Curate, connect, and discover
Ok so this isn't really stupid, but I do wonder if Dazai took the time to explore the world and people a bit.
Like Odasaku wants him to help people, but he's spent so much time entrenched in darkness, so he needs to start small by helping old ladies cross the street and listen to them talk about their grandkids.
Maybe he helped out at a school to learn a bit more about children.
Volunteered at a soup kitchen to observe those in need in a much different way than he's used to.
Would just sit in a park to watch parents playing with their kids, couples walking together, etc.
He's always said he wants to die, but this is different. Sort of like what he said about observing death up to close to understand what it truly means to live, but the opposite. Observing life up close to understand what it truly means to die.
And finding that maybe, he doesn't want that. Maybe, living in the light won't be so bad.
what's your stupid thing you think Dazai learned during his two years in hiding while keeping himself busy