees the architecture. I thought to myself “I don’t remember this place ever looking like this.. so odd” there were so many indicators in this dream that I feel like I should’ve gotten lucid but I never did…?

Anyways we got home and the only parts I remember is I was standing on the couch for some reason (it was also in a different spot) and there was a wolf there??? I called out for my dad and when he came into the living room the wolf was gone. He looked at me strangely and said something like “did you not drink enough coffee today” and I remember thinking that that was such a strange thing for him to say in general but also in that moment as I stood on the couch claiming there was a literal wolf in our living room. But still I didn’t become lucid.

Instead I laid on the couch I said to myself “I’m just gonna shift instead” and right when I closed my eyes and said I’m in my DR, my body began buzzing all over, I began to feel as though I was floating and my surroundings around me began to warp. I got excited but stayed focused, I continued saying “I am in my DR” and I imagined where I was gonna wake up, what I would be wearing… and the sensations became more extreme. I continued to persist. But unfortunately something woke me up here.

It was such an odd experience, I’ve lucid dreamt many times and tried shifting via a dream many times before too. But never anything like this where I thought I was awake and just subconsciously did an attempt?????? This feels like a good thing but… where does this leave me? What does this mean, and why didn’t I shift :(

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒 𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

Dreaming + Shifting

Shifting diary entry #8 !!! (and asking for help again…)

I’ve made posts before about what it means to dream and how that relates to your shifting journey, and here I am doing it again… (also I wish I’ve made more diary entries on here it’s kinda been a while, but I’ve doing A LOT of reflection in my personal shifting journal, maybe I’ll make some of them posts…?)

My whole life I’ve been a dreamer, before I even learned of shifting I lucid dreamt quite often. I would use dreaming as an escape from my life here. My dreams are often intense and vivid.

And they definitely were last night, I had so many dreams it was crazy. But to parts in particular stood out to me that made me want to make this post.

It was later in the night, I originally thought to lucid dream and shift that way instead of doing an awake method (because of something that happened earlier in the night that I’ll get to later)

I think I just forgot that I wanted to that and I didn’t end up saying affirmations as I went to sleep to help guide me into a lucid dream, instead I thought of my DR. And … I ended up having VERY vivid dream of my DR s/o. Like I don’t think I’ve had a more vivid dream related to my current DR.

(I don’t remember what was going on before this) I opened the door in the room I was in and there leaning on the wall was my s/o. Again so vivid so much more detail in this dream. I remember thinking that I felt my stomach drop when I saw him there 😭 I also thought “omg he’s so tall I need to script he’s not this tall” ??? Anyways I think we talked but I can’t remember, I just remember kissing him and us cuddling. I remember sitting in front of him with his arms around me. I think someone else from my DR interrupted us bc we had some place to go, and my sister from this reality did the same?

I remember feeling really sad when I woke up, but I just tried to feel better by reminding myself I can just be there for real 😭

Now for the part I REALLY wanted to talk about. The part that, if anyone reading can help me analyze, I would much appreciate it.

I was gonna do an awake method last night but decide I should sleep for a couple hours then do it. So I set the intention to wake up at like 4, I woke up at like 4 30 but I was waking up before this but just kept going back to sleep and anxiously waking up lol. Anyways I woke up and put on a guided meditation and went for it, but then a couple minutes in I just randomly remember this part of my dream that made me stop my meditation.

I can’t fully remember what was going on before this, but I was in some sort of library/book store and this lady asks me to tell her a cool fact. (?)I panicked and couldn’t think of anything. I can’t remember what happened between this moment and the next but it eventually led to us talking about shifting. She told me she’s an avid shifter, she’s been shifting since 2020. And she told me she’s 24 years old? I don’t know who this woman was, she’s certainly not anyone in my life and not like some shifting “influencer” I like or something? I remember her giving me shifting advice but I just can’t seem to remember what it was!?!? 😭 I remember her comforting me, and telling me stuff along the lines of “don’t worry it is inevitable that you will shift” though. Ugh, I wish I could remember. But this is why I decided to try and lucid dream instead.

But if anyone reading this wants to feel free to analyze this for me, idk what this means for me or my journey. If my subconscious mind keeps saying and doing stuff like this, why haven’t I shifted? What does this even mean for me?

I’ve had similar experiences in dreams, like this one time a couple weeks ago I was dreaming of Star Wars (odd bc I’ve never seen the movies) and I met two guys and I explained shifting to them and they were very curious about it. And I even remember thinking in that dream “should I tell them I shifted here?” (???)

