I Don't Know How To Process Negative Emotions - Blog Posts

Our sweet old man Mittens developed a clot in his hip, one that operating on had little chance to help him at all, and would guarantee lasting pain until he passed. My Mom and Sis decided that letting him go out in minimal overall pain, with them there at the vet, was better than putting him through a torturous surgery at his old age, so tonight is his last night.

This is a video I took of him a week or so ago, as well as two pictures, when he came to snuggle with me in my bed. Sweet old man despite his crankiness at everything. I'll miss you, Mittens, even if I don't really know how to show it well.

Sad post about sad things

How do you deal with tragic events? I took years to fully establish in my mind that my best friend had died, I still struggle to believe both my grandmothers are gone, and now our oldest cat looks to be dying, since something has gone wrong with his hips or leg or spine.

I had to hear my loving sister, sweet and strong thing that she is, break down sobbing because this is probably the end for him.

I'm mad he's hurt, upset he's in pain, upset he's likely going to die, and all I can really do is sit here and fail to express any of this beyond the text side.

How do I deal with emotions that I can't really express outwardly? I want to express them, I can feel them, but I can't seem to actually do it.