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I don't think I'm going to be updating Demigods of Valyria any time soon.
Yesterday, April 23rd, I had to put my cat, Xena, down because she was suffering from absent seizures and if I had brought her home she would have died in pain and I couldn't do that to my baby. I miss her.
When she was 6 months old we rescued her because she had severe wobbly cat syndrome so she couldn't walk. My parents let me keep her even though we were originally going to give her to a kennel that could take of her.
For 2 years she has been my baby, my princess, my pretty girl, my everything and now shes gone. Ive been suicidal for years and for the past 2 shes been one of the few things I lived for.
I'm tired. I can barely think of her name without sobbing, i cant look at my other cats without just collapsing because I miss her so much.
I miss how when I talked she'd respond. I dont have any recordings of her voice.
I couldnt sleep in my own bed last night because she always slept with me and I cant stand being in my room because it hurts so much.
I'm sorry.