Anyways I feel (slightly) sick to my stomach about the vivid dream I had of my s/o and idk what my other part means…

I had a dream I shifted

Shifting diary # 7

Some one please tell me possibly why my brain would do this to me😭🙏

To clarify some things before I explain:

I’m certain that this was a dream

Even though this dream wasn’t (for the most part) a lucid one, I have been lucid dreaming all my life so I don’t want anyone to come across this post and think lucid dreaming is shifting because it certainly is not.

I can’t remember to many specifics about this dream but about an hour and a half ago I woke up and started to remember said dream, (also the night prior I’m pretty sure I had a dream about my DR/significant other) but like I said I dreamt I shifted. I’m not sure what happened before this moment, (like I’m not sure if I was trying to shift and just ended up in another dream) but I put my hands on a wall and thought to myself “this is so real I’ve shifted! I can feel the wall I shifted.”

And I definitely did not shift, for one I didn’t not actually feel the wall, and the dream was vivid but it definitely wasn’t real life, and the there were dream like inconsistencies. And deep down I knew it too even in the dream because as the dream went on I thought to myself “I thought shifting was supposed to be like real life, everything is kinda blurry though …” and I just dismissed these thoughts.

The dream itself wasn’t even to my DR. It was to a weird alternative CR x Gilmore girls reality? (The only Gilmore girls thing I remember about the dream though is Jess being my S/O) I’ve only been focusing on my vampire diaries reality lately, and a while ago I started scripting for a Gilmore girls reality but I kind scrapped the idea. To be fair though I am watching the show atm with my sister, but yesterday I didn’t even watch it?

Throughout the dream I also kept thinking “I can’t wait to tell my sister, and I shouldn’t stay long because I also want to go to my waiting room.” It was over all a strange and frustrating experience, but also one I’ve experienced before. Nothing recently but maybe this happened because about two ish months ago I locked in on shifting again?

Idk but that’s so weird… can someone please tell me why I would dream I shifted but not actually do it???? Why would my brain do that😭 like I’ve had multiple dreams in the past that’ll fail reality checks and or just have a dream about shifting but not actually doing it?

[Also after I woke up from that dream I went back to sleep and had a dream about my actual desired reality BUT it also involved Gilmore girls characters??????????????]

Shifting Diary #6 !!! ✾

(Ok so this is really just a manifestation/LOA post but I’ll get into that later)

I know that a lot of people differentiate shifting and manifesting… And I am no expert on these topics but shifting IS manifesting and manifesting IS shifting.

They are the literally same thing. It doesn’t matter if you:

“manifested” your desired grades in school or

“Shifted” to a Harry Potter desired reality

I just see a lot of people talk about these things as if they are not literally the same thing. Like a lot of people deeming “smaller” things, things closely related to their previous life as manifesting. And “bigger” things as shifting. And really I just am saying this because I never understood it and because for my actual entry today I know some people might be confused. Anyways…

The real reason I’m writing this entry is because of how easy my thoughts are materializing in the 3D lately ꕥ (these might seem like small things but idrc)

For example yesterday I washed my hair and I went to go comb it after but it was really tangled and I was getting really annoyed because this whole chunk of my hairs tangles would not budge no matter what I did but then I just thought “my hair is so easy to comb, this comb I use literally combs through my hair like butter” and right after those thoughts I very easily combed through my hair even though there were these really bad tangles in the back.

And then today, my sister had ordered these sweaters for our cat and they were supposed to be delivered today but we just didn’t know when. My sister wanted them to come as soon as possible and kept checking out the window to see if they arrived. And when I had to go pull the trash can in and take the trash out I looked and mindlessly noticed how it wasn’t there, but I didn’t dwell on it, I just let it pass casually and thought “it’s whatever the package is basically already here.” And I let it go and started thinking of other things (tbh I was just think of my vampire diaries reality) and then… after I finished taking the trash out as I walked back inside the mailman pulled up with the package!

Another one: earlier I was playing DTI with my sister (I’m actually addicted) and I did something really stupid and was playing in the wrong server (my sister was in a different server) and since I couldn’t finish my outfit I was kinda upset but then I just thought “it’s whatever I’ll just get the theme again today and I’ll get it in a pro server” and like less than fifteen minutes later my sister joined a pro server and it had the theme I wanted to redo!

There’s been other things here and there the last couple of days but those have stood out the most I guess. Anyways I’m just really coming to the realization of how easy all of this really is and wanted to share these with whoever comes across this.

Well good luck to everyone with all things shifting !!!

How do you deal with “negative” emotions when it comes to shifting

(I want to make it clear I’m not coming here to rant about not being able to shift)

Shifting diary entry (and asking for help/advice) #5

I’ve had many different relationships when it comes to shifting, a lot of them being really toxic and bad. I used to be so obsessed with shifting (in the worst way possible tbh) it was damaging my mental and physical well being. I mean… I learned a way to escape this life as a teenager already dealing with mental health issues along with toxic parents and other life issues, I am absolutely grateful to have learned about shifting but I understand why my younger self took things a bad way. All I used to do was live and breathe shifting, it’s all I thought about and did. I would attempt multiple times a day and sometimes end up in depressive episodes due to still being in a reality I hated. Obviously this led me to neglect my self and the relationships and responsibilities I had here. My baby sister noticed all these things and really helped me get back on a healthier path.

Now I can say I have the best relationship I’ve ever had with shifting. It is not unhealthy, and I have a lot of new perspectives I have on shifting that my younger self didn’t. Despite still living in a toxic environment, and having issues here, I’ve found a way to balance shifting and this life.

Buuuttt… recently (as I’ve said in a previous diary entry) I have decided to put my focus on a new reality. And it has been a lot of fun. I’ve never really tried to actually focus on going to another DR that hasn’t been my better CR DR. I’ve always daydreamed and made scripts for other realities but I’ve rarely ever tried to go to them, and if I have it was like one attempt and back to my better CR DR.

But this one is sticking around! I feel really connected to this reality and something is making me want to continue.

I attempted to go there last night, I did not have an idea for what I would do to get there (I’ve been putting a lot less emphasis on the “method” bc it doesn’t matter what I do to get there. This was something I’ve struggled with in the past). I felt super confident but I still woke up here.

It has been a very long time since I’ve felt sad from a shifting attempt. I’ve been trying to go to my better CR DR for so long that eventually shifting there just felt kinda forced and monotonous. (A reasons why I changed my focus) So it felt odd today feeling so sad not being there.

I also want to point out that I understand the kind of language I’m using in this post, I know I can ignore the 3D and accept that my desires have been fulfilled, that I actually did shift, etc… but I did wake up and feel these things and I’m just not sure how to navigate things like this in a healthy way.

So if anyone has advice to give please give it I’m all ears to hear others perspectives and advice when it comes to shifting, and today I’m feeling a little down.

Shifting Diary

Entry #4 ⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪

Today I decided to meditate and attempt to enter the void state. I honestly didn’t have a clear picture on what I was going to do, I just laid there tbh.

I kept falling asleep and then waking back up abruptly with my heart pounding (annoying but it’s ok). And I just kept thinking I should persist, it doesn’t matter, my body is asleep anyways let’s continue.

And I did, annnnddd I kept falling asleep waking up. Until at one point I think I was asleep, I wasn’t in the void state but I’m not sure if I was in a deep meditative state or asleep, BUT I just randomly started to affirm “I’m in my waiting room, I’m in my waiting room” and I immediately started see a bright light (but as if my eyes were closed ?). I also want to make clear I know that most shifting “symptoms” are just your body falling asleep, and you they don’t really mean anything in terms of success. But, my body was already asleep and even if it wasn’t idk what a bright light has to do with my body falling asleep.

Anyways, the light thing kept happening and I kept persisting in my affirmations. And for reference I was meditating on my back, but I kept feeling like I was being pulled and turned on my right. I also kept seeing visions of my waiting room in perspectives I’ve never really visualized it from. My heart was pounding I felt like I was flying and it was pretty overwhelming.

In the middle of this part I had a brief thought of something like “oh what if I actually wake up there?” And then had some slight panic but let it go. I’m not sure what that was about because in my whole journey I’ve never been scared of shifting…

Eventually I got way too overwhelmed with what I was experiencing and “woke up”. But the thing is I’ve experienced things like this multiple times before and I’d always wake up feeling sad and angry about me not persisting, and it would usually be a whole thing. But today when I snapped out of it I don’t feel that at all, if anything I feel happy and excited. Ik no matter what I will end up where I want to be and this just motivated me more seeing those detailed visions and being pulled.

I’m so grateful and lucky that I know about shifting! .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ✦ ‧₊˚ ⋅ .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ✦ ‧

August 31, 2024 ཐི❤︎ཋྀ

Diary Entry #3

A few nights ago I decided I wanted to shift my awareness to the vampire diaries. (Quite the spur of the moment decision for me)

In all the time I’ve know about shifting majority of my “attempts” have been towards more personal realities that don’t have a fictional universe in this reality. Which was quite weird for me because I never really saw another shifters with the same goals as I did. (Not that there’s anything wrong with that, if I changed my mind right now to go back to what I wanted a couple days ago so be it. It is my desire.)

I think I ultimately feel giddy and excited about my change of mind, it has brought life and feeling into a journey that unfortunately became flat and dull. Honestly it became tiring “trying” to go someplace and never ending up there. Thinking of the same things over and over again. Occasionally yes, I would download or make a script for something else but I never actually decided to shift to any them, for the most part those scripts are also unfinished. These moments were all short lived and I ended up in the same position I started in.

And while I do feel different about this choice, if I changed my mind I do know and accept that it will be different and I appreciate what the last couple of days have brought me. I think ultimately I need to ask my self what I want in this moment, a hard question to answer given all the things I want to do but, I think no matter where I end up, I want a new adventure of my choosing. I’m just not the same person I was three years ago, I want to try new things and I think that’s been a little strange for me to accept that I don’t really feel the same way I used too. All the work I put in led me down a path that I didn’t really intend. But now as of the last couple of days, it doesn’t upset me at all really. I know I’m meant for bigger and better things. If I want to experience those things still that I did when I was 17, they will always be there for me. :) I have also gained new knowledge and perspective on the LOA and that has brought me some peace as well. And honestly I’m just having a lot of fun and I haven’t felt this way on my journey for a while!

But I do think there was a voice in the back of my head that wants more structure and preparation for this specific choice of a reality, at the end of the day it is reality with vampires, werewolves, witches, etc… I don’t want to put myself in a situation I’m not comfortable or ready for. So having a better grasp on who I am and what’s to come and the changes I want compared to the fictional show I think will push me forward. Even though a physical script or script of any sort is not necessarily, I think some foundation is needed for me rn.

I’ll probably write another entry soon, maybe about the changes I’m making from the original show. If any vampire diaries shifter find this pls talk to me I don’t have anyone to talk to about it!

August 22, 2024

Shifting diary entry #2

I was meaning to make a post sooner these last couple of weeks but I was feeling lazy and forgetful. Anyways, I’m finally writing something now.

Today I was feeling pretty tired and my sister and I took a nap. I decided to use my headphones and play a subliminal. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was planning to do, but I didn’t really care about that. I just started to relax and kept affirming “I Am” I’m not really sure if I affirmed anything else though, this whole thing is kinda fuzzy to me. Along with affirming I kept my body still and tried really hard to not move at all so my body would fall asleep and I would stay awake.

I feel like I was just constantly drifting in and out of consciousness. And then at one point I felt really floaty and heavy at the same time and I don’t remember hearing my subliminal any more. I’m not really sure if this was the void state or not, but I do know that at that point I wasn’t even thinking of shifting, instead I was trying to get myself to lucid dream. I can’t really recall if I did lucid dream or not but I do know I had a really vivid dream (unrelated to anything regarding shifting) and then I felt that I needed to wake up from my nap so I did. I thought my sister and I had overslept because it felt like I was meditating for hours, but when I checked my phone I was only doing all this for 30 minutes…

I’m not sure if I will meditate again tonight or not. I think I need to figure out how to remember I even want to shift? Idk, but that’s all for now!

✩ August 1st, 2024 ✩

A late entry for my shifting attempt last night !

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Yesterday was actually my 20th birthday ! And luckily for me it was a better birthday than I thought it would be. :D

I ended up going to bed reaallllyyy late and earlier that day I planned on trying to get in the void state and shift like that ( I’ve never been in the void state before ) but I was so tired I couldn’t even try to meditate longer than five minutes and was irritated. I’m not sure why I didn’t just try and do something else, but I just let myself go to sleep ! ( which is ok )

I was telling myself that I’d let myself shift as a gift for my birthday, but it is what it is.

I’m not sure what I’ll do tonight, I think it’ll depend on when I go to bed. Though, I don’t think it matters all that much.

Anyways, that’s all for my first entry. Good luck to myself and anyone else planning to shift tonight !