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Dear (b n),
You’re: another shade of perfect that won’t match with my skin; a walking perfect disaster (a soft, soft sin).
You’re: a little too late — but still a wonderful feel — of autumn bliss; another fairytale worth a poisoned apple kiss.
You’re: pale, yet rosy and gray; midnight rumblings of ‘stay stay stay.’
You’re: a loss of breath; a wrong kind of fret.
You’re: my wrong-timing, my would-have, my what-if; my probably, my maybe.
Yours,
(eusie.)
Dear (h n),
You should know by now that this is about you
But if you’re not in love with me too then I doubt that you do
There were no fireworks or violins playing beautifully the heaven didn’t open its gates and set out its angels to sing love songs
No when my eyes first landed on yours I got stranded on the crooked smile on your lips and on the calm sea surrounding you
I think that’s when I realize that I might end up sinking that I might end up drowning
And I didn’t know if I should be afraid
But this feeling this magical feeling each time I saw the sparkle in your eyes when I glanced at you
But this feeling
I knew it won’t run away from me but stay and hide in each of my veins and my heart will explode with this feeling of you with this feeling of wanting you
I knew I knew I would fall for you
The second time my eyes landed on you the crooked smile was back but the calm sea was now a storm
And I was already sinking
And and and then
You said my name
I think that’s when I realize that I might end up drowning next
And I still didn’t know if I should be afraid
But this feeling this magical feeling was still there each time I saw the sparkle in your eyes when I glanced at you and as if you stitched my soul my heart craved and craved for your attention and for you to say my name again
But this feeling
I knew it won’t run away from me and my heart will explode from every word escaping your lips each time you speak to me with every hair on my skin you lit up each time you smile at me my heart will definitely explode with this feeling of you with this feeling of wanting you more
I knew I knew I was falling for you
The third time my eyes landed on you
I, I, I
I think I was already crazy but there were fireworks there were violins playing on the background and the heaven opened its gates to let the angels sing their love songs
And with the clouds smiling at me and the wind whispering a happy melody
I got stranded I sank
And I definitely was drowning and already falling
And I wasn’t afraid
Because this feeling this magical feeling did not run away from me and my heart will continue to explode with this feeling of you with this feeling of wanting you endlessly
I love you I love you I’m in love with you
And you should know by now that this is about you
But if you’re not in love with me too then I doubt that you do
Yours sincerely,
(eusie.)
Dear (z a),
Sometimes you remind me of eating sweet chocolates under a night full of stars near a breathtaking view of the sea with the wind flushing our cheeks red
Because I hope you’re like a movie where you’re a happy ending and a lovely soundtrack that’s like a lullaby
But you are cigarette ashes left unwanted near the window panes and an unheard song that will always be buried deep inside my head
Because you’re like an old piano playing sadly alone in a dark room a dangerous whirl of the wind as the light of day walks away
No, no, no this shouldn’t be like a love letter
Because that would mean kisses planted on pieces of paper hoping you’ll feel them under your fingertips or each letter and phrase etched like teardrops that won’t taste salty but bittersweet romance
No, no, no this shouldn’t be a love letter
Because you deserve more than that you deserve green lights on a busy day or full breakfast served on your bed and homemade cupcakes sweet as love you deserve sunrises and sunsets beautiful as you
Caught up like a fly on a spider web I now don’t know where this river of words lead to when all I want is to witness your glory and be a torch of hope to your seemingly never-ending dark roads
My friend,
When the night eats away your life I’ll breathe into you my soul when the day abandons you during your weakness even if I can’t, even if you don’t want me to I’ll shine on you
Yours sincerely,
(eusie.)