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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 1: SET C - “An Eternal Memory” (Prologue)

I swore I'd never forget. I wonder, did I keep this promise? I held the memory close, that much I can say, but still … In my rage, the hatred I didn't even acknowledge … Didn't I change it's meaning?

It is hard to understand why I acted the way I did in this quiet moment. No, not to understand. It is hard to believe. What a fool I have been. Had I acted differently … would I have been able to change fate? Had I been stronger, could I have been able to change the fact that it is you lying in front of me, motionless, once again?

“Wake up,” I whisper, knowing that you are probably not able to hear me. They keep telling me, that you don't. Yet, how would they know? When I was lost in darkness out of all things it was your voice I heard. So, wouldn't it make sense for you to hear mine as well?

When they tell me not to push myself too far I can feel a sense of empathy coming from them that I neither deserve nor wish for. I fake a smile nonetheless and promise. Another promise I am probably breaking in this twisted way of mine, without even knowing. This is all I can do for you, so I won't stop. For as long as it takes I will be staying by your side. I will keep the memory of you.

